Chapter 171 (2/2)
Because it is also evidence of the incident, it did not come back to my hand, instead they showed me the items in a plastic bag during my hospitalization.
It is a thin pelt armor that has been torn in tatters here and there, and a deep dark colored cloak that seemed like it could even devour light.
When I saw it, a strange sensation ran through my body.
It felt like something that I cherished very much.
That’s why, even though I knew it was unreasonable, I asked the two detectives if they could return the evidence.
I thought this was important to me before I lost my memory, so I thought it would help me regain my memory.
「『Oh, is tomorrow inconvenient afterall?』」
「…… Sorry, I already had an appointment to go out tomorrow」
「『There is no need to apologize. It was a sudden request to begin with. I just called because I thought it would be better to do this earlier』」
「I will come pick it up next weekend. Please extend my gratitude to Miyagawa-san」
「『Okay, I’ll let her know. I am also sorry for calling so late, till next time』」
We exchanged greetings and then put down the receiver.
「~~~~~—-, WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING, I……」
And so I collapsed on the spot along with my feelings of guilt.
Miyagawa-San and Onishi-San seem to be investigating the case of the 『Teleported Candidates』 that still occur in small numbers.
『Thanks to the idiots out there increasing my workload, as in you have no idea』, he seems to be busy working as he complains thus.
Amidst all that, he did his best and turned up for me, only for me to put off the request that initially came from me.
Moreover, the reason was because I did not want to increase the load on my mind any more because of my sister. That’s all.
Talk about selfishness right.
「……Haa, I’m going to bed」
As I quietly turn off the lights in the living room, I returned to my room on the second floor.
As I lay down on the bed while it makes a Gishi creaking sound, I wrap a good quality futon around my body
I was able to relax just a little, as I felt a moderate feeling of resistance and softness, as if sucking the strength right out of my body.
I must say, it’s worth spending all my saved pocket money to purchase.
「……」
Calm your mind, look into yourself, and look for lost memories.
Since I saw the knife in Mai’s room, that habit that had continued for a long time before I went to bed was also interrupted.
Although it is not as serious as Mai, it is honestly worrisome to face myself with this muddy feeling in my current compromised mental state.
I turned off the light and covered myself with a futon so as not to think about anything.
But, after a while I’m pretty sure Mai will come to my room and crawl into bed today too.
And she’s going to leave my room so that I won’t notice by tomorrow morning.
(I heard that you can sleep in three minutes with your eyes closed, but it’s not so much as sleep and more like passing out……)
I quickly fell asleep, remembering words I didn’t even know where I heard them.
Praying for a deep sleep so that I do not notice anything.
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『Hey, you bastard, how long are you going to play dumb』
This is a dream, right, this is definitely a dream.
A dark space that spreads endlessly, and various shapes of crown were floating around.
There I am conscious and slightly dissatisfied thinking, could this unreality be anymore obvious, that if this is a dream, at least it should be a little brighter.
In a dream at least, let there be light without feeling any anxiety or inconvenience whatsoever.
『You bastard, what the hell are you doing?』
I feel like I’m melting away all over this space.
In that box of dim darkness, a man’s voice echoes.
In this place, where there seemed to be no gap which light could penetrate, however, the man’s silhouette was clear.
The man whose face I cannot see as if wearing a shadow veil sits on a needlessly extravagant throne and looks down on me with his legs crossed across the darkness.
The body contour is thin, and the voice a little childish like a boy before breaking his voice, echoes out the belief of one who absolutely believe that he is a strong person.
(…… Who are you?)
I felt like something I’ve seen before in a drama, a movie, or an image of a character I saw in something, somewhere.
It’s funny that I feel like I have seen him before even though I can’t see his face, but it would be strange to ask my dream for such a detailed reason.
『I am, me. I’m a part of you, your power, and the form of sins you bear』
(Whoa, this is nasty. This level of the Chuunibyo is too high)
I’ve heard that dreams are a manifestation of the subconscious, but at this rate, I definitely don’t want to be diagnosed by Dr. Freud.
In this way, dark past will always follow me.
Well, rather than an ambiguous gloomy dream, a Chuuni dream may be somewhat better.
『Haa, to adorn yourself in such a silly affectation even in front of me. That’s quite hardcore even though you let go of your memories. Well, I guess that’s indeed my *main sanctuary who has always had an escapist behavior. Though I already knew that from the beginning』(TLN: It means like a main body or personality)
The self-proclaimed part of me who is laughing through his nose so haughtily seems to have come to kill me with shame.
Hey, what a dream. Or rather, what a character to have been created from my head.
『It doesn’t matter. You bastard, I am tired of waiting. Just remember everything and release me already. You don’t have the luxury of waiting, not even for a second』
……I don’t really get it, but it looks like he is also telling me to recover my memories.
『Only a deeper despair lies beyond your closed eyes. You should already be aware of that』
Oh, damn, you’re just a dream what would you know, currently, my hands are filled with stuff about Mai.
What’s so wrong about postponing matters of myself for just a bit.
Still, I have been trying properly to remember, what more do you expect of me.
『…… I cannot help but feel pity towards the you screaming within yourself. Even though it’s been screaming out loud all this while』
I know, I know that already!!
Every day, every day, every day, feeling like stop messing around, remember, don’t forget!
I CAN HEAR THE VOICE EVERY DAY SO MUCH THAT I CANNOT HELP IT!
『Then don’t disappoint me too much if you already know, otherwise you will』
Beyond the shadow veil, though invisible, surely the man laughed.
He looked at me and laughed.
『End up losing something important, again』