Volume 1 (1/2)

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I'm [1]a 34 year old homeless and jobless person

I'rets how he lived his life

I wasn't hoo; I was a veteran NEET who hadn't left my room for the past year

However,

As a NEET, I didn't even attend the fa, let alone the funeral

And in the end, I was chased out of the house

I banged loudly on the walls and floor, flailing about as if no one was at home, for no one spoke up for me

I was s suddenly rushed in, dressed inall relations with me

I ignored theer brother took a wooden bat and destroyed the cohly than my life

Half-crazed, I lunged at them, but my older brother has a dan rank in karate, and I was viciously beaten in turn

I sobbed and begged for forgiveness in an unsightly manner, but I was chased out the door, and didn't even have tie my clothes

I endured the throbbing pain in my chest (most of my ribs were probably broken), and walked unsteadily on the streets

My siblings' rebukes from when I left the house resounded in my ears

They were harsh insults that were difficult to take in

My heart was completely broken

What did I do wrong?

All I did wasmy parents' funeral[2]

What should I do next?

No, my mind does indeed know

Find a job or part time job, then a place to live in, and buy some food

How should I go about this?

I don't knohat I should do to find a job

H to ”hello”[3]

But though I' off that I haveindoors, how the heck should I knohere hello is? Furthero to hello, I'd heard that it only introduces you to a job

I'd have to bring a resuo to the recoo for an interview in a dirty sweatsuit covered with sweat and blood

Heck, if I can get e crazy like this Maybe I would sympathize with him, but I definitely wouldn't employ him

Are there any shops that sell resume papers?

Stationery stores? Convenience stores?

Maybe a convenience store o there, but I don't have any money

And then, ill I do if I settle all of that?

assue to borrow e of clothes, and buy some resume papers and stationery

I'd heard that you can't complete the resume if you don't record your residence

It's over Right at thisits end

Hah

It started to rain

It was the end of suh the clothes that I'd worn for I don't knomy body heat away

The icy rain pierces through my clothes that I'd worn for I don't knomy body heat away

If I could start over fro

I couldn't help saying that

I wasn't born as such a rotten human

I was born as the third son in a someealthy faer brother The fourth in as In primary school, I was praised as clever despite my youth

Even though I wasn't considered great at studies, I was good at gaood at sports I was even once the center of attention in my class

Then in junior high school I entered the coh st le line of code

The turning point in h school no, it started in the third year of junior high I was so busy tinkering with the co back on it now, that here it all started

I thought that learning stuff was useless for the future I felt it couldn't be used in real life

In the end, I entered the h school, considered the worst in the prefecture

Even so, I thought it was nothing

I felt I would succeed if I got serious, and that I was different froht

I still remember the incident back then

While queuing up to buy lunch at the cafeteria, there was a felloho cut the queue

I gruhteousness That was due to e pride and the chuunibyou[4] personality I had

Unfortunately, he was erous people in the school

I ended up being punched in the face until it ollen, stripped naked, and tied in front of the school

He took a lot of pictures, and easily distributed them all over the school

I fell to the bottohed at by others, and even got the nickname of ”Foreskin boy”'

I didn't go to school for ame like this, my father and brothers said irresponsible words to e, do your best

I hadn't been the one at fault

nobody in that sort of situation would continue to attend school There is no way

Thus, no matter what anyone else said, I adamantly continued my shut-in lifestyle

I felt that the peers who kneere all looking atme

Even if I didn't go out, as long as I had the computer and internet, I could spend away ot interested inplastic s Myto support me and it seemed she would co as I requested it

But I was sick of them all in less than a year

I lostbetter than me

To others, I wasaround But as I was alone with soelse to do

No, even when I think back on it, that was merely an excuse

At the very least, it would have been a better choice to beco terrible web co novels

Many people who shared si like that

I hted those people

Mocking their creations, thinking s like ”It's worse than shi+t”, criticizing them

Even though I did nothing at all

I want to go back

If it's possible, I want to go back to prihest point, or back to the h school No, even if it's one or two years ago Even if it's a little bit of tiave up halfway through, I could start over no matter what

If I put in my utmost effort, even if I didn't become the best, I could at least be a pro

Why didn't I do anything up till now?

I once had a lot of ti that ti as I sat in front of the computer Even if I couldn't make it the top, I could have stayed somewhere in the middle and continued to put in effort

Manga, novels, ga If I had put in every effort, I should have been able toaside whether the accomplishments could be turned into money

Ah, never mind It's useless

I never worked hard before Even if I went back to the past, I would probably trip in a similar place, and stop at a similar place I ended up like this because I could never cross the hurdles a normal human could

”Hm?”

So

What's that commotion about?

It's annoying I don't want to be involved Even though I was thinking that, my feet wanted to head over to them

”---- That's why, you----”

”You're the one-----”

Enteringa lovers' spat

Two guys and one girl They were dressed in the now uncommon collared student uniforms and a sailor uniform

It see on The taller boy was quarreling with the girl, and the other boy was trying toat all

(H like that before)

I once had a soht have been considered cute, maybe a four or five She participated in the track and field club and had short hair She had the kind of appearance that would cause two or three out of ten people to turn back However, I was very passionate over a particular anime and felt that those in the track and field club should have a ponytail, so I thought she was an ugly girl

However, her home was nearpriether ether, and also bickered at ti to the words ”junior high”, ”childhood friend”, and ”running club”, is enough for me to cum 3 times

By the way, I heard that childhood friend got o

I overheard this ru

Our relationshi+p wasn't bad We were able to talk without reservations since we'd known each other froe

I don't think she liked h school, or if I'd joined the track and field club and entered the sa[5] If Ieach other

I could have flirted and bickered with her like the trio, and we s in an empty classroom after school

Hah, what eroge is this?

(Come to think of it, these people are really damned riajuus Just explode already Hm?)

Suddenly, in that instant, I realized

A truck was charging towards the trio at a tremendous speed

Also, the driver of the truck was lying prone on the wheel

He was driving in a sleep-deprived state

And the three still hadn't noticed

”D-d-d-Danger!!”

I tried to warn the, but I haven't used my vocal cords fully for over ten years, and the cold rain and the pain in my ribs caused the voice I eked out vanished in the rain

I ht: why do I need to save them?

I had a gut feeling that if I didn't save theret it five seconds later I would absolutely regret it if I saw those three people getting smashed into a bloody pulp by a truck

Regret not saving them

Therefore, I had to save them

In any case, I thought I would probably starve to death by the roadside soon after At least for that moment, I hoped to have some satisfaction

I didn't want to be left regretting at the very end

--I ran and hobbled along towards them

My legs were notas I wanted, as I had not moved them much for the past ten years It was the first time in my life that I wish I had exercisedpain, hindering my every step It was the first time in my life that I wished I had taken more calcium

It hurt It hurt so much that I couldn't run

But I still ran Ran

I was running

The arguing boy hugged the girl when he noticed the truck approaching in front of his eyes The other boy had his back facing the truck and had not noticed, was rabbed his collar without any hesitation and used all th to pull him back The boy was pulled away and fell to the roadside, out of the truck's path

Good Two o

Just when I had this thought, the truck was already in front of me I had just planned to pull them from a safe distance, but as I pulled them back, the recoil caused me to move forward

It was to be expected, and it wouldn't even havewith ed forward by the momentum

I felt a light behind ot hit by the truck

Was that the ruht of the flashback before death? I couldn't see anything during that short instance It was just too fast

Did it mean that I did so little in my life?

I was sent flying onto a concrete wall by a truck 50 times heavier than I was

”Puhh!”

The air inair after the hard running

I couldn't utter a sound But I wasn't dead yet The accumulated fat was probably what saved me

But once I thought that, the truck appeared in front of ain

I was flattened like a toround and truck

When I woke up, the first thing I felt wasdazzled

Light filled my vision, and I narrowed my eyes in discomfort

Onceblonde wo at me

A beautiful girl No, a beautiful woman would be more appropriate

(Who is it?)

Beside her was ame a stiff smile

A strong and arrogant looking

Brown hair, arrogant type Looking at his DQN[6] appearance, I should have been repulsed Strangely enough though, I did not feel he was unpleasant

His hair was a pretty brown color, probably because it wasn't dyed, I guess

”-----XX-----xxxX”

The wo

What is she saying? Feeling fuzzy, I could not hear clearly and didn't understand it at all

Could it be that it's not japanese?

”------xxxXX----xxx,” the entle expression Really, what did he just say? I couldn't understand it at all

”------XX-----xxx”

A third person's voice came from somewhere

I couldn't see them

I tried to sit up and ask theuys?”

Even if I was a hikikomori, I still wasn't a complete failure at communication

I could still do so like this

”Ah, Ah------”

But I couldn't tell if what ca

My body couldn't move

I felt sensations in ers and wrists, but I couldn't move my upper body

”xxx--xxxXX”

In the end, the man carried me up

This is a joke, right? My body weighs over 100 kilograms, and he lifts it up so eas

No, maybe I had been in a coo down

It was such a huge incident There was a large possibility that I lost an ar

(A fate worse than death, hah)

On that day

Those were hts

A month passed by

It looked like I was reincarnated I finally realized that fact

I had become a baby

I confirmed it when I was carried up with ht

I didn't knohy I still hadthem

Retaining memories upon reincarnation-----anyone would have entertained such delusions at least once

But I didn't think that such a delusion would become reality

The first couple I had seen when I opened my eyes seemed to be my parents

They were probably in the earlier half of their 20s

Clearly, they were younger than me in my past life

Froht to call the

It really e

I already noticed it from the start, but I didn't seem to be in japan

The language was different, my parents' faces didn't appear to be japanese, and their clothes even seee

I couldn't see anything rese an electronic device (the person ore awith a cloth), and the utensils, bowls, and furniture were coarsely made from wood It was probably not an advanced, developed country

The light was not produced light bulbs, but from candles and lamps

Of course, there was the possibility of the very poor and unable to afford the electricity bills

Maybe that possibility was very high?

I thought they surely had some money, as there was someone dressed like a maid

But it wouldn't be strange if it was a sister of one of

I certainly wanted to start afresh, but living in a family that could not even afford to pay the bills made me very restless

Half a year passed by

Listening tothis last half-year, I had started to understand things bit by bit

My English grades couldn't have been considered good, but it see when heavily influenced by a native language Or could it be that this body's e, but I could res quickly

By this time, I was able to crawl

Being able to

I had never felt such gratefulness for being able to move

”He'll run somewhere else when I move my eyes away from him”

”Isn't it good that he's active? I was so worried when he didn't cry at all when he was born”

”Even now, he doesn't cry”

My parents had this discussion when they saweverywhere

I was not at an age when I'd cry loudly when hungry, after all

But even if I tried to hold it in, the stuff that cos alone as they were

Even though I could only crawl, once I did so, I understood a lot of things

First of all, this family was relatively well off

The building was a two-story wooden house, and there were over five rooms They had one hired maid

At first I thought the , but her respectful attitude towards my parents made it seem she wasn't family

The place was a village

From the scenery I could see fro plots

The other houses were scattered around, and on one side of the wheat fields I could see two, three families

It was quite a rural place I could not see any electric wires, laenerator nearby

I had heard that foreign countries place their wires underground, but if that was the case, it was strange that this house did not have electricity

It was too rural It was painful for me who had been jostled by the wave of civilization

Even if it was reincarnation, I still wanted to have a personal computer

That way of thinking ended on a certain afternoon

With nothing to do, I cli to admire the field's scenery When I looked out the as shocked

Father aving around a sword in the courtyard

(Wha, huh? What is he doing?)

My dad is still waving that thing at his age? Chuunibyou?

(Ah, crap)

Due to the shock, I fell down from the chair

My undeveloped hands grabbed the chair, but they were unable to support round first

”Kyaa!”

I heard a scream just as I hit the floor

My mother spotted me and dropped the washed laundry, her hands over herover me with a deathly pale face

”Rudi! Are you okay!?”

My mother rushed over to me in a panic and carried me up

She lookedrelieved

”Phew, you seem fine”

(Madam, it's better not to move someone after their head just received a blow,) I reminded her in my heart

From her anxious attitude, it seeerous manner

It seeht become an idiot due to the knock on my head Not that that would be any different

There was a throbbing pain on the back ofthe chair with my hands had lowered my velocity

As my mother's reaction didn't seem panicky I assu

Mother took a careful look at my head

Her expression seemed to say, if there's an injury it'll be serious

Finally, she placed her hand on my head,

”To be safe Let the power of God be converted into a bountiful crop, and bestowed unto those who have lost the strength to stand once more, 『HEALING』”

I nearly burst out, ”Hey, hey, is this this country's [Pain, pain, go away quick]?”

Or was it that, along withfather, my mother was also a chuunibyou?

A warrior and cleric's wedding?

Just when I was thinking that

My ht, and, in an instant, my pain disappeared

( Eh?)

”See, it's okay now After all, your mum was a renowned adventurer, ” my mother said in a boastful manner

I was instantly plunged into confusion

Sword, warrior, adventurer, healing, chanting, cleric All these terms echoed in my head

What was that just now? What did she just do?

”What's wrong?”

My father looked in thefrom outside when he heard my mother's scream

His whole body eaty as he had just been swinging his sword

”Listen to me, dear Rudi actually cliravely injured”

”Well well, it's not good if a boy isn't active”

A slightly worrieddeal and placated her

This is a commonly seen event

But, my mother didn't back off, perhaps because of the back of round first

”Just a moment, dear This child isn't even a year old Would you worry a little more!”

”Despite that, a child isdown to become sturdy This way he will become healthy Besides, even if he's injured, can't you just treat him?”

”But I' heavily injured andunable to treat him”

”He'll be fine”

My dad said that and ehtly

My mum's face turned red

”I orried when he didn't cry at all in the beginning, but if he's so naughty, he will surely be fine”

My dad kissed my mum

Hey, hey, you're showing this to ht? Both of you!

Later on the two of them put me in the next room to sleep, moved on to the second floor, and started in on the task of s

Even if the two of you go to the second floor, I can still hear the nyan nyan noises, damn successful offline people

(But, ic huh)

Later on, I started paying attention to the conversations between my parents and the maid

And then I heard a lot of terms not in my vocabulary

Especially the names of countries, districts, and various other locations

Some proper nouns I had never heard before

Maybe this place is

No, I was certain of it

This wasn't Earth, but some other world

A different world that has swords and ic in it

At this moment, I had a flash of inspiration

If it's this world, perhaps even I can achieve it

If it's a world of swords and ic, a world deviated from my previous life and what I know as common sense, perhaps I can do it

To live like a normal person, to work hard like a normal person, to be able to climb back up if I fell down, to live my life fully

I had been full of regret when I died in my previous life

Dying full of burning restlessness over

But the me who experienced all that,

Having retained the knowledge and experiences of my previous life, perhaps I could really do it

--To live on seriously(from a hikimori's pov)

Lilia was once a guards-maid for Asura's concubines

A guards-uard

Guards- happens, they will take up a sword to protect their master

Lilia faithfully accomplished her duty As far as her work as a maid is concerned, there were no complaints

But as a sword fighter, her ability is average, a dime a dozen

And thus, she got careless in a battle against an assassin who targeted a newly-born princess, and she got injured in the leg by the eneer

The dagger was coated with poison that was specifically meant to kill royalty

There was no detoxification or healingsuch a calamitous poison

The wound was immediately treated, and she survived thanks to her doctors trying a variety of ered

There was no problem caused to her everyday life, but she could never run or stoain

The kingdom then sacked her without hesitation

It wasn't an uncommon occurrence, and Lilia accepted this fate herself

Having lost her abilities, it was a given that she'd lose her position

Even though she wasn't given compensation money, she considered it fortunate that she wasn't secretly silenced because she served in the inner palace

Lilia then left the capital

The mastermind behind the assassination attempt wasn't found

Having understood the rules of the concubines' staff, she knew there was a possibility she et

Perhaps the palace let Lilia wander to leave to lure out the mastermind

She alondered why she, who had no significant background, had been accepted in the inner palace It was now that she finally understood; they simply wanted to hire maids who could be used and discarded

No matter the reason however, she had to leave the capital as quickly as possible, for her own safety

Even though the kingdoation to stay as she was not ordered to in any way

And she had no sense of duty to fulfill

Lilia discreetly switched stagecoaches while traveling, and arrived at the Fedoa region, which had extensive agricultural lands and was located at the border

It was a relaxing place of vast wheat fields, with the exception of the fortress city Roa, where the ruler lived

Lilia intended to find work there

But, as her leg was injured, she was unable to find a job that required physical strength

She could resort to teaching swordsmanshi+p, but it was best for her to be hired as a her

At this border, there were many who could wield a sword, and hly versed in domestic affairs was relatively rare

Since the supply was so little, the salary would be bigger

However, it would be dangerous for her to be hired by the ruler of Fedoa, or any high class noblity of similar status

Such people would surely have relations with the king

If they knew she was a maid who once worked for the concubines palace, there was the possibility that she would be treated as a political tool

And for that reason, Lilia stayed far away

She didn't want to experience a near-death situation again

Even though it was a little unfair to the princess, Lilia hoped to stay far away from the royals' contention for power

But, if her salary was too low then there wouldn't be enough money to send to her family

Trying to find a safe job and a guaranteed salary sure wasn't easy

After running around everywhere for nearly a month, Lilia came across a recruitment note

A lower class knight fro to hire a maid

On the top of that, the note said he would give special priority to so care of children or who had knowledge of midwifery

Buina was a tiny village on the edge of Fedoa

A village ae

It was very inconvenient, but this was the place that she sought

The eht was also an unexpectedly fine find

And nized the prospective employer's name

Paul Greyrat

He was Lilia's protégé

A noble's profligate son, who on one day, suddenly barged into the dojo where Lilia was learning swordsmanshi+p

According to him, he had left home after a quarrel with his father, and had come to the dojo to learn swordsmanshi+p

Albeit a different style, he too did study swordsmanshi+p at home, and soon after, surpassed Lilia

Lilia was not amused by this fact, but she had since understood that she had no talent, and gave up

Paul, as utterly bri with talent, was later banished fro a mistake

He only left Lilia a single sentence, ”I' an adventurer”

A man like a tempest

It was 7 years since they went their separate ways

At that tiotten married

Though she didn't knohat sort of hurdles he had experienced in his life, Paul wasn't a bad guy as far as Lilia could remember

If she told him about her problems, she was sure that he would help her

If that didn't work out, then she would just mention some past events

There were a few things she could use to negotiate

Having contemplated all these factors, she headed to Buina

Paul employed Lilia without any fuss

It seeive birth

Lilia had been taught extensively in midwifery for the princess's birth Moreover, she was soround

Lilia was received with a elcome

Her salary was also more than what she had expected, so her as achieved

The child was born

There weren't any labor issues or anything It went just as she was trained for in the inner palace

There were no problems at all It was very successful

However, the child didn't cry when he was born

Lilia broke into a cold sweat

The baby drew out amniotic fluids immediately after he was born, but he merely lifted his head up without any emotion, and made no sound

The expressionless face was reminiscent of a stillborn child

Lilia touched the baby, and he had a heartbeat He was breathing too

But he just wasn't crying

Lilia reuards-maid

That babies who don't cry at birth usually have complications

The instant when she thought of this

”Ah, ah” The baby looked over to her, and iness

Lilia relaxed after hearing that

Even though there was no evidence for it, she felt that there would be no problems

The child's name was to be Rudeus

He was an uncanny child, never crying or fussing At first, she assu care of him wouldn't require much effort

But, such a notion only occurred at the beginning

After Rudeus learned how to crawl, he started to move everywhere in the house

Everywhere in the house Kitchen, back door, storage, cleaning equipment place, fireplace etc

He even cliine how he did so

Either way, he would disappear whenever nobody kept an eye on him

But, he would always be found somewhere in the house

Rudeus never left the house

He would occasionally look outside the s, but it seeo outdoors

Lilia was instinctively afraid of this baby, and one had to wonder when it began

It was probably the moments when she found him after his disappearances

Most of the ti

So at the flickering candle fla at panties that were yet to be washed

Rudeus mumbled sounds and showed a susted

It was a susted people

When Lilia orking in the inner palace, she'd had to go to the her ranked officials nobles that she met there had similar smiles

They were bald, had pudgy bellies, and were leering at her when they stared at her breasts Very sio

It was exceptionally scary when she had to carry Rudeus

His nostrils would flare, the corners of hishastens as he buried his face into her chest

And then he wouldas he made these sounds

At that instant, Lilia's whole body was do cold

And she has the urge to throw the baby and sround

This baby was not cute in any way That smile caused fear in others

It was the sahtfemale slaves

He was supposed to be a baby as just been born

Lilia felt unbearable discoht things over