Chapter 26 - Story 79 (2/2)

Tingting: You didn’t mention this when we rehearsed.

“Tingting” drew back a message.

Xu Chi: …

Tangtang: Just like when you find it hard to fall asleep at night, if you keep thinking “When will I be able to fall asleep?”, You can’t fall asleep the whole night. Similarly, if you keep thinking “I’m gonna forget that person”, it means you haven’t really forgotten him. Therefore, if you keep thinking “I want to be relieved”, that means you haven’t really been relieved.

Tangtang: What does “being relieved” really mean? That means you don’t think of this matter. You couldn’t fall asleep unless you stop thinking “When will I be able to fall asleep at night?”. You couldn’t forget him unless you stop thinking “I am gonna forget that person”.

Tangtang: The real reason Why Shortie is so painful is neither he has nothing to do with those readers nor he denies himself. Instead, it is because he cares about others’ comments on his works. Since you finally chose to give up writing, how did the idea come into being? It was those negative comments or excellent works of other writers that drove you. They were seemingly telling you that you were not cut out for writing, which caused you to come up with the idea.

Tangtang: You must think you will be relieved as long as you stop writing. But the choice that “quit writing” revealed that you cared about this matter. Since you cared about it, how can you achieve real relief?

Tangtang: Since the source of your pain is caring about this matter, the real way to be relieved is “not care about it”, that is, “you won’t be relieved unless you quit thinking of it”.

Tingting: What should I do? If there’s no way, then I’m not gonna be relieved forever?

Tangtang: We can’t rely on thinking “I don’t care” to be relieved. The only way is to find an eternal, but always ongoing activity that is full of charm. It can make Shortie focus on it so as to forget other unimportant things. Well, this activity is not for the pursuit of those unimportant things. Instead, the aim of it is to immerse yourself in it and enjoy the inner happiness and the tranquility of this process.

Tangtang: Let me ask Short-Tailed Cat. Are you happy when you are writing?

Xu Chi: Yes.

Tangtang: So have you found this activity?

Xu Chi: Yes.

Tangtang: What is it?

Xu Chi: Writing itself.

Tingting: Crying. We don’t know how to comfort you. Tangtang said the reason why you stopped writing recently was you want to quit it. So that, we found this way to enlighten you.

Tangtang: My dear writer, just enjoy the process of writing and forget anything else, ok?

Tangtang: I know it’s difficult for you not to care about it, but I couldn’t find any other way to make you feel better.

Tingting: Crying. Even Tangtang said she wanted to hire a group of people to post more negative comments. After reading more and more negative comments, you will be get used to it and won’t care about it anymore.

Tangtang: When did I say that???? Stop talking nonsense!

Tingting: You did!!!

Tingting: Crying. Shortie, if you are really unhappy, just take a break, okay?

Tangtang: I know writing is a lonely journey for writers, but you won’t be alone because we’ll always be there for you.