Chapter 28 - Abandoned Hospital (Part 12) (2/2)

“The one and only in this world. The unique one. That’s you, Cheng Zhi Chu.”

……….

When the boy recalled those words that Xie Yuan Huai said at the time, he suddenly felt a little shy and couldn’t help but giggle. Burying his face in his arms and only revealing his lively eyes like a cat, he secretly looked at Xie Yuan Huai.

They were still at the flower bed where they first met. The boy lifted his legs and hugged his knees as he sat on one side of the bench and Xie Yuan Huai sat on the other side looking at the flowers in the distance. His gaze was very light, but it was charming and had the ability to attract the looks of others.

Brother Yuan Huai praised him and said that he’s special but, in fact, he is the one that’s most special.

He really likes brother Yuan Huai…….

The young boy’s gaze at Xie Yuan Huai gradually softened and he felt his heart starting to pound rapidly. He suddenly felt the desire to get Xie Yuan Huai’s touch, hug and even his kiss and love.

“Brother Yuan Huai………”

He whispered softly. He released his hold of his legs allowing it to fall back off the bench and then slowly leaned towards Xie Yuan Huai.

Hearing his voice, Xie Yuan Huai turned around and suddenly saw the young boy move closer with a soft gaze filled with longing. He then felt a pair of soft lips gently press onto his face.

Xie Yuan Huai widened his eyes slightly. The usually calm expression of his went through some changes and a hint of surprise could be seen.

For a moment, he was so dumbfounded that he had even forgotten to avoid it. The boy thought that he didn’t dislike the kiss and was very happy. His cheeks flushed a bright red and he spoke up nervously and shyly.

“I like you brother Yuan Huai…….”

It’s just that brother’s body is so cold. Even his face is cold……..Is his body temperature that low?

Just as the boy worried about Xie Yuan Huai’s body condition and waited for his response, Xie Yuan Hai returned to his senses. His expression changed slightly and he moved to gently push the boy away. While shaking his head he said in a quiet voice:

“……..Don’t do this.”

The expression on the boys face stiffened.

Seeing this type of reaction from him, Xie Yuan Huai felt a small tinge of pain in his chest. Just as he wanted to say something, the boy showed a very flustered expression. Looking as if he was about to cry, he stood up from the bench and then waved his hand while saying:

“Sorry brother Yuan Huai. I definitely made you hate me now……..”

“Did you find it very disgusting? To be liked by me……..In fact, it’s because of this that my family think’s I’m strange.”

He forced a smile. Every word that was spoken after that was said with great difficulty.

“I like men.”

“Sorry……..”

After he said this, he didn’t wait for Xie Yuan Huai’s response. He immediately and very pathetically fled from the courtyard and rushed back to his ward. Buried in his blankets, he cried for a very long time.

He believed that with Xie Yuan Huai now knowing the truth about him, he would definitely hate him. He didn’t dare to venture near the flower bed, let alone even take a step outside his room.

One day, he was sitting by the window gazing at the scenery outside when he suddenly heard the sound of the door to the room being opened. He thought that it was probably one of the nurse sisters coming over to talk to him and he immediately revealed a joyous expression. When he looked back and saw clearly the person walking in, his expression stiffened.

“Long time no see Cheng Zhi Chu. Looks like you’re living very comfortably.”

A few boys around the same age as Cheng Zhi Chu entered the room. The handsome young boy standing at the front of the group had a scornful smile on his face. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the boy hiding in the bed with interest.

“Why are you here……..”

The boy trembled and his face was pale. These people were his classmates and they were also the same people who had bullied him.

This was especially the case for Qiao Yue who was sitting next to him. Because he is a young master coming from a rich family and is also very good at fighting, he was the head of all these people. Ever since he learned of his sexual orientation, Qiao Yue would always insult him and let him suffer the ridicule from everyone at school.

He had thought that with his hospitalisation, he would be able to escape from these demons, but he didn’t think that Qiao Yue and the others would actually go out of their way to find him.

The boy was scared, and he wanted to cry out for help. Qiao Yue however covered his mouth and pressed him down onto the bed. With his whole body pressing down onto him, the corners of his lips curved upwards and he revealed an evil smirk.

“Did you think that everything was over with you taking a break from school? You don’t even know how bored I was when you’re not at school.”

“So, I got the address of the hospital from the teacher and came over to visit you. I didn’t expect to see you living in the psychiatric department though. It really suits you, little crazy bastard.”

Qiao Yue laughed scornfully and he gestured for the others to leave after putting down their visitation gifts.

Because he didn’t have his full attention on the boy, the boy started to struggle desperately. He bit heavily onto his hand and tried to flee from the bed.

“Sss…..You dare bite me? You must really be crazy!”

Qiao Yue’s expression immediately darkened. With violent force, he pushed the boy back down. The boys’ eyes were red, and he struggled desperately but compared to Qiao Yue’s strength, his strength was like those of a kitten. It was completely useless.

Being so fiercely resisted by the boy and even getting bitten by him, Qiao Yue was completely enraged. No one had dared to hurt him, and this piece of trash had actually had to courage to do that after just some time away from school. Looks like this bastard really needs to be taught a lesson.

He raised his hand and just as he was about to give him a hard slap, he suddenly noticed the appearance of the youth under him and his movements suddenly stiffened.

The youth was curled up under him with his eyes wet with tears. His expression was terrified, and his delicate face had become ghostly pale. Because of the fierce struggle earlier, his hospital gown had become a mess and a few buttons had even fallen off to reveal his snow-white shoulder and slender waist. There was even a bright red mark on his waist.

Fuck……..

Qiao Yue swore internally. The rage inside him had mostly dissipated and he retracted his hands in annoyance.

In fact, he really did come with the intention to visit Cheng Zhi Chu. Otherwise, only an idiot would bring along with him so many gifts. But he couldn’t step down from his throne and could only continue showing a bad attitude. In the end, he was angered to the point that he almost really taught this piece of trash a lesson.

He had actually never hit Cheng Zhi Chu before, but this idiot actually claimed everyday that he was being violent to him. Fuck. He was just teasing him. If he was really being violent to him, he would have already been beaten to the point that he can no longer do anything in life. Looks like he had become braver now and he even had the nerves to bite him……….

Thinking this, Qiao Yue gave the boy a fierce glare but when he took in the boys exposed skin as well as his pitiful and cute crying face, his angry look gradually faded, and it was replaced with a slightly parched throat.

“Cheng Zhi Chu……..”

He licked his lips. Holding onto the boys two wrists, he pressed it down above the boy’s head. Then then pressed him down onto the bed. His gaze was hot, and his breathing started to become a little rough.

However, at this moment there was a soft sound coming from the ceiling. Along with a “bang” the light tube fell and just happened to fall onto Qiao Yue. The glass shards scattered everywhere with several of them plunging into his flesh.

………….

“Thank goodness you’re not hurt.”

The nurse stroked the boys face that was still covered in tears. Thinking back to the scene from earlier that she came across when she came into the room with Qiao Yue on the ground groaning in pain and the boy looking completely terrified, she couldn’t help but feel very distressed. At the same time, she was amazed that one person could be hurt so terribly while the other wasn’t hurt at all.

“It must be karma. That bastard used to bully you and he finally got his retribution……….”

She whispered quietly and felt a little pleased.

Before, she had thought that this Qiao Yue guy was Zhi Chu’s friend so she happily let them in but, as it turns out, this handsome young man was actually the chief culprit that bullied Zhi Chu —— He really didn’t understand that the harm brought to people verbally can be far worse than physical violence.

As for how the hospital should compensate Qiao Yue, that was something for the dean to deal it. It has nothing to do with a little nurse like her.

“You must have been scared. Have some rest, I won’t bother you anymore.”

After confirming that the boy was indeed not injured and confirming that Doctor Luo would come tomorrow to check on his mental condition, the nurse once again internally cursed at Qiao Yue before leaving the room and gently closing the door behind her.

The boy had changed into a new hospital gown and was curled up in bed. He was tired and drowsy, but he was also still a little scared.

Just as he was in a half-asleep state, he suddenly felt a cold breeze. It sobered him up and he opened his eyes in confusion.

In the dim lighting he saw a handsome and cold man standing next to his bed looking down at him.

“Brother Yuan Huai? Why are you here?”

The boy turned on the bedside lamp. His first reaction was surprise but when he recalled what had happened the other day and Xie Yuan Huai’s cold reaction, he was then scared. He subconsciously shrank inside his blankets fearing that Xie Yuan Huai would show a disgusted expression.

“…….Why haven’t you come to find me?”

After a long silence, Xie Yuan Huai suddenly spoke up.

“……..?” The boy revealed a confused expression.

“Why………are you still hiding from me even now?”

Xie Yuan Huai suddenly raised his head. His expression was no longer indifferent like it was in the past and there was a hint of anger on his handsome face. But compared to the anger, his expression was more of a hurt and disappointed expression.

“That day you said you liked me. After saying that, you just left me behind. You…. Have you ever considered my feelings?”

“………….” The boy opened and closed his mouth. He didn’t understand why Xie Yuan Huai would be angry. He left because he was taking into consideration Xie Yuan Huai’s feelings…….

“Brother Yuan Huai, you- you don’t hate me?”

After thinking about it for a long time, the boy suddenly realised what Xie Yuan Huai’s words meant. However, he wasn’t certain, so he shrank himself and asked with some hesitancy.

“Why would you think that I would hate you……”

Xie Yuan Huai answered with a gentle tone. He sat on the edge of the bed and this time the boy didn’t hide from him. He smoothly approached the boy and gently held the boy’s face.

“At that time, I just thought that I am not qualified to approach you. You have a bright future but I……..”

Have nothing left.

His fingers were cold like ice. It caused the boy to shiver and he felt a chill run through his body.

But even with this reaction, Xie Yuan Huai didn’t let go. Instead, he moved closer and gently kissed him on the corner of his lips.

In fact, when they met the first time he had already fallen deeply in love with this young boy.

Was it love at first sight? Or was it unexplainable fascination? It wasn’t important —– His existence. Only this boy could see and touch him. So, his entire being and existence belongs to this boy.

He was originally satisfied with just this. Just as he said earlier, he wasn’t qualified to have the boy so he thought that he would be satisfied just being by his side.

But after waiting in the courtyard for a whole day and not seeing the boy, a small crack formed in his heart. Dark twisted greed and desire formed, and it whispered to him——-

[Don’t be so hypocritical.]

[You want him.]

[You want his love. You long for him to look only at you.]

[No one. No one can take him away from you.]

[He is yours alone.]

………..Yes. His Zhi Chu. His Xiao Chu. Only his. He can only be his.

Xie Yuan Huai kissed the corner of the boys’ lips and it gradually become more and more fierce. With his arms around the boys’ waist, he pressed him down onto the bed and he started to kiss him deeply on his lips.

The eyes that were originally cold and indifferent had become dark and oppressive. It was as it if was about to become a deep abyss.

When he came to his room and saw that boy pressing his Xiao Chu down onto the bed, he couldn’t suppress his inner darkness. He made the light tube fall, scattering blood across the room.

———-Don’t touch.

———- Don’t touch his Xiao Chu.

“Good Xiao Chu. In the future, don’t pay attention to the others okay?”

During the intense intertwining of their lips and tongues, Xie Yuan Huai moved back slightly to give the boy a chance to catch his breath. He watched the boy and couldn’t help but move in again to kiss his eyes. With a hoarse voice he said:

“Just having brother Yuan Huai is enough.”

“Be good. With brother here taking care of you, you don’t need anyone else anymore.”

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Bai Yi’s Diary (Part 28)

When I encounter something related to Zhi Chu, I would easily fall into madness.

I have once thought that it would be nice if there is no other person left in this world leaving only Zhi Chu and I. That would be the most perfect world.

But after my soul was broken, I never had that thought again.

What perfect? That would simply be the worst world.