190 A Barren Broken Woman (2/2)

The unfamiliarity of the familiarity filed in Su Qing heart even when her mind couldn't register it.

Su Qing froze and her dull dazed eyes turned ablaze melting the glacier in her heart, ”Lei Xinyi, my sister, She is dead...”

To her, Lei Xinyi wasn't just her saviour. She was her family, a friend, a shoulder to cry on and a back to fall on. It wasn't possible to imagine life and not her in it.

Today people saw her glamour and grace but they didn't see the horrid panic attacks, they hadn't held her when she cried for the loss of her only child she could ever have and they didn't know the ripped, torn reality behind the alluring facade. Lei Xinyi did.

Wasn't Lei Xinyi her everything? How is life, life without her? Who will collect her pieces now, wasn't that what Lei Xinyi did?

People told her time and again that Lei Xinyi was alive but she would rather die with the glimmer of hope than see it shatter in front of her.

If Lei Xinyi was alive she would never leave her like this! But how could she explain that to everyone?!

”She must be the only reason that you lived.” Master Lu nodded and sarcastically smirked, ”This teenage guy who doesn't have any other family must not be reason enough or that boyfriend of your who is blaming there himself for your selfishness must not be worth it!”

Su Qing cried more as if a new wound was ripped of bandages, ”He...he is not my boyfriend. I am a broken woman. A barren woman...”

By now He Zheng and Lu Xinyi looked equally stunned. They didn't know that. She never talked about the weight she carried but Master Lu was making her vent her unspoken emotions with ease, as a parent would.

Master Lu looked at her with his intense gaze not wavering even for a second, ”And there are a million children in the world without a mother. Do they not deserve one?”

Su Qing let out her aches she hid beneath a bubbly smile through her tears for a while and when she lost the heavyweight in her shoulder, she at once felt the damage slumping her down.

She shook her head through her tears still raining her rosy petals, ”I ca...can't do this. Life is meaningless. I am not strong enough...”

”Of course, Life is meaningless, stupid squirrel. You are the one who is going to give it a meaning.” Master Lu took out a pair of keys from his pocket and removed the key chain from it, ”Besides, you don't need to be strong. Survive till you are ready to fight.”

He handed the keys to Lu Xinyi who took them with a questioning look. Master Lu walked to Su Qing side and flopped the key chain in her lap.

”If you really wish to die. There are honourable ways to die. As a saviour, as a martyr, as a light than a coward or embarrassment.”

Su Qing held the key chain and turned it to see 'VICTORS AREN'T CONQUERERS, THEY ARE WARRIOR' written in block letters.