Chapter 44 Chapter 44 (2/2)
“They will send more detailed information later.” Song Qinglan continued, “You can confirm if it is her at the time.”
As he said this, Song Qinglan inadvertently glanced at Ji Yushi and was slightly stunned.
There was a bright red mark on Ji Yushi’s neck.
This mark wasn’t something Song Qinglan hadn’t seen before.
If Li Chun went out to play for a few days before returning to the squad, he would have a few of these things on him too.
He originally wanted to ignore it.
But with that one glance, perhaps it was because the red mark on the extremely fair skin was too eye catching, he couldn’t help but notice it.
Song Qinglan gritted the back of his teeth, “Ji Yushi, your neck. Pay attention.”
Ji Yushi was baffled. He pulled down the mirror in the passenger seat and took a look, “Forgot to close the window last night.”
No wonder he was scratching that place today. Turns out he was bitten by a mosquito last night.
Song Qinglan was silent for a while.
Ji Yushi wasn’t very good at guessing other people’s thoughts, nor was he good at handling interpersonal relationships. Song Qinglan helping him in private with gathering all this information already meant a lot to him.
He withdrew his gaze and gathered his thoughts together before asking, “You said on the phone that you also noticed some differences. What differences were they?”
“The last time I was in the Ouroboros mission, I realised that it was a cycle only when the woman on the street charged over.”
Passing a traffic light intersection, Song Qinglan turned the steering wheel. His actions were very smooth, and it carried arrogance and haughtiness. It gave a strong sense that he was the one who suited this car more.
“I didn’t remember anything at first and at most just had a feeling. After I realised that everything had happened before, the memory of the last cycle suddenly appeared in my mind. This was something I was very familiar with. When Old Zhou and I were participating in a witness of time program in the army, we had undergone memory enhancement training. It was very similar to having a key to a memory, but it was actually a subconscious hint. That is why, unlike Tang Le and the others, we could more or less remember what happened in the cycles.”
After saying this, Song Qinglan’s furrowed brows didn’t relax. His heroic face seemed to have tightened even more, “I had no impression of Wang Xiaoqian’s name before I read through her information but when I read some of her essays, I suddenly had a vague impression. I seemed to remember debating about some of those points and was eventually persuaded but in my current memory, the person I debated with was Chief Qi.”
Ji Yushi was stunned, “Double memories?”
Song Qinglan also had double memories?
“One memory is relatively vague and the other is very clear.” Song Qinglan said, “But I don’t believe that we are in an illusion. What we are looking at is definitely reality, but it may not be our original reality.”
Ji Yushi had just left the Ji residence and Professor Ji’s words were still lingering inside him.
Hearing Song Qinglan say this, he couldn’t help but ask, “You also think that we have come to a parallel world?”
Song Qinglan remained silent and didn’t comment on the world ‘also’.
He continued to calmly drive the car, “If this is a parallel world, then there must be another us. Where did they go?”
These words struck Ji Yushi’s heart hard, making him fall silent.
This was a problem that had been troubling Ji Yushi. Coupled with his chaotic memory and the fact that it had only been a few days since his return, Ji Yushi’s state was already very bad and possibly even worse than how he was in the Ouroboros mission.
He was already very overwhelmed.
Song Qinglan, “The ‘brain in a vat’ theory you mentioned made me think about this question for a long time. I’m wondering, did we arrive at a parallel world or is this our original world and have we just acquired memories from another world? In other words, what is happening to us is the sequelae of travelling through time and space and the so-called double memories is actually us going mad?”
Am I the butterfly or Zhuangzi? (KKnotes: This is another reference to the Butterfly Dream poem mentioned previously where Zhuangzi wondered if he was a man who dreamed of a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming of being a man.)
How do people tell that something is truly real?
“And I finally reached a conclusion.” Song QInglan said, “It’s actually very simple if you want to know the answer to these questions.”
The car had at some point in time reached Ji Yushi’s place.
Ji Yushi had originally thought that Song Qinglan would drive the car to his grandfather’s place and then he would drive back home. This would be considered as ‘dropping Song Qinglan off’.
But it seemed that Song Qinglan didn’t seem to have understood his intentions. Looks like he may need to drive out again.
But Ji Yushi didn’t have the time to worry about that right now.
Because Song Qinglan said to him, “The key to solving the problem lies with you. This time, I don’t want to discuss the mission report we need to give to the people above. I want you to tell me everything you remember from the moment you arrived at Jiang City, including Ouroboros, Chaos, and everything that happened after we were intercepted. If we look at the memories from a different angle and peel the skin off layer by layer, we will definitely reach the truth.”
The streetlamp outside illuminated Ji Yushi’s calm face. Only he himself knew how violently his heart was beating at this very moment, “My other memory? What if I make a mistake?”
“Anyone with overlapping memories can make mistakes but you won’t. Whether this is a parallel world or the aftereffects of traversing, Advisor Ji, your memory is the key for us to distinguish between the realities.” Song Qinglan said, “I believe in you.”
In reality and not in a mission. This line was spoken almost too straightforwardly.
The inside of the car was suddenly quiet for a few seconds.
Song Qinglan let out a light cough and said, “You can go up. I’ll take a taxi and go back to my grandfather’s place.”
And he had to also go back to the station to pick up his car.
Ji Yushi however asked, “Cap Song, can you go back tomorrow?”
Song Qinglan almost choked, “Huh?”
Was Ji Yushi inviting him to go up and stay over for the night?
Of course, he definitely didn’t mean it that way but wasn’t it a bit inappropriate for a straight man to stay overnight with a man whose sexual orientation was men?
Perhaps it was because of Song Qinglan’s hesitation, Ji Yushi belatedly remembered that the other party had PTSD towards getting close with a gay and felt that the other person may have misunderstood something. He undid his seatbelt, the red mark on his neck appearing and disappearing at the edge of his collar, “What I meant was———”
“Okay.” Song Qinglan smoothly got out of the car, “We shouldn’t leave it until it’s too late. If necessary, we can video call Old Zhou and the others to see how they are going.”
After he said that, he looked upstairs and narrowed his eyes, “Who’s home?”
Ji Yushi breathed a sigh of relief, “Just a cat.”