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I aht of the old year, waiting for an it a poor bachelor student, with no definite plans or expectations; I end it a master and tutor in Ch Ch, with an income of more than 300 a year, and the course of mathematical tuition marked out by God's providence for at least sos, time lost, talents misapplied--such has been the past year
His Diary is full of such modest depreciations of himself and his work, interspersed with earnest prayers (too sacred and private to be reproduced here) that God would forgive him the past, and help him to perform His holy will in the future And all the ti of hi short of his aiood deeds and innu fulfilment of duty So, I suppose, it is alith those who have a really high ideal; the harder they try to approach it the more it seems to recede from them, or rather, perhaps, it is ioodness As Coventry Path if, forthwith, fades frorace of which youof ”Alton Locke” turned his mind towards social subjects
”If the book were but a little ht stir up ood field of social iood providence, may make me hereafter such a worker! But alas, what are the means? Each one has his own _nostru is done I would thankfully spend and be spent so long as I were sure of really effecting so down under the wheels of soernaut”
He was for soe Rhye” (afterwards republished in ”Phantasain in ”Rhy verses were aazine:--
I painted her a gushi+ng thing, With years perhaps a score I little thought to find they were At least a dozen ave her eyes of blue, A curly auburn head: I careen, The auburn turned to red
She boxed led very hter touch; And if you were to ask ht be improved, I would not have them _added to_, But just a few _rerace, The bland hyena's laugh, The footstep of the elephant, The neck of the giraffe; I love her still, believe h my heart its passion hides; ”She is all my fancy painted her,”
But oh! _howfor _The Train_ that he first felt the need of a pseudonyested ”Dares” (the first syllable of his birthplace) to Edmund Yates, but, as this did nota choice of four naar U C Westhall, (3) Louis Carroll, and (4) Lewis Carroll The first tere formed froe; the others are merely variant fore; Carroll = Carolus = Charles Mr Yates chose the last, and thenceforward it becason's ordinary _nom de plume_ The first occasion on which he used it was, I believe, when he wrote ”The Path of Roses,” a poem which appeared in _The Train_ in May, 1856
On June 16th he again visited the Princess's Theatre This time the play was ”A Winter's Tale,” and he ”especially ad of the little Mamillius, Ellen Terry, a beautiful little creature, who played with re Vacation he spent a feeeks in the English Lake District In spite of the rain, of which he had his full share, he ood deal of the best scenery, and ale, which laid hiia for some days He and his companions returned to Croft by way of Barnard Castle, as he narrates in his Diary:--
We set out by coach for Barnard Castle at about seven, and passed over about forty miles of the dreariest hill-country I ever saw; the climax of wretchedness was reached in Bohere yet stands the original of ”Dotheboys Hall”; it has long ceased to be used as a school, and is falling into ruin, in which the whole place see in, and the s broken or barricaded--the whole town looks plague-stricken The courtyard of the inn we stopped at was grown over eeds, and a ainst the corner of the house, like the evil genius of the spot Next to a prison or a lunatic asyluh he was anything but a sports, from a mathematical standpoint solely, and in 1857 he sent a letter to _Bell's Life_, explaining aover any race The systeainst _every_ horse, according to the way the odds added up He showed his sche friend, who remarked, ”An excellent systeet people to take your bets_”
In the sas he had long intensely admired He thus describes the poet's appearance:--
A strange shaggy-looking lected; these very much hid the character of the face He was dressed in a loosely fitting rey flannel waistcoat and trousers, and a carelessly tied black silk neckerchief His hair is black; I think the eyes too; they are keen and restless--nose aquiline--forehead high and broad--both face and head are fine and manly His manner was kind and friendly fro hu
I took the opportunity [he goes on to say] of asking the es in his poems, which have always puzzled e that I hear two irl, my boy Will have plenty; so let it be
He said it referred to Maud, and to the two fathers arranging a match between himself and her
The other was of the poet--
Dowered with the hate of hate, the scorn of scorn, The love of love
He said that he was quite willing it should bear anythe words would fairly bear; to the best of his recollection hiswhen he wrote it was ”the hate of the quality hate, &c,” but he thought theof ”the quintessence of hatred” finer He said there had never been a poem so misunderstood by the ”ninnies of critics” as ”Maud”
[Illustration: Alfred Tennyson _Fro spent at Tent Lodge Tennyson remarked, on the si radually alters--the analogy being borne out by the hu at first enerating into hu to Mrs Tennyson, ”There, that's the second original rereat deal of the Tennysons after this, and photographed the poet himself and various members of his family
In October he made the acquaintance of John Ruskin, who in after years was alilling to assist him with his valuable advice on any point of artistic criticisularly fortunate in his friends; whenever he was in difficulties on any technical ion, law, ht be, he always had souished in that branch of study whose aid he could seek as a friend In particular, the naet occur to son addressed ery--soh, but never too intricate to weary the unfailing patience of the great surgeon
A note in Mr Dodgson's Journal, May 9, 1857, describes his introduction to Thackeray:--