Chapter 139: Plan for Eight Years and Act Only for Her (1/2)
After listening to Bai Aoxue’s words, Ye Zhaojue’s heart ached instantly as if it were stabbed by a needle. But he was somehow addicted to this feeling.
“What behind the bitter may be sweet, right?” Ye Zhaojue said to himself.
Did Bai Aoxue always think like this, in the time when he could not protect her, when he could not accompany her, and when he didn’t fulfill his duty?
“Uncle, this is my choice. Once my mother said that once people have something to protect, they will become powerful, fearless and have no regret.” Bai Aoxue let Jun Yeyan hold her as he wished. She patted his back and said faintly.
The words which were insipid and warm resounded in this empty room. All the people here were shocked.
Ye Zhaojue knew that he couldn’t persuade Bai Aoxue. She was not like him or Ye Wanqing at all. They had neither indifference nor inhumanity, but Bai Aoxue had both.
However, her obstinacy was so much like them. Just like now.
“Are you sure that he is your Mr. Right? If he is really a faggot prince, maybe he can give you a blithe lifetime. But he is far more complex than you think. I don’t believe that you didn’t guess it at all.” Ye Zhaojue was reluctant to bear Bai Aoxue to suffer more, so he continued.
He had mentioned all the interests and defects in an obscure way.
As soon as Ye Zhaojue finished his words, Bai Aoxue found that the arms holding her shook gently. Although it was a very light action, she still noticed it.
Maybe Jun Yeyan subconsciously knew that what Ye Zhaojue mentioned was the current situation of Bai Aoxue.
At first, he didn’t want to be against Jun Wuhen so quickly. After all, there were still some forces in the court out of his control. He may lose all he had if he turned against Jun Wuhen.
But he couldn’t bear Bai Aoxue to suffer, too. Things like poisoning would not end after the first time. Could they prevent to be poisoned next time?
If it happened again in the future, he might lose Bai Aoxue.
He didn’t allow such things to happen. How could the warmth he caught and the peace he found be plundered by others easily!
“But uncle, I’ve been involved in it, and I can’t quit now. Before I was involved in it, Jun Yeyan gave me time to think. It’s my own choice. I choose to walk on the rugged road that others would not think or dare not to think. I choose this man who was despised by the world. I choose everything myself.” Bai Aoxue interrupted Ye Zhaojue faintly and said in a desperate way.
“He gave me time to think and I choose him by myself. Uncle, you will not understand that when you are alone for too long and afraid for too long, when you are full of stabs, how touched you will be if someone is still willing to choose you regardless of your stabs.”
“I never tell him how touched I was at that moment. In the past, there were always people who said that you should take good care of yourself appeared. But no one has ever thought about whether I can take good care of myself. You don’t know how touched I was when Jun Yeyan said he would take care of me. That mood was like boiling water which can scald people as long as it overflows.”
The light voice lingered in people’s ears. Nobody spoke again until Bai Aoxue finished her words.
No one thought that Bai Aoxue, who had always been indifferent and proud, would say so much and had such rich feelings.
All the time, the indifference of Bai Aoxue was regard as something from inside. It seemed that nothing could warm a cold person like her.
But now, it seemed that she also understood the warmth and emotion. She just kept these treasures in her mind and remembered firmly but never talked about.
After listening to Bai Aoxue’s words, Ye Zhaojue who stood beside Bai Aoxue felt itch in his throat and astringent in his eyes. Such a scene was so familiar to him.
In those days, Ye Wanqing chose Bai Qiwei in the same desperate way. She left firmly and without any regret.
“Brother, you will never understand this. It’s only him who tried his best to make me laugh. And he is the only one who knows I feel cold all year round. He covers my hands by his hands every day. That is the warmth I yearn for and he gives me that.”
Ye Zhaojue remembered vaguely that his young and frivolous sister looked at him with tears in her eyes and told secrets that she had never told him at that time.
At that time, his sister had already been determined to leave him.
Now, his only family said the same words to him once again. It was really like a dream.
“Aoxue, I understand. I have to admit that my little girl has finally grown up, and will not hide behind the door, watching me timidly and telling me to come back early.” Ye Zhaojue took a step back, hiding in the dark and sighed slightly.
Bai Aoxue was shocked by Ye Zhaojue’s words.
“If Wanqing see this, she will say that you are the same as her. You said almost the same words as her. Once I watched your mother, who was just like a happy butterfly, flying through colorful flowers to her happiness, ended up sadly. If it were your mother who stands in front of me today, I would stop her without hesitation. I don’t want to see that she chooses a way like that even if I have to break her wings.”
“However, it is you who make the choice today. I won’t stop you because I know that you are different from your mother, and Jun Yeyan is nothing like Bai Qiwei, too. I believe you. So, don’t let me down, Jun Yeyan. Maybe you’ll get many things in the future, but what Aoxue can get is only you.” Ye Zhaojue gathered the complicated thought in his eyes and said to Jun Yeyan gently.
At this moment, he was no longer the Weiyuan General who was famous and respected.