872 I Dont Want to Let You Go (1/2)

Xuanji and Mo'er's personalities were actually similar, but what differentiated their lives was the existence of Gu Mohan.

Although Tang Mo'er had a bumpy childhood, she had found Gu Mohan in her life. Gu Mohan loved her for who she was entirely, he hadn't given up on her at all. Even though they had all of the obstacles surrounding them from Huo Yanmei and Gu Tianling, Gu Mohan was willing to trust Tang Mo'er and he stood by her side to support her all along. Through it all, Gu Mohan would always have Tang Mo'er's back, he would never let go of her hand.

But Lu Jinwen was different.

Lu Jinwen and Gu Mohan were completely different. Though Gu Mohan had grown up in a broken family, he was resilient and had an encounter with little Mo'er. Gu Mohan was loyal, steadfast and unwavering.

While comparatively, Lu Jinwen truly was blessed. He was the young master of the Lu family and received all of the love from everyone. He had listed his own business empire at the age of 16 and his life was only one of smooth sailing, he was haughty and self-centered. Love? He did not know how to love someone.

They faced the same situation, conspiracies and misunderstandings but they both made different choices, which resulted in different destinies.

Lu Jinwen suddenly recalled a saying, a woman's personality was determined by a man.

It was him. He was the one who slowly pushed Xuanji to become this way.

A memory appeared in his mind. It was the year that she got pregnant with Chenyi, her bump had started getting bigger but she lost a great amount of weight. She would always be in a daze while alone and not say a word. Even if he hurt her in bed at night, she wouldn't even make a single sound.

He remembered the fact that her tolerance for pain was low.

Which girl on earth wouldn't be afraid of pain?

In the early stages of their relationship, her finger bled after being pricked by a needle and she ran over to him with tears welling up in her eyes, her lips pouted while she demanded that he blow the wound for her to soothe the pain.

But later on, she had already sliced her tummy open to give birth to Chenyi. They had already been together for almost eight years by then.

Perhaps… perhaps, if he had just given her a smile when she was giving birth to Chenyi, just a faint smile. Just… something. If only he had just stretched his hand out to her, even if he did it far, far away, she would have run over and come with him.

If only.

As long as he just tried, she would have been pulled out of the endless darkness and despair.

With every bit of stubbornness she had when she was pregnant with Chenyi, she had the same amount of fragility and despair.

Why?

Why didn't he go over to help her?

Why was he so selfish, so heartless?

Why couldn't he see?

”Xuanji, I…”

”There's no need for you to say anything else, Lu Jinwen, I don't need your explanation so let's not mention matters of the past from today onwards. It's pointless for us to continue talking about it after so many years. However, I can't figure this out. I could never figure it out at all. Why didn't you just ask me about it all? You clearly went to Bangkok No. 1 and thought that I wanted to harm you.

”You didn't even ask me about it and just gave me the death sentence. You held Sister in your arms and watched the dandelions fill the entire Capital, you continued going astray, torturing me endlessly. If it weren't for Mo'er who saw the note, I never would have known that you actually came. Is it that hard for you to just have asked me?”

It was only after Mo'er handed the note to her that she finally figured everything out.

If it wasn't for that, she never would have known.

Why didn't he just ask about it after the entire incident at Bangkok No. 1 happened?

It was only because he didn't ask, that everything escalated and Old Master Lin's ways turned for the worse.

Old Master Lin had so many life experiences, he was simply brilliant at judging one's personality. He had managed to grasp Lu Jinwen's personality, that heartless king had feelings for Lin Xuanji and was extremely steadfast, but he hadn't learned to love.

He would never back down.

He would behave all proud and almighty, to wait for Lin Xuanji to chase after him. Even after Lin Xuanji cried bloody tears, he still assumed that she would never leave.