32 Chapter Thirty Two (1/2)

Logan

Days went by and I tried to kept my distance from Sophia. Not that I completed cut her off but I tried my best to not to give her any hope from my side. I disappointed her most of the times and it hurt me more to know beforehand that I was going to disappoint her. Time flew by and we had our winter break. People who were here from another country flew back to their home country to celebrate Christmas with their family. What a beautiful thing it'd be to celebrate Christmas with your family. Liam's family has been inviting me to Christmas dinner for the last two years when they noticed I spent Christmas alone. Seeing them so happy and laughing on Christmas was just overwhelming happiness. I wondered every time, if I had a family, how would they celebrate Christmas? Would mother cook delicious food and father light up the entire room with his laughter and jokes? Would we be happy? It was the time of the year where everyone enjoyed with their families when I had none.

I decided to take off a few days earlier, before the new year so I could settle in the new environment. So I started buying necessary things and started packing my clothes and other stuff as well. My place was a mess right now, all the stuff out, clothes out of the wardrobe, everything was out of order, and my mind? It was a mess.

No matter how little I tried to think about it, Sophia was all over my mind. Her face kept appearing right before me, making me hesitate about my decision. I didn't want to leave Liam as well for he has been my one true friend all this time. I feel like betraying them both but it is all for my good only. Both of them became the reason I feel like going on with life, the reason it feels better to breath. I don't know what I'd have been done without them in my life, specially Liam. Without him, life would be nothing less than a burden to me. He made it feel like a less of the burden it was. He made my life less miserable and more bearable. I don't know how to thank him for all this.

I decided to tell Sophia when I'm mentally ready and now I think I am. I should let her know. I turned on my phone and texted Sophia.

\”There?\”

\”Yeah.\”

\”Do you want to meet?\”

\”I am having a family dinner rn.\”

\”Oh.\”

I was about to throw my phone on my bed, then I received another message,\” what about tomorrow?\”