Chapter 17：Aww... such a good girl. (1/2)

I laughed it off at the time, but I was really hurt because of the way he reacted.

I'd never force anyone to do something they don't want to, especially since...

It was just something I thought of at the spur of a moment — you know, an impulse?!

Would it have killed him to be more polite?

But to show such strong aversion to something in THAT way would understandably come as a shock to me.

It was almost like he rejected ME, instead of the 'act'.

Being looked at in disgust was very disconcerting. This is even more so because he was my husband, after all. Maybe I expected too much; I honestly don't know.

As if it wasn't already apparent from what I mentioned earlier, I'd like to clarify again that it wasn't a deal-breaker for me if he had said 'no'.

Why couldn't he have been a bit more understanding or nicer about it?!

It's just... I refuse to accept it was THAT hard to talk with me about it like adults?

I get that he got caught off guard, but the way he rejected me didn't sit right with me. I wonder if he would have reacted the same way if I asked for a threesome with another girl?

...

...

Pfft.

Yeah, right.

No way.

Maybe if it was another guy, he might? But even then, I'm not convinced. Perhaps if it was another male, he might be angry instead of disgusted.

I'm starting to go down another spiral, which was quite similar to the one I had the day after that incident.

I sigh and stop this nonsense.

* * * * *

Honey flicks my forehead gently.

”Penny for your thoughts?” She smiles quite contemptuously at me for going off once again into my own world.

Scowling mostly from how sudden that was, I rub my forehead out of reflex. ”Well... I honestly don't know what to do with Jett...”

Without missing a beat, I lie through my teeth as I am not comfortable enough to discuss what I was thinking of earlier.

She crosses her arms and advises me. ”My dear, here's a straightforward question for you: objectively speaking, is he not worth it at all to you? Think long and hard before you answer.”

I close my eyes and list all the pros and cons of having a relationship with Jett. I think back to every single memory that involved any conflict or problem.

I've also included all the observations I've made of him whenever we've interacted recently.

After coming up with an answer, I open my eyes again.