50 My One And Only Darling! (1/2)

After a long indeterminate moment, Ying Yue finally spoke in a soft voice, ” ...I came here because...”

She hesitated for a while before finishing her sentence, ”...I was scared...”

Jun Feng seemed a bit surprised but he concealed it and continued petting her head.

Ying Yue slowly looked in Jun Feng's eyes, observing that her face was clearly reflected in his dark eyes.

She then looked down again and confessed, ” I am scared of losing my humanity...What if one day I become a monster...? ”

” The way Liliane and Gen Lei were staring at me made me look like a monster, like a horrible human being... ” Ying Yue sighed as she remembered their scared expression.

” I know it's not their fault, it's a normal reaction but...I couldn't help but feel a bit...hurt? ” Ying Yue said as if she was questioning her own emotions.

” Silly, right? ” Ying Yue slightly laughed as she looked at Jun Feng.

Jun Feng's heart almost broke when he saw his usual cheerful treasure forcing herself to smile even when she clearly felt sad.

” No, it's not. ” Jun Feng confidently answered while a lump of indescribable feelings grew in the back of his throat.

Hearing this, Ying Yue cast her gaze downwards, ” I have no right to feel like this. I am a mafia boss. Someone that kills and that deals with underhand markets. Someone that society doesn't want. ”

” I feel like a monster but at the end of the day, people can only point their fingers up to me and tell me that I deserve this and I should suffer even more... ” Ying Yue already knew this beforehand but the more she reflected on it, the more she felt disgusted by herself.

Jun Feng's brows deeply furrowed. He was also a mafia boss and had already thought about this point of view but seeing Ying Yue approach the subject so openly surprised him.

” You know I am 23 almost turning 24 right? ” Ying Yue asked.

Jun Feng slightly nodded.

” I must be pretty incredible to control Asia's mafia at such a young age right? ” Ying Yue smirked.

” ... Hmm. ” Jun Feng agreed.

Ying Yue buried her head in Jun Feng's chest, searching for warmth and comfort, ” Well it's true I am strong and quite intelligent but...I'm so weak mentally that I am so easily affected by everything...”

Ying Yue sighed, ” That's it, that's all I wanted to say. ”

Her head popped back up and she pecked Jun Feng's cheek, ” Thank you for listening to all this gloominess! ”

Ying Yue softly smiled.

Jun Feng felt his heart squeeze, the suffocating feeling made him uncontrollably sad, ” How was she so strong? ”

” Stella. ” Jun Feng's low voice resonated in her ear as he pulled her near him.

” The people that can so easily admit their weakness are not weak at all. Only people who refuse to acknowledge their weakness are truly weak. ” Jun Feng reasoned.