Chapter 34 - Reality (5) (2/2)

“Give him the phone.” Gu Zhen’s voice immediately turned cold, “I said, give it to him.”

Li Dong felt inexplicably cold. He subconsciously passed the phone over to Cheng Zhi Chu before realising belatedly that he was scared. He secretly scolded himself for being so timid.

Cheng Zhi Chu received the phone and just remained silent while pursing his lips.

He felt very wronged and hurt. He felt like a fool. He didn’t want to let Gu Zhen hear him on the verge of tears but his breathing was uneven and Gu Zhen could tell that something wasn’t right.

“Cheng Cheng……Are you crying?” Gu Zhen asked very gently, “I’m sorry, it’s all my fault. Don’t cry.”

“……….Why did you lie to me?” Cheng Zhi Chu rubbed his eyes and tried to stay calm. He didn’t want to embarrass himself, but his voice still trembled a little “Was it fun lying to me? Did you make a bet with someone saying that this fool is not only silly, he’s also blind so he would fall in love with you————”

“Cheng Cheng!”

Gu Zhen interrupted him. He spoke pleadingly:

“I’m sorry. I was wrong for lying to you but my feelings for you is real. I will be very hurt if you doubt me like this.”

“At the beginning, I didn’t reveal my gender to you because I felt a little ashamed. Since we only just met, I didn’t think that there would be a need to explain.”

“After talking to you more, I found you to be very cute. At that time, I had a hunch that I might fall for you so, after I got your contact details, I asked you about your view on homosexuality.”

“You said you didn’t discriminate against them, but you would never fall for a man. If a person of the same sex was to pursue you, you would stay away from them.”

Gu Zhen’s words were filled with bitterness.

“So, I couldn’t say anything.”

“I pretended to be a woman. I tried my best to show you my best side. I knew that one day you would find out that I’m actually a man, so I wanted you to hurry and fall in love with me first. Perhaps at that time, you would be reluctant to leave me.”

“Even so, you didn’t feel anything towards me. If I told you that I’m actually a man……….”

“Cheng Cheng, tell me, would you be able to fall in love with me in this lifetime?”

“…………I don’t know.”

After a long silence, Cheng Zhi Chu answered: “But I can be certain that won’t fall for you. Gu Zhen, more than you being a man, what I can’t accept more was the fact that you have lied to me. For more than two months you have lied to me. If it wasn’t for someone else telling me, you definitely would have continued to lie to me.”

“Cheng Cheng…….”

“Don’t say anything. I’m also a fool. To think that I didn’t realise the truth after so long.” Cheng Zhi Chu looked down. He said dully, “Let’s act like we have never met. We’re done.”

When he was done, he hung up. No matter now many times Gu Zhen called him, he didn’t pick up. He then turned off his phone and sat back down.

“Drink.”

Faced with a friend who had just suffered a serious blow, Li Dong didn’t know what to say. He pushed a bottle of beer over: “Drink. Get drunk. Go crazy. When you sober up, everything is in the past and you don’t have anyone called Gu Zhen in your life.”

Cheng Zhi Chu poured himself half a cup of beer and took a small sip. He lowered his head and the tip of his nose was red.

“Tastes bad.”

………..

In the evening, Li Dong supported Cheng Zhi Chu and dropped him off home.

In fact, Cheng Zhi Chu didn’t actually drink much. He didn’t like to drink and only took a small sip but, because he didn’t sleep much the night before, he soon fell asleep at the table. He slept quite comfortably and quietly and didn’t make a ruckus.

Li Dong ordered a few more bottles of beers. He was originally going to accompany him and have a good drink, but it was over before it had even started. Despite being a little dumbfounded, he couldn’t let the beer go to waste so he could only down the six or seven bottles himself.

……….Drank too much.

Although Li Dong wasn’t drunk, he was still a little light headed. When he finished drinking, this little brother of his still had not woken up yet so he could only accept his fate and drop Cheng Zhi Chu off home. With light footsteps, he supported him into his apartment block.

The evening wind was a little cold and it sobered Li Dong up a little. He passed the apartment buildings and reached the entrance. Just as he was about to breath a sigh of relief, he suddenly noticed a human figure standing by the side of the road. Startled by this, he completely sobered up.

He stared dumbfoundedly at Gu Zhen who walked over to them. He asked with a confused look: “You…..how come you’re here? How did you know Cheng Zi’s address?”

Fuck. He remembered that Gu Zhen is not a local. It’s currently summer vacation and he should have already returned home. So for him to appear here…….If he calculated the time, he would have probably rushed over immediately after the phone call ended.

“He drank?”

Gu Zhen’s eyes swept over Li Dong. It was very fleeting, but it made Li Dong feel a chill run down his back.

When he saw Gu Zhen, he was still quite angry but now he was like a deflated balloon. For some reason, he couldn’t get angry at Gu Zhen.

“Didn’t drink……He’s just tired.” Li Dong muttered dissatisfiedly. “He was too excited last night and didn’t sleep a wink. He came to ask me for my advice about what present he should give you and, in the end, he found out that you’re a man.”

“Give him to me.” Gu Zhen’s eyes flashed, and he spoke very quickly.

“What do you want?!” Li Dong widened his eyes and stepped back with vigilance. “I’m warning you, don’t come over. If you come, I’ll call for help………”

“Mm………”

At this moment, Cheng Zhi Chu who was being supported by Li Don’t let out a small moan before dazedly opening his eyes.

He wasn’t completely awake and, when he saw Gu Zhen in front of him, they didn’t know what he thought he was, but he mumbled something incoherently before moving over to fall into Gu Zhen’s arms and nuzzled up against him.

“………..”

Gu Zhen very carefully held onto the person in his arms. His originally cold look changed instantly, and he looked at Cheng Zhi Chu with a gaze so gentle and endearing that it could kill those watching them.

………..It turned out to be real!

Li Dong noticed his gaze and his heart immediately dropped. Afterall, he was someone who has dated before and he could tell with one look that Gu Zhen really liked Cheng Zhi Chu.

He didn’t understand. Why would he ignore those girls around him and go for a man……..Fuck. Forget it. Even if one’s sexual orientation is something innate, why did Gu Zhen have to go out of his way to fall for a straight man?

It was because one’s sexual orientation can’t be changed that he had no chance. Cheng Zi wouldn’t fall for a man and this fact cannot be changed.

“Cheng Cheng……..”

Gu Zhen lowered his head and gently called out Cheng Zhi Chu’s name. Cheng Zhi Chu was originally about to wake up. After falling silent for a while, he moved a little and slowly opened his eyes. When his eyes regained focus, he found himself suddenly facing Gu Zhen’s beautiful pair or eyes.

………….

“And then?”

Cheng Ling Ling asked curiously: “What did you say to Gu Zhen?”

“………..Nothing. I sent him directly to the hospital.” Cheng Zhi Chu laughed drily.

“?” Cheng Ling Ling was very confused.

“I wasn’t completely awake at that time and I was surprised so I threw a punch at his face. I don’t know where I managed to hit but he immediately fainted. Li Dong and I had to lug him over to the hospital and waste away half the night.”

“Ah…….” The young girl suddenly realised, “I remember now. It was that day when you had your phone turned off and you only got back late at night? The day mum and dad scolded you very severely?”

“It was that day.” Cheng Zhi Chu thought about it and added, “Don’t tell mum and dad.”

“Of course, I won’t. I know that at least.” The young girl stuck out her tongue and rolled her eyes. She then said, “But I still think it’s a pity. He is actually a pretty good person……”

Cheng Zhi Chu narrowed his eyes at her: “Would you like me you introduce him to you?”

“No thanks, no thanks. I can’t afford it. You can have him…..” The young girl shook her head.

“Anyway, let’s not talk about this. Didn’t you want to take some photos?” Cheng Zhi Chu spread out his hands, “Here.”

“Okay.” Cheng Ling Ling responded cheerfully.

……………

Cheng Zhi Chu naturally didn’t mention what had happened afterwards.

In the quiet hospital late at night, Li Dong went to pay the hospital fees and Cheng Zhi Chu supported Gu Zhen over to a chair. He suddenly felt a gentle pressure against his shoulder and, when he looked up, he saw Gu Zhen looking at him unblinkingly.

Under the dim lighting, his eyes were exceptionally bright.

Seeing Cheng Zhi Chu looking over at him, he lowered his head and planted a light kiss on the top of his head. With a small voice he said:

“Cheng Cheng, I’m really sorry but I won’t give up on you.”

“We’re not over.”

………..

When Li Dong returned from paying the bills, he found Gu Zheng with another wound on his face.

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Bai Yi’s Diary (Part 34)

With Zhi Chu not by my side, I didn’t want to write my diary, so I planned to find my diary from before he entered the game.

But I realised that I didn’t have a diary at that time.

Because I didn’t have Zhi Chu by my side before, I didn’t want to write my diary……….