Chapter 197 - Handsome for nothing (1/2)

In a daze, Jianjun walked down the street as he headed towards the Chu's house.

He stopped walking when he heard the constant chirp of a bird lying on the ground.

He looked at the pitiful bird and gently lifted it from the ground to check what was wrong. After taking a closer look, he realised that the little bird had a broken wing.

”You must be in pain” He said gently like he could really feel what the bird was going through.

”You must be lonely also. Where are your parents?” He asked the bird as if the bird could answer him.

The little bird gradually stopped chirping and relaxed in his palm when he noticed the big man was not going to hurt him but only speaking to him gently and nicely.

With his big hand, Jianjun stroked the bird's head as if to put him to sleep.

”Will you hear her out?” He suddenly asked the little bird out of the blue as he began to walk down the nearly empty street. ”You must wonder why this man is wandering about by this time right?”

”I don't know why I still care about her. Cixi must hate me now.” He sighed.  ”I'm sure Sara would probably hate me also if she was aware about all of these”

To the Wangs, family was everything.

”If it were you, will you want to see her? Your family was destroyed because of her even if she really wasn't aware. It was still her family who ruined yours. You were beaten several times because you wanted to see her. Your mother was beaten. Your father was framed and jailed. Your entire family.....” He let the words trail off in sadness.

”Even your child, she didn't want it. She said she hated you and you were a stain in her life. So tell me.... Would you want to listen to that kind of person if you were in my shoes?”

He raised his head to look at the sky and blinked back tears. He was glad he had a good company to pour his heart out to. A company who listened quuetly and didn't judge him or say he was overreacting because to him, he wasn't.

”So what if she wasn't aware? Her parents did it. It must have been what she wanted.

So what if she cut ties with her family? She is still living well. She is a powerful woman who had the world at her feet. But what about me? What about my family? We have nothing but ourselves”

The little bird raised its little head to look at him pitifully which caused Jianjun to laugh throatily with a tear gliding down from his eyes. ”You even think I am pitiful, don't you?”

The bird closed its eyes and continued to enjoy Jianjun's strokes on its body.

”I don't want to say anything to her. Neither do I want to listen to her. Because if I do... I am afraid I'll look for an excuse to forgive her.

I don't ever want to stop hating her. Because if I do....then I don't know how I'll be able to face my parents when I die.” He paused.

”The only crime I committed was loving...a woman like that. It was really my fault”