Chapter 156 - Find your excitement (1/2)
Thankfully, Heya was able to take Sara's mind off any naughty thoughts about Muchen. How was she going to face him now? Instead of shunning him, she had been worried about Heya seeing them instead. She shook her head to ward off any naughty thoughts and focused on Heya instead.
”How do you feel?” Sara asked when she saw her panting heavily.
”I feel okay. I needed this” Heya said before helping herself sit up on the floor.
”You're sure you're okay?” Sara asked. She's been noticing Heya was more determined today.
Heya sighed deeply and said nothing for a while. ”What.. do you think about life, living?” Heya asked finally.
Sara wrinkled her brow, wondering where this question was coming from all of a sudden.
She sat on the floor beside Heya and handed her a bottle of water. ”Life is.... Life” Sara said.
”You know...” Heya rested her back on the wall ”I really do feel like there is nothing in this life. It's just a fleeting moment. Transient.”
They were both quiet for a while, pondering on the issue before Sara broke the silence.
”We were all born to...die”
Heya looked at her in confusion when she heard her speak.
”We all die. It doesn't matter when, where or how. We just live the life, hoping that we achieve a lot before we die. Hoping that in between our birth and death, we find our excitement in this boring life and have no regrets before we die. We all live for that moment. The moment when we close our eyes forever.” Sara suddenly remembered what she had said to her aunt. 'Forever is an illusion' Then, she came to a new realisation.
”I think... There is only one forever...and that is, death .”
Heya looked at her with a sad expression and glistening eyes. ”You know, I read the news about that little town in Country V being controlled by terrorists. The lives lost, the broken homes... I was able to get a clearer picture of what you were telling me at the time when I newly met you. It made me begin to think about my life again. What if we were suddenly attacked and killed one day? I really.. don't wish to die with regrets.” She sniffled back tears. ”I have been living a really useless life all these years. If I die today, I'll never forgive myself.”
”You can start afresh. Find your excitement!” Sara held her hands in encouragement. ”You have to redefine your life now. Because, it's your life!”
Heya smiled sadly at her. ”I am not sure I'll be able to stand up against my grandmother though.”
”Your grandmother?” Sara gave her a confused look.
”I guess big bro didn't tell you anything then.”
Sara shook her head.
”You can ask him. But Sara...” Heya held her hands firmly. ”You have to be really careful.”
Sara wondered why everyone was telling her to be careful. She was beginning to have a bad feeling about this. Since Heya wasn't saying anything else, she didn't bother to press on and just agreed to be careful.
Heya's mood turned lively again when she asked. ”Where's the bag you were carrying? Thought you brought something?”
”Oh.. Yes. I brought fried rice for you and Mr Li. He's with the bag”
”Fried rice?” Heya looked at her in surprise. ”Big bro doesn't eat fried rice”
”What?” Sara's eyes bulged out. ”He didn't say so”
”There are a lot of things he cannot eat. He has a very sensitive stomach”
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Sara paced around his study's door, contemplating whether to knock or not. She was already dressed in her normal clothes and Heya had left her to go upstairs, reminding her to 'find her excitement'
She took a deep breath and tried to knock again but to her surprise, the door opened to reveal Muchen in a plain tee and short with his hair, slightly messy.
”Hi!” She said nervously. Trying not to look at his eyes.
He smiled at her before ushering her in.
”You must be tired” He sat beside her on the large couch after organising his desk.
”I am used to it” She said, trying not to think about their proximity.
”You look uncomfortable” He pointed out.
”I... I am fine..” Without looking at him, she replied. ”Did you eat the fried rice?”
He nodded. ”Why?”
”Why would you do that when you don't eat it? Is that why you have that drug on your table?” She pointed at the drug she had seen on his desk when she entered. Guessing it must have been for his gastric problems.