Vol 1 Epilogue (1/2)
Bungaku Shoujo: Voluue
Epilogue – A New Story
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You can‟t die! – He said to me
I will help you think as well; I will help carry your burden with you! I can do at least that!
So please don‟t kill yourself in a rush!+
You can‟t die! – She said to me
She said it would be a shaen shi+kkaku‟ before I die
Dasai wrote many wonderful stories; you can‟t die until you read them all
These two people tightly held my hand, and desperately tried to convince me
I cried
I tearfully laughed
What‟s to be sad for, what‟s to laugh for, what‟s to be sorrow for, what‟s to be happy for- I
still don‟t understand the out I think at that
moment, my expression must have resembled a monkey in the zoo, or like a new born baby,
both look appallingly silly!
I let go of ave ertips
For ainst shi+-chan; thus I
always placed it in ht
But when I let it go froround, I suddenly felt relief
My heart becahter, and I felt I had been set free
Maybe that‟s the result of my indifference
It‟s possible that I am still unable to survive as a monster that doesn‟t have a heart!
Perhaps I should have died that day
But instead I reached out my own hand and held the hands of those two people
They were both red in their face They lectured me as they tried to pull me up
During that tiot to the top of the roof and helped me
back to the other side of the guard rail
Why did you do that? After I was saved, the teachers and my parents asked me in detail
What‟s going on? Were you bullied?
It‟s nothing I just thought that it would be fun to cliuard rail, and I
accidentally slipped
So terrifying, I thought I was going to die!
I answered while looking terrified Then I got stiffly scolded for playing around
The ruhout my school Thanks to that I
becaht
Soossiped about ht in my face;
some looked at me sympathetically
Of course, there are people who treated me kindly
Some people are indifferent and their attitudes toward ed
“Did you really atte you?”
Others asked me out of concern
Everyone had a different reaction
The existence of kind-hearted people means that there will be horrible people as well
Above all there are so
No matter whether it‟s school or society, this rule will probably hold
In these circuirl, and ansith
a laugh- “yeah, it failed I am a bit embarrassed”
It is hard for a e
Fro to the world
But I don‟t feel ashamed about it anymore
I broke up with Hiro-kun
„It‟s not because you are in everyone‟s spotlight that I a up with you…‟ He said
and moved his eyes away
I too think that we should put some distance between us
I said that with a much chillier voice than I usually use Surprised by that, Hiro-kun looked
at er, and answered in a low voice „I understand‟
I know that the Basketball Club er Hanamura-san secretly liked Hiro-kun
Because of this, in the past she talked lowly of me; I think Hanamura-san will try and
comfort him!
These days, the act of writing these events into the report is not as awful as it once was
Up to nohen I tried to write about my shallow and hideous real me, I often had to stop
and move my eyes away from the notebook
Those black words looked like some filthy hex, and they made me very afraid
But now, thethe pus that had been rotting
in my heart As I put more stuff into this, I become more cleansed, and my heart becomes
calmer and calmer I now feel as if I can see my faraway future
I aretful that I didn‟t die that day
But at the sarateful that yes, I am
still alive
It‟s true
In the future, if so up my chest,
and answering with laughter- „Yes, you are totally correct You have sharp eyes!‟
If I by chance I ain
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Another week has passed since we saved Takeda-san on the roof top
It was a day in June The reen plants, and classes had ended
Takeda-san brought her finished report and came to the Literature Club room
“Co for it”
Tooko-senpai had gone to the library, so I was receiving the report in her place
“Wah, this is a thick pile You put in a lot of effort”
“Ehehe, I wrote a lot You know, Konoha-senpai, in the storage basement you told me that
writing won’t change anything, right?”
Takeda-san looked at me happily
“That’s what I thought as well But ever since I wrote this report, I feel that writing is helpful It
definitely has an effect!”
“Yeah, probably”
The stories that Miu wrote- they all made me feel very warm and refreshed
When she bound her completed drafts into a booklet, Miu also had a happy look on her face
Those days were not all lies
So, just as Takeda-san said, perhaps writing does have the power to heal and to redeem
“Oh yeah, Konoha-senpai irl?”
“Ehhh, th-that’s-“
“On the roof you said you used to be a ender
identity disorder or is a transgender? Or were you a drag queen?”
“Uwaaaaaaah, that, that, that was-“
“Tooko-senpai also said that she ate the library’s books I am very curious, what’s that?”
“Th-Th-Th-Th-That was just the result of her being nervous and babbling without consideration
I aet them!”
My face became deep red, and I started to panic Takeda looked at ed
to an expression as if she understood A smile appeared on her face
It’s possible this is a real expression of Takeda-san that she never showed others before
“Ok, I understand Everyone has so that they don’t want others to know I
will keep these secrets inside my heart”
“Thank you”