Chapter 205 - Chapter 205: Chapter 203: Endurance, Heartache, Love is a Matter of Two People (1/2)

Chapter 205: Chapter 203: Endurance, Heartache, Love is a Matter of Two People

“When she married me, she was still young and always asked to go back home. My mother had complaints about her, as she had also suffered a lot of grievances. So, at that time, I thought I should treat her well and make up for all the wrongs she had been through. Later, as our three children were born, she gradually stopped mentioning it.”

Liu Sisi didn’t move, silently gazing into the distance without turning her head.

Yuan Mengbai turned over and lay flat, resting his head on one arm and lightly rubbing the gauze on his head with the other: “Some people say I am spineless and have lost the face of a man. Actually, I am just afraid, afraid that she will never belong to me and that one day, she will leave me. Because every time we make love, what she calls out is always the name of another man.”

Liu Sisi looked back at him.

She turned back and chuckled lightly: “Since you chose to endure it for so many years, why speak of it now? Isn’t it better to make it a secret forever?”

“Because I feel that you are on the same old path I have walked, so I want to tell you all these thoughts.”

After a moment of silence, Liu Sisi sighed softly: “From ancient times, it has been difficult for an honest official to meddle in domestic affairs. What use is it for you to tell me? Only you can save yourself.”

Deep down, she despised this kind of man, acting out a tragic appearance of deep love, making himself unhappy and dragging others down into the abyss as well.

“But I can’t reconcile! I can’t! I can’t!”

Yuan Mengbai roared in anger!

“I love her so much, why won’t she give me a single glance? Why does she still pursue something she can never have? What I want is not much, really not much! I just hope, I hope there is a place for me in her eyes…”

His voice grew fainter and at last, he could no longer speak through his tears.

Liu Sisi didn’t comfort him but merely leaned quietly against the pillar, gazing up at the starry sky.

As she listened to his crying, from barely audible to uncontrollable sobs to wailing and then gradually diminishing until it finally vanished.

She sighed then!

Such a grown man being forced to such an extent, Di Ruoning really had some skills!

“Do you really love her and want to give her the best of everything? Then why do you still complain?”

Yuan Mengbai didn’t speak for a while, and just when Liu Sisi thought he had fallen asleep, his murmuring voice rose again.

“Because… I’m tired… my heart is tired… really tired…”

Liu Sisi remained silent.

Love is a matter for two people. It has never been the case that only one’s devotion can make the most beautiful flowers bloom.

And what about her and Di Yelei?

Whether it is habit or love, she has no answer in her heart.

Until the sky began to turn white, a thick layer of mist rose from the bottom of the valley, and covered the mountain top.

Dew had wet their clothes, and the early morning mountain breeze brushed Liu Sisi awake. Only then did she realize that they had spent the whole night sitting outside.

The sound of morning prayers and the monk’s wooden knockers reached her ears, making her feel unusually peaceful.

“Brother-in-law, brother-in-law! Wake up, it’s morning.”

The dew had dampened her clothes, shrouding her hair in a veil of mist, and droplets slid down her loose curls.

Yuan Mengbai opened his eyes groggily, still confused for a moment, and without waiting for him, Liu Sisi headed straight to the canteen to fetch two portions of food and returned to the wooden house.

The wooden house was as she had left it, with Di Yelei not returning the whole night.

Picking up the wooden basin, she went to wash her face at the stream by the waterfall, and as expected, she saw scattered early risers heading up the mountain. As they passed by her, they all smiled and nodded in greeting.