21 Disillusionment and new friend (1/2)
Sunday, April 14th
11:55am London time
”You're asking me an autograph? You think you're on the red carpet? Don't bother me, I have to review my text.”
”What are you doing walking through the cables? Do you know how much this professional camera costs? Come on, get out of there.”
”Get out of the way a little bit, kid. If you don't have anything better to do, know that on our side we are overloaded with work. Why don't you get on the side and get out of our way, where I'll ask security to throw you out.”
Lost in the East End, inside a building hall abandoned in the 80s, partially restored for the needs of the TV series, Adam has just been pushed once again.
When he arrived here, he dreamed of discovering the magic of television, in which all those who come from a simple environment like his own have so many fantastic and wonderful ideas. To see actors up close, a film crew at work, the friendly atmosphere between these professionals who are part of a whole other world when the camera is running, that apart from Jessica, he has never been able to see except on television.
Today, Jessica allowed him to avoid the intensive training prepared for him and since they left the hotel, Adam entered his bubble. The different costumes he liked in the movies ran through his head, as well as the splendid cars and beautiful actresses with white teeth and bewitching voices that often accompanied him after he fell asleep.
His father, a lousy photographer who was fired from an artist agency for being too close to a young femal singer, had told him in the past that all this was all lies and false pretence. That all these glitter and smiles, concealed more hatred, resentment and ugliness than he would ever see in his life. Having no confidence in this father who was always unfaithful to his mother, Adam rejected these allegations, which he immediately considered false, slanderous and coming from the mouth of a hypocritical man who took advantage of this system for a long time to satisfy his desires, but who now rejected by him, showed an understandable but exaggerated bitterness.
Moving away from the hottest spot, settling against a recessed wall, Adam, who feels a ball getting stuck in his throat, observes his girlfriend who came to greet the director. As soon as she arrived, she was already surrounded by the actors of the series who seemed very happy to be able to participate with her in the shooting.
Jessica, on the other hand only sketches a brief smile, before doing what she had come for, without worrying, about the noisy little animals runs all around her. Coming here bores her, but it is customary to move to greet the director and she cannot avoid this tradition from another age that she considers stupid. It was they who strongly insisted on playing as a guest is her. The one who will bring a new audience to this depressing drama for teenagers and young adults is her again. In this dark place, straight out of the last century, the one who will sell magazines and newspapers is still her. According to her point of view, asking the star to move around, to greet an obscure director, will only tire her out and temporarily tarnish her radiance. Honestly, she doesn't care about this series for which she has no interest. She participates only to be able to progress, to broaden her range of actress, to perfect her weaknesses in the drama, a genre she doesn't know much about and which is not her favourite anyway. Jessica, coming here, follows the advice of her agents without having high expectations for the experience she will get from this shooting, that she anticipates as monotonous.