Chapter 84: Only I Am Worthy Part 2 (1/2)
Gemini hated funerals. So, did most people, Gemini more than others. Especially when the said funeral was so personal to her, her sister was dead—an apparent suicide. Even after living with her for years, spending every waking moment reading to be streamers, she was none more aware than anyone else Aoi was going through this. But that wasn't the only reason she hated funeral though. She felt so out of place compared to everyone. Everyone wore black suits and dresses perfectly ironed and looked after. It was respectful. Gemini wore her work clothes. The bright orange colours clashed with everyone else, combined with it being slightly torn was faded ketchup stains up her arms, well as that, her mishmash of highlights in her hair was dirty and inappropriate, the drained short shoulder-length black mixed with her green highlights which were wearing down due to the lack of care would make anyone stare. And that's all she noticed. In the corner of her eye was people staring at her. She didn't want to nor care to look back. It was a minor annoyance, and that's it.
It was close to raining as clouds began to form around the cemetery. Gemini looked up at the sky as a single raindrop splattered on her face. She wiped her face looking back down at the coffin her sister was being buried in. A rose by her side, Gemini effortlessly chucked the rose down as she turned around walking off. The others who had come to pay respects watched her walk off. She held her head down low as she heard the snarly and spiteful comments being made about her. She bit her lip in anger as she held her tongue about the comments.
The rain began to downpour as she made her way under the nearest tree for cover. Gemini stood idly by watching the small crowd of people around the grave leaving, some running to their car others still standing by the grave tore by their losses. Gemini let out a sigh as she snapped out a cigarette holding it in her mouth as she looked around her pockets for her lighter. She soon realised she left it at her house, making her groan to herself. That was until a lighter was held out in front of her. She peered to her left, seeing a well-kept boy in a black suit. He gave her a reinsuring smile as he lit her cigarette. Gemini didn't say anything as she took her first puff staring out back at the cemetery, keeping her silence making the situation slightly awkward. The man coughed faintly catching her attention ”I'm sorry about your loss.”
”Of course, you are. Everyone is. That's all I have heard today. I don't even know half the people here. They aren't actually sorry. They have to say it. Out of respect” Gemini chuckled ever so faintly to herself
The boy stood idly nodding to her ”She had a lot of friends. Your sister was sure a popular girl.”
Gemini frowned slightly taking the last puff of her cigarette as she threw it to the floor ”Well that's just how Aoi was. She was the cool popular girl while I was the one no one knew or wanted to know.” Gemini rolled up another cigarette moaning to herself ”I use to be so envious of her. She was the perfect sister who everyone loved and wanted to know. I feel so stupid for letting that get to me for so long” Gemini looked at the boy wagging her cigarette around. He rolled his eyes, lighting her second smoke. Gemini looked back out to the cloudy sky as she glared at the boy ”It doesn't quite feel real.”
”Understandable. Must be quite traumatic.”
”No, it's not that. When I saw Aoi that night. I really felt nothing. Strange, isn't it?”
”You don't recognise me, do you?”
Gemini scoffed staring at him. ”You're Goro Nakamura. One of my sister's best friends.”
He chuckled, shaking his head. ”So, you do remember. Can't say I wouldn't blame you if you didn't. We never talked that much.”
Gemini squatted down, throwing the smoke away, cupping her head in her hands. ”You loved her, didn't you? No point in hiding it, she would always talk so highly of you it made me sick.”
”Yeah, I did.”
”Must be quite the blow for you then, huh?” She tutted. ”She never showed any signs of suicide. If she did, she did a bloody good job hiding it. She was so hopeful and excited for the V.I.R.A.L exams; this was the last thing I thought would happen.”
”Don't go blaming yourself.”
”I'm well beyond that.” She said spitting. ”To be all honest, I should be down there, and she should be standing here. I'm just a useless nobody.”
Goro glared down at her uneasy. ”That's only you saying that. I'm sure Aoi looked up to you?”
”Or pitied me. Couldn't stand the sight of me that she had to end it all? Is that the reason you killed yourself, sister? I won't blame you if that's the case…”
Unsure what to say to that Goro decided to change the subject. ”Are you still going onto stream?”
I'm not sure. Most likely not. Although it was my idea, it's hard to see me doing it without her.” She said honestly. ”We had our name all planned out too. Paradox.”
”You still can. I passed my exams. If you want, you could do it with me?”
Gemini stood up, shaking her head. ”This is exactly what I'm talking about. Nobody wants to know me when she was alive. But the moment Aoi dies I'm the talk of the town. All of a sudden everyone wants to know who Gemini Fujisaki is. It pisses me off; they don't care who I am; they just do it out of respect. Is that all this is? A way to make it up to me because you knew my sister. Give me a fucking break and get out of my sight. I want nothing to do with you Goro.”
Goro closed his lighter sighing. ”If that's what makes you happy, so be it, but just a step back and really thinks. Would this really be what your sister wants?”