23 ??Leftover Dinner?? (1/2)

LEIA

I hoped the puffiness of my eyes didn't give away the fact that I had been, among other things, crying. Coming out of the toilet took a lot of courage and one look at Ammar's face and I felt like puking again.

He was looking down at his mobile phone when I walked up to our table and I could, thankfully, not feel a certain pair of eyes on me. That just left me feeling alone. I sat down and Ammar looked up at me, smiled and went on to do whatever it was that he was doing on his phone.

I'd have enough of this man. I wouldn't spend another second feeling like crap for the way he treated me. I wasn't a lowly being who would bow down to him just because he had money. He was rich, big deal. He could stuff his money in his mouth for all I cared.

I just wanted out of this relationship. It had taken too much of my heart and soul. I'd wasted too many tears in regret of the decisions I had made when I was twelve.

I cleared my throat and Ammar's eyes travelled up.

”What's up?” he said.

”I don't want this, Ammar,” My hands were all clammy and my voice wavered ever so slightly. ”When I married you, let's be honest I was going through some very difficult times and you took advantage of it.”

He laughed in a mocking and I'm-better-that-you way. Like what I was saying had no meaning or value. Like I was stupid.

I stringently clenched my hands under the table and continued, though I felt about a thousand times more nervous. I'd be damned if I let him trample all over me. ”I won't let you force me into this. Not again. You have to divorce me this week.”

He kept smiling even though there was a tightness to his eyes, a cynical madness in those black irises. He didn't reply, as if I wasn't even worth it.

My knees jerked constantly and I tapped my palms over them, trying my best not to lose it in front of everyone. In front of Zayn. He would definitely notice if something was wrong with me. I sneaked a peak from out of the corner of my eyes but he wasn't looking here.

He was speaking to Biya.

I wanted to laugh so hard if only so that I wouldn't burst into tears.

Nothing was going right in life. Nothing at all.

Ammar and I stared at each other. I kept silent until he finally decided to open his mouth.

”Let me tell you something, Leia,” His voice was mocking and I barely stopped myself from slapping him. His hand crawled over mine as he tightly clutched it. I ground my teeth together. ”Have you ever wondered where your mommy dearest is?”

All the breath left my body.

No. He wouldn't.