Chapter 21 - : Abandoned Hospital (5) (1/2)

Question: I am a man. I love women. I have a friend who treats me very well. The friend is pretty much perfect, apart from the fact that he hates gays. Now suddenly, by accident, I ended up kissing him. In addition to that, he may have originally mistakenly thought that I’m a gay so he must hate me now. I regret it very much. What should I do to ask for his forgiveness?

Answer: Either you castrate yourself, kill yourself or undergo sex change and let your friend have some fun.

During the few seconds of kissing Bai Yi, after the initial shock, many thoughts appeared in Cheng Zhi Chu’s mind. This made those few seconds feel extremely long.

He would have never thought that he would think nonsense like that at a time like this. He was currently experiencing a “who is he, where is he, what is he doing, what did he do to Bai Yi” type of conflict when he eventually concluded———

Bai Yi is definitely going to kill him!!!

He was still in his out of control state and he had no control over his body. Even his closed eyes couldn’t be opened, and he couldn’t see what Bai Yi’s expression was at the moment. He only knew that the other party didn’t stop his actions ——-perhaps he was scared stiff by him.

Because of his inner fear, Cheng Zhi Chu’s face became extraordinarily pale. What was even more terrible was that despite his desire to resist, his body continued to move.

He parted his lips lightly and explored with the tip of his tongue. Like a little cat, he gently licked the corner of Bai Yi’s lips.

“………….”

The strength in Bai Yi’s grip around his wrist increased several degrees. It seemed like even his breathing was no longer smooth.

Help———-me———-Ah———!

Cheng Zhi Chu was scared to the point that his inner organs hurt. He knew that Bai Yi had finally reacted and would probably directly crush him with his hands. The next thing that would be crushed would be his head!

【Ending out of control behaviour.]

The systems notification sounded like a death notice for Cheng Zhi Chu at this moment. Cheng Zhi Chu was finally able to regain control of his body, but he had lost all his energy and his legs were soft. If it wasn’t for Bai Yi supporting him in time and holding him steady, he would have directly sat onto the ground.

Cheng Zhi Chu lowered his head and nervously opened his eyes. He continued to stare at his and Bai Yi’s feet and didn’t dare look up to look at Bai Yi.

“So-sorry…..”

An unknown amount of time passed, and Cheng Zhi Chu finally found his voice. With a pale face he apologised to Bai Yi. Besides that, he couldn’t say anything else. His mind was a complete mess.

The current situation was so bad that it couldn’t get any worse. He could still remember Bai Yi’s look when he saw the kiss between him and Joshua; it was so cold that he could feel himself freeze over, and this time the innocent him was dragged into it. Bai Yi is remaining silent right now definitely because he is deciding how he should kill him………!

“Zhi Chu.”

After a moment of silence, Bai Yi spoke gently and called out his name. His voice was as gentle and as calm as ever and there was even a hint of a smile hidden within.

The more he was like this, the more Cheng Zhi Chu trembled. He feared that it was the calm before the storm, but he also couldn’t stand the silence any longer. He bravely raised his head and looked straight at Bai Yi.

However, when he looked up, he saw that Bai Yi’s expression wasn’t as grim and dark as he had expected. In fact, he looked like he was in a pretty good mood. That pair of beautiful, black eyes shimmered and was slightly curved. With the tear mole at the corner of his right eye, it made his look appear even more gentle and pleasant. His long eyelashes hung down as his eyes looked down at him.

Could it be……..he’s not angry at him?

Cheng Zhi Chu’s eyes met with his for a few seconds and his internal panic gradually calmed down. His face had also recovered a little bit of colour. When he finally gathered up his courage, he said in a small voice:

“I’m really sorry. I lost control earlier. I really didn’t know that I would do something like that………”

Speaking of which, why would he make such gay actions whenever he goes out of control?! Are you sure he isn’t a sex-deprived pervert instead of a mental patient?!

“I know you’re definitely feeling disgusted about this…” As Cheng Zhi Chu said this, he started to feel awkward and his face flushed faintly red. Because he was too immersed earlier worrying that Bai Yi would hate him, he had completely forgotten that he had done an extremely shameful thing, “If you want to vent, you can hit me. I promise I won’t fight back………”

“Don’t be afraid. How can I be angry at you?”

The handsome man smiled and gently rubbed the top of Cheng Zhi Chu’s head. His tone was as gentle as water and he again spoke up in a quiet voice.

“…….In fact, it felt good.”

“?”

Cheng Zhi Chu didn’t hear the last part clearly. He just felt his face blush even more when he saw Bai Yi look at him with such a gentle and almost indulgent look. At the same time, shame and guilt also surged within him.

Bai Yi really is……….He’s clearly such a steel straight man so he would have definitely felt disgusted inside after being kissed by a man yet he’s willing to endure for him and act like it was nothing. He even conversely tried to comfort him……..How can there be someone with such a good temperament?! He simply can’t match up to him!!

Cheng Zhi Chu was completely moved by Bai Yi. Thinking that his life is fulfilled now that he has made such a good friend, he was willing to kneel down on the spot and worship the other party.

But Bai Yi’s loyalty was one thing and his guilt towards Bai Yi was another matter. Right now, he really didn’t have the face to stay close to Bai Yi. If he was to lose control and once again harm Bai Yi, what was he going to do? So at least for now, he should keep a distance away from Bai Yi and join the others…….

Wait a minute. That’s right, it wasn’t just him and Bai Yi here……!!

At this moment, Cheng Zhi Chu finally remembered that there were other people present. His expression immediately changed and, as expected, he found the others all looking in his direction.

The sisters looked on at him wordlessly and then looked over at Ji Yun Xiao. Their eyes were very complicated. Not knowing if it was just his imagination but Cheng Zhi Chu felt them look at him as if they were saying “Why are you kissing another man now?”.

“The door is open. For now, there’s nothing inside.”

Just when the atmosphere was rigid, Da Gao pushed open the door to room 105 and looked back expressionlessly while saying this. He didn’t pay much thought to the incident involving Cheng Zhi Chu.

He looked over at Da Gao and his eyes suddenly lit up. He was certain that he would again lose control and he had a feeling that when he loses control next time, he would probably do something intimate to another person——-Although he didn’t know what type of mentally ill person would do this type of thing when they lose control.

He didn’t dare to stay next to Bai Yi any longer. After all, Bai Yi would not subdue him or use force on him out of friendship but if you asked him to act alone, he was too scared to.

He definitely wouldn’t get close to Ji Yun Xiao either and it was even more inappropriate for the Meng sisters, so the only option left was the strong and mighty Da Gao. If he was to lose control, Da Gao would definitely use force and restrain him without any hesitation.

Thinking this, Cheng Zhi Chu immediately became spirited. Not caring about anything else, he proposed this idea to Da Gao and hoped that he could agree. After all, his out of control state was like a ticking time bomb that would explode at any time. If he did this, it would make the team more reassured.

“No, you can’t Zhi Chu.”

But before he had the chance to hear what Da Gao has to say, Bai Yi rejected his proposal first. His gaze sank a little as he pulled Cheng Zhi Chu back to his side. Pressing down on his shoulder he said: “I said it’s okay. You can rest assured and stay by my side.”

“But………” Cheng Zhi Chu was a little embarrassed. He hesitantly said, “If I did something to you again……Won’t you hate it?”

“I won’t hate anything that you do.” Bai Yi smiled and rubbed his head. In a warm voice he said, “I also won’t hate you. I promise.”

Cheng Zhi Chu was stunned. His heart suddenly started to race and he felt his face get warmer but he quickly associated this as him being extremely moved by Bai Yi’s words and didn’t think too deeply about it.

Da Gao opened the door and didn’t say anything. But even if Bai Yi didn’t speak up, he would also have rejected Cheng Zhi Chu’s proposal. After all, his most important task was to ensure the safety of his boss Ji Yun Xiao and he cannot be distracted by other things.

Thinking this, he subconsciously glanced at Ji Yun Xiao and couldn’t help but be a little surprised.

The handsome idol was looking over at Cheng Zhi Chu and Bai Yi’s close interactions with thin lips and slightly hooded eyelids obscuring his beautiful eyes. Although he appeared to be calm, Da Gao who is familiar with him could tell that Ji Yun Xiao was somewhat in a low mood.

Ji Yun Xiao also couldn’t explain what type of feeling he was experiencing at this moment.

Although he always shined on stage, he is actually a quiet and restrained person in real life. He isn’t very good at expressing his emotions and isn’t very used to responding to another person’s enthusiasm.

His dream was to become a singer but when he became a hit overnight, he had suffered too much from the sudden pressure and burden that caught him unprepared.

Not only the rumours, gossip and insults, even the fans’ love and expectations were hard for Ji Yun Xiao to respond to. Often, he would find himself pushing himself to his limits to prevent them from being disappointed.

Perhaps it was due to the environment that he had grown up in, he was very afraid of disappointing others, particularly those who love him. Because of this, he was very strict on himself and hoped that he would be able to show his perfect side to everyone.

Ji Yun Xiao was also very clear that no one is perfect and that he couldn’t make everyone happy. This was especially the case as a celebrity. There will always be things that he couldn’t control, and, in many cases, he must reject other people’s expectations of him.

Although things like this had happened many times, but when he is facing them, Ji Yun Xiao still felt uncomfortable. Because of this, he would try to avoid eye contact with people for too long and would always look directly at the camera and smile to cover his inner thoughts.

He didn’t like to look at other people’s eyes.

It was like this until his eyes met with Cheng Zhi Chu’s. He couldn’t help but feel touched.

It’s very strange. He knows.

It wasn’t something that Cheng Zhi Chu had done out of his own will, and it originally wasn’t supposed to be a wonderful experience as it reminded him of his past when he was attacked by stalker fans and haters.

However, completely unlike those crazy, obsessed or disgusted looks, Cheng Zhi Chu’s eyes were pure and transparent.

The rims of his eyes were tinged pink and his light brown eyes were coated with a thin film of tears. It was bright and pure as it reflected him within it. Those eyes of his brought along both passionate and soft emotions. It was clearly silent, but it looked like it contained a thousand unspoken words.

It’s really weird.

Ji Yun Xiao told himself internally.

He shouldn’t think too much about it.

But contrary to his reason, at that moment he clearly felt his heart racing. He couldn’t help but move his line of sight and pretend to act indifferent, but he couldn’t hide his bright red face.

He didn’t dare to continue looking. Because his gaze was so pure, it seemed like as long as he continued to look at it, he would helplessly start thinking that there was someone who would love him that much.

It didn’t matter what kind of person he is, what things he did and what his appearance was like, those pair of pure eyes only looked at him, and nothing else.

In this world, it would only look at him.

However…….Ji Yun Xiao also understood that it was just his imagination. After Cheng Zhi Chu had recovered from his out of control state, he had been keeping a distance from him and even deliberately avoided eye contact. Every time Ji Yun Xiao quietly looked at him, he would always see him looking at Bai Yi.

Now, he had even kissed Bai Yi——Ji Yun Xiao’s eyes dimmed slightly, and he felt a small stinging sensation in his heart.

……….Even if it was just his imagination, he wanted Cheng Zhi Chu to continue looking at him with that type of gaze.

It really is strange…….

……….

“Boss.”

Da Gao noticed that Ji Yun Xiao’s mood didn’t seem quite right and spoke up to return him back to his senses. He also reminded the others not to waste any more time: “Let’s go in.”

“…….Okay.”

Ji Yun Xiao responded. He sealed back the disappointment in his heart and nodded his head with a serious expression.

Da Gao turned around and walked into room 105 first with the others following behind. He used the flashlight to illuminate the interior of room 105.

Along with the inflow of air, thick dust swirled around causing the light from the flashlight to flicker along.

Cheng Zhi Chu raised his hand and covered his mouth and nose while he looked around the room. Seeing the tables, chairs, examination bed and the withered green plants that still remained, he couldn’t help but feel a sense of familiarity.

This wasn’t surprising. This is the office of his primary physician and he had been here many times. He activated his clue prompt skill and saw three or four sources of light.

One of them came from the wall where several brain CT scans hung from a broken light box. Bai Yi who stood closest to it took them down and illuminated it with his flashlight.

Cheng Zhi Chu walked over to Dr Luo’s desk. Earlier, he had seen a faint glow coming from here and when he opened the drawer, he discovered a thick pile of papers. Cheng Zhi Chu used his chin and shoulder to support the flashlight and flipped through the pages with much difficulty. Unfortunately, most of the pages were blank and many of them were shredded so it didn’t reveal any valuable information.

After turning over another two drawers, Cheng Zhi Chu still didn’t find anything. He knelt down and pulled open the bottommost drawer only to see that it was empty apart from a single photo.

【Discovered a clue. You gain 50 experience points and 100 survival points.]

This is…….

The photo was a little blurry. Cheng Zhi Chu couldn’t make out clearly the person in it and proceeded to take it out. But when he was able to see that person’s face, his pupils instantly constricted, and his face turned pale.

The teenager in the photo wore a clean patient gown and his light-coloured hair looked especially dazzling in the sun. With his light-coloured iris and pale complexion, that whole person appeared to be glowing.

He smiled very brightly while holding onto another person’s arm. That person was a little taller than him and wore a white coat like those of a doctor. The place where his face should be had been burned off and he couldn’t tell what their appearance was like.

But Cheng Zhi Chu was quite clear about the teenager’s identity. It was himself during his teenage years.

The person in the picture was a few years younger than he is now and was probably middle school aged. This photo was probably taken during the time when he was being treated in this hospital five years ago.

What is this………Cheng Zhi Chu’s face was pale. Like a bucket of iced water was just dumped onto him, he felt a chill run from his head down to his feet.

He knew that he had the setting of a patient who used to be under the care of this hospital in this instance but when he saw his own photo, he was very shocked. In particular, he clearly remembers that he had never worn any patient gowns before, so this photo had been made out of thin air.

This horrible feeling made him shudder. His fingers trembled slightly, and he didn’t hold firmly onto the photo. It spun a circle and gently fell to the ground, revealing a line of neat handwriting on the back.

<To the distinguished Dr Luo:

Thank you for your help and care!

Cheng Zhi Chu>

【You remembered that this is a photo of you and Dr Luo. The weather was very good that day and you were about to be discharged from the hospital after recovering so you dragged Dr Luo over to the courtyard and asked someone to help you take this photo.]

【There is a total of two copies of this photo and you and Dr Luo have one each. After writing your messages on the back of them, you exchanged it with him. This is the photo that you gave to Dr Luo. The message on the back was written by you.]

【The picture given to you by Dr Luo is still kept at home by you. You vaguely remember the message written on it being “To little Zhi Chu, Congratulations on your discharge. You are a very good child and we all like you very much. I wish you a safe and happy life in the future.]

“………”