Chapter 900: Rowena Is Deep In Thoughts (1/2)

Chapter 900: Rowena Is Deep In Thoughts

Rowena barely got over the fact that Julian was most likely related to someone in Verona, and no other than the royal family themselves… but now she was also thrown by Julian's offer of e and love

What did Rowena feel for Julian?

Was it love? Was it the kind of love that Julian wished that she had for him?

Rowena didn't even knohat it was like to have the love of her father For all her life, she had yearned for his approval and adoration… It was the kind of love, a craving, an intense yearning that she had for her father's acknowledght that her father showed her a bit of love, like when King Draco gave her Lucent, it only proved to be a tool and a weapon used against her

The 'love' that her father gave her was filled with conditions and require that she needed to prove herself worthy for But was that even actual love? Because if that wasn't love… then she didn't knohat it was supposed to be like

Rowena tried to remember her maids, Leia and Emma, and how they were like towards her… because they loved her, didn't they? Rowena felt like that had been love, but now those o and she didn't think it was a correct comparison

What if their love was only because they felt bad for Rowena anyway?

It was more of compassion they felt for Rowena That wasn't love and more like pity than the other They were also paid to take care of her, so ht have needed to be kind and patient towards…

So, what if all of that was a lie even?

"I care about you, Julian… but I don't think I love you—well, I don't know" Rowena folded her hands together and clenched them hard "When I think about love… I'm not so sure what it actually means and what I'm supposed to feel when I'm around you"

Julian looked over kindly at her and nodded slowly "Well, if you don't knohether you actually love me or not… I think it's most likely a no, Rowena So you don't have to force yourself with the thought any longer"

"You got it all wrong, Julian" Rohirled to him, her face completely serious "I like you and I care about you"

Julian's face heated up a little He felt a bit hopeful

"Like me… how? Do you think you can explain what it's like…?"

Rowena bit down on her lip and thought about it long and hard

"I like you, Julian and I'm deeply concerned about what happens to you and what your life will be like I don't want you to get hurt, and I care about you like I care about ?"

"I… I don't know" Rowena looked away from him "I just don't know if I actually want to marry you, Julian Maybe i

t's because I'm really unfaht now…"

"Is it because I'm not royalty like you?" Julian asked "If I was ht increase my chances? Or make you reconsider?"

"No," Rowena said