Chapter 155 (2/2)
「What…?」
With those words, she took out a deep purple, almost black jewel that was shining with sinister light.
「Such is the proper state of this world. As the proof of that, you used abilities of『Indolence』and『Lust』on your own volition, which would allow for this to happen. The after-effect of using 『Lust』is『Complete nullification of all resistances to abnormal status effects』and demerit of 『Indolence』is『Loss of Influence over surroundings』. It is distressing but now, the ritual can be completed without any resistance.」
The moment Meteria poured magic power into the jewel, a magic circle shining with seven colors appeared with me in its center.
「You went through a lot of suffering. I am so sorry, it is all due to my incompetence. But, it seems that by returning to a former world, a hero would lose all his memories of this world. It is sad that Kaito-sama will forget about me as well, but together we can create new dear memories.」
This magic circle had a pattern similar to that in the summoning room in the royal palace.
The light enveloping our surroundings was the same light I saw when I was summoned to this world.
「Wa, Wait, hey, wait a moment!!」
Everything was way too sudden and my mind could not catch up with that. Yet those words were going inside my head like an echo.
『Return to original world』
『Lose memories of this world』
「Now, I really don’t want to part with you, but let’s speak of our love next time. To return Kaito-sama on the correct path and to start everything from zero there is still a lot of things left for me to do.」
「Sto, Stop…, What is this, don’t screw with me. 」
Rage and fear arise in my heart.
「You fucking kidding me, you fucking kidding me, you fuuuuuucking kidding!!!」
Return to my original world? Lose memories of this world?
And what will that do? My original world where I have lost so many things.
Without any family or friends, without even knowing why it turned like this, I will have to live there all by myself?
Don’t fuck with me, don’t fucking give me that shit!
「Stop!!! Shit, I have things to do in this world! As if I can go back to my world like this!! I am still not done!!」
My head is boiling inside but my limbs affected by paralyzing poison won’t permit me even to stand up.
「It’s okay Kaito-sama. We will remake everything. Forget all the unnecessary things and once again, descend upon those lands as a hero. This time, I will always be by your side. I will take all of your loneliness and pain and together we will share joy and happiness.」
「What are you trying to do, why, why are you doing this!!」
「Why? That is obvious.」
She softly reached out her hand to me, touched my cheek and slightly parted her light pink lips.
「I love you dearly, Kaito-sama. No matter what happens, those feeling are absolute to me. Even if this is the path engraved by the Lord, this is my『Truth』」
「Mmguh?!」
Without even a chance to resist, a warm, soft and slightly wet sensation descended on my lips.
The next moment, I was assaulted with a feeling similar to that when I came to this world and felt that a link connecting me, Minnalis and Shuria was severed.
My vision distorts and thaws, my surroundings are filled with a torrent of indescribable colors.
In a space where it is impossible to tell where is up and where is down, I just keep falling while feeling resistance akin to being inside of a swamp.
There, black shadow-like hands, twisting like snakes extend towards me.
「Gaaah, guuh, Stop, StopStopStopStopSTOOOOOOOP!!!」
They are passing through my skin and in an impudent manner are grabbing and pulling something out from inside of me.
The fingertips are probing and seeking and then layer by layer taking away something that is important to me.
「GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH, DON’T SCREW WITH ME!!!」
Erased, erased, erased, erased.
I sense that every time something is being torn off me, I lose some of my memories and emotions.
「It is miiiiiiine!! Don’t touch it as you please!!」
No matter what kind of shitty memory that is, it is not something that others are allowed to touch!
However, as if answering to my emotions, they become more intense.
「AAGAAAAAH, GUAAAAAAAAH!!」
The disgusting feeling like someone is stirring my brain came to me as I was grasping to a fragment of my memories as hard as I can.
As if I’d forget that…as if I’d forget that!!
「…, gah, ha?!」
That short moment felt like an eternity, then I felt like I broke through a glass floor and after being pushed by something from behind, I hit the ground.
A crashing sound came from far away.
「Kyyaaa!?」「What!?」「Wh, Who is that? Cosplayer?」
The sticky substance that was surrounding me dissipated and I felt a somewhat nostalgic air touching my skin.
But I had no leeway to pay attention to my surroundings.
「Don’t, screw, with, me, it, is, mine!!」
Shadow hands still rampaged inside me.
If I lose my focus I will forget about ××× and ××× as well, and will really forget everything.
All that clearly was left was the memory that in that world there are still people I must kill and burning craving for vengeance.
「Guuh, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!」
Don’t forget, what ××× did to me.
My family, friends, and quiet life, everything was crushed by them.
Don’t let go, don’t let go, don’t, don’t!!! Don’t allow them to have their way with this memory as well!!
「Hey hey, you seem to be in pain, and also you are all covered in blood. Need an ambulance?」「No, this is a work for the police, he is clearly a suspicious person.」「Calm down, call teachers first.」
Grab on to those fragments with all my strength, so nothing more will be stolen from me…
「Bro, ther…?」
That was a voice that I longed to hear so much.
A quiet voice struck my clouded brain like a lightning.
With a completely blank mind, I raised my head and saw all too familiar uniform and classroom.
But there was a sight that caught my attention even more than scenery that I was missing so much.
「……Lie, this is a lie.」
Long, shiny black hair reaching to around, the knees and a blue ribbon that tied them at the thighs level.
Compared to my memory she got a bit taller and her facial features were somewhat more mature.
I wanted to meet her. I thought I never will.
I dreamed of this moment countless times and every time felt despair and frantically was trying to shake off those naive thoughts.
And yet.
「This is just, no matter how you look at this. This is just……」
Precious memories, unforgettable wounds, all, all of it…
Like sand falling through fingers, all of it faded away.
「This is just… Unfair.」
All that was left in my fading conscious was the sight of my dumbfounded little sister, Mai.