Chapter 80 - First Time Feeling Sexually Gratified (2/2)

After YanMingXiu finished eating, they made love.

In the beginning, it was just like usual, a silent, unilateral venting sex act. ZhouXiang was still like an ostrich, concealing his face and emotions. YanMingXiu still didn’t utter a word as he forcefully thrust into him. YanMingXiu slammed his body with such powerful force that ZhouXiang’s head almost hit the headboard.

He had experienced YanMingXiu’s abilities and strength in bed a long time ago. But at that time, both of them enjoyed it. They often did it throughout the night, satiating themselves. But now, this was for YanMingXiu to vent his desires and emotions. ZhouXiang merely took it as a job, never complaining. It’s good that this deal is settled to each of their satisfaction.

However, something is oddly going on with YanMingXiu today. Whether it is intentional or unintentional, he’d touch his body a few times. These touches were like… like he is feeling him out. The areas that YanMingXiu touched were all his (older ZhouXiang’s) sensitive spots. Although he’s in a different body, he’s come to realize that he is still not immune to these touches. Very soon, he started to feel a different kind of sensation. He instinctively felt that YanMingXiu is trying to test him; that he is doubting him. This hasn’t just been once or twice; he just didn’t expect YanMingXiu to choose this method…

ZhouXiang tried hard to control himself from making any sounds but YanMingXiu seemed to be doing it deliberately by prolonging his thrusts, very slowly entering and then very slowly pulling out, completely shattering his willpower.

For the first time, ZhouXiang felt pleasure, making him endlessly terrified. He suppressed his body’s reaction but could not resist the increasing turbulent waves of intense pleasure.

YanMingXiu also became unusual, his breathing becoming particularly heavy, as if he is trying to repress something.

ZhouXiang voiced hoarsely, “Enough… you’ve had too much to drink.”

YanMingXiu turned a deaf ear and continued to change the angle of his thrusts. It is the first time he has the desire to penetrate this body and the feeling is actually this good. It is as if the person beneath him is the one who had been constantly on his mind.

At this time, how could he stop?

He didn’t care whether it is his drunken delusion or what it may be, he just wanted to grasp firmly onto this current feeling. For the longest time, he had not felt this kind of satisfaction.

Both of them are caught in an unprecedented state of ecstasy. Besides desires, there was nothing on their minds. In fact, who they are actually having sex with became insignificant.

ZhouXiang felt like he is on the verge of drowning to death. He clutched onto the bed sheets tightly, withstanding the thrills of passion that seemed to have separated from his body a long time ago. In this moment, he couldn’t tell which body he is in, whether it is his past life or this present life. This kind of familiar feeling invaded all his memories, causing him to forget where he’s at.

Or it could be said that whichever body he was in, at this moment is no longer important.

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Having consumed liquor, YanMingXiu slept very deeply. YanMingXiu didn’t even notice when ZhouXiang got up and quietly left.

ZhouXiang wrapped himself in his coat and walked home. The apartment he rented is close-by, taking merely 20 minutes of walking to get home. But because of the sexual indulgence all night, his legs trembled constantly. Every step he took reminded him of what happened last night.

It was too crazy… If he didn’t yet still have a trace of reason, he would’ve thought that he had returned to the past.

He didn’t know if YanMingXiu noticed any differences. He hoped that he (YanMingXiu) had so much to drink that he’d completely forgotten everything when he woke up. Otherwise, he really didn’t know how to explain the flawless compatibility of their bodies.

This may be too ironic. Thinking about it now, maybe YanMingXiu was delaying on having an actual confrontation with him because their sex was quite pleasurable. At the time (referring to the past life), he only had YanMingXiu on his mind, so perhaps he (YanMingXiu) couldn’t let go because of this. Men are just like this.

ZhouXiang is too lazy to think about the future. Every day, he is troubled by a lot of problems. So much that he doesn’t even have time to relax. Sometimes there are so many pressing issues on his mind that he just wanted to fucking let it go so he can get some peace, even if it was temporary.

ZhouXiang got home, took a shower, and fell asleep. When he woke up, it was already noon. He went with ChenYing to the hospital for her dialysis treatment. Then, they spent a peaceful day grocery shopping, cooking and watching TV together.

The next morning, ZhouXiang went out wearing all black.

He bought a bouquet of flowers, liquor and cigarettes and then hailed a taxi to the cemetery in the suburbs.

When his parents died, the state was not strict in managing the cemeteries, even paying for the burial fees. Unlike now, he can’t afford to be buried here.

Walking through the rows of serene tombstones along the cemetery, he came to the spot where his parents were buried. This spot, he will never forget.

Looking at the familiar yet distant faces on the tombstone, ZhouXiang sat down on the ground.

He had thought that after so many years, he would have long been at peace. But having experience so many things these days, he had nowhere to vent out his grievances. Sitting in front of his parents’ tombstones, his heart felt especially uncomfortable.

“Dad, Mom, I’m here to see you. You can’t recognize me looking like this but I’m ZhouXiang. I am really ZhouXiang. I am your son. No matter how I look like…” Toward the end, ZhouXiang is chocked up with emotions. He suddenly had the urge to cry.