Chapter 168 Side Story 11 : Esther Brights Journal (2/2)
All I can do is train a worthy successor and try to slow down the process to the maximum.
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Grand Protector's Journal: Entry 3601
In the middle of the chaos and the corrupted Terrene Protectorate I found a person worthy of being one of my possible successor.
Her name's Leda Portia.
She's young and as such, was clean from all the corruption and dirty going around under the wraps of the organization.
I'll personally contact her and train her.
I think she's my best option to be a successor.
While I was looking for files about Grand Protectors of the past I stumbled upon a file that had gone through a 'book burning' process, someone probably tried to erase this file from existence, but I still found some pieces about it.
The file in question showed personal information about a certain prodigy of the Terrene Protectorate Academy. Different from the other prodigies, this one was kept in secret and trained by the Grand Protector personally to become the next Grand Protector.
If everything followed the plan in the paper, I wouldn't have been the Grand Protector, but rather this young man.
His name was Matthew Connor.
From the remnants of his file, his last mission was to explore the Frontier at a Warship made by the Terrene Peacekeepers.
Probably sent for training or... I fear... someone wanted him dead by sending him at a suicide mission beyond the Frontier.
I wonder what happened to this prodigy.
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Grand Protector's Journal: Entry 3798
Another Senior Protector had decided to retire.
It's the third of this month, and the 1789th after I took the Grand Protector's position.
This time a very old friend of mine, an Apex called Boris.
He said he had enough of the corruption going around the Terrene Protectorate and that he was tired of being treated like a dog by the Letheia Corporation.
Just like what most of the previous one said.
I'm trying to slow down the fall of the Terrene Protectorate, but things are looking worst than I predicted.
I hope the organization can last a few more decades before it fade away in the currents of time.
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Grand Protector's Journal: Entry 4002
I had a major breakthrough in my research about the Ruin and the entity known as the Cultivator.
From my calculations the seal of the Ruin is being weakened faster than my previous calculations.
In less than 30 years, the seal will be weakened enough to for the Ruin to start to emerge in the universe.
I tried to convince the Elder Council about the danger, but they didn't listened to me, they think it was just old tales about the Ancient civilization.
I'm certain about the danger.
I must try harder to convince them of doing something about it.
I need more time to study about this.
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Grand Protector's Journal: Entry 4013
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I'm really disappointed with the Elder Council now.
When I took a leave of a few days to dive deeper in my research about the Ruin, they used underhanded methods to approves some proposals detrimental to the Terrene Protectorate's Protectors.
They are really drunk with all the power they have, but they still want more.
It really goes by the saying of the days before the 100-Years Great War, 'Absolute power corrupts absolutely'.
I'm getting tired of this. My hair is all gray already, I'm too old and very busy to deal with those westrels.
I wonder... How much time I can push myself to stay in the seat of Grand Protector.
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Grand Protector's Journal: Entry 4055
I'm old and tired.
I really can't carry this burden anymore.
I just finished writing my resignation letter. I think Leda Portia will be able to hold the fort and carry the burden of maintaining the integrity of the Terrene Protectorate.
I feel ashamed of doing such a thing, throwing the burden of trying to keep the ship sailing despite it already started to sink.
When I took the office I hoped to make great changes and push the Terrene Protectorate forward.
I hoped to leave some great legacy behind when I resigned.
But from the looks of it, I don't think I made great changes.
In fact, I think I may be shunned by history books in the future and labelled as an useless Grand Protector.
It truly breaks my heart seeing all this happen.
Tomorrow I'll resignate.
My best wishes to the next Grand Protector, Leda Portia.
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Ex-Grand Protector's Journal: Entry 26
If even my leave from the Terrene Protectorate wasn't enough to break my heart, next piece of bad news was.
Asra... She really lost her way.
She founded a group called Occasus Cult. A bunch of extremists Humans that believe that all the other sentient races are inferior to Humans.
I saw this coming, but what I didn't expected was that a few previous Senior Protectors were also joining the group.
I think is because of their hatred against the Letheia Corporation that drove them to do make the choice of joining the Cult.
Really...
I don't know what to do anymore.
Year after year, the universe gets more chaotic, and a greater evil is looming on the shadows, waiting for the time when the seal is at its weakest to break free and start a slaughter.
I don't know where I did wrong.
Should I have just let the girl die on that devastated city?
Should I have raised her differently?
It was my fault, or this was inevitable?
These questions keep bugging on my mind.
Looks like I was bound to suffer, one way or another.
I wish...I wish I could go back in time and fix everything that went wrong.