Chapter 283 (1/2)

On the way back to Luoyang City, Huang San stopped talking several times. Traceless knows the depression in his heart. In Huang San's heart, his father used to be so tall, but what he has experienced recently is subverting the image of his father in his heart, which is neither acceptable nor acceptable to any child.

Wuji understands Huang San's depression, but he doesn't know how to comfort him. They let the horses walk slowly under their seats, and the sound of hoofs broke the silence all the way. Green mountains, streams, winding mountain roads, dilapidated wild chrysanthemums; The setting sun, the horse, two tired people, walked through the mountains that had been stained with autumn.

Huang San suddenly smiled silently. Was he helpless or self mocking? He looked up at the washed blue sky in the distance, and his face was solemn under the sunset.

”Xiaojiang, sometimes I really envy you. I don't remember anything, whether happy or unhappy, real or illusory. Well, it's actually very good. ”

Traceless did not speak, but listened very calmly, but his heart was not calm at all. Is that good? Who am I, who are my parents, where are they, and are they also great heroes? I don't know anything. Is that good?

After losing his memory, he thought of this problem for the first time, his parents and his life experience.

”My father has been very strict with me since childhood. He taught me martial arts and life. The most thing he ever said to me was that a man should stand up to the sky and be worthy of it. In my heart, he is an indomitable man and a worthy hero. I always flaunt him and learn from him everywhere. Although he has a nickname ”good gentleman” in the Jianghu, no one disagrees with him and respects him in Luoyang. Xiaojiang, do you believe it? ”

Huang San said softly, very calm and indifferent. Although he finally asked Wuji, he didn't wait for his answer and said, ”I know you won't believe it, even feel ridiculous. Seriously, now my heart has shaken, and even I am unwilling to force myself not to believe those rumors, but I know that those words are likely to be true. I was shocked by the death of long Feiyun. If there was no deep hatred, why should he design me everywhere at the end of being ruined and buried on the cliff? ”

Speaking of this, Huang San smiled bitterly again, then looked up at the gradually sinking sunset and said in a deep voice, ”you say, shouldn't I doubt my own father like this?”

Traceless was also confused, because there was no concept of father in his impression, and he didn't think about whether his father was good or bad, a real hero or a hypocrite. So he couldn't fully understand Huang San's mood. He just felt that the air suddenly became so dull that it was suffocating.

So he didn't know how to answer, or whether he should answer.

”Xiaojiang, do you also look down on my father and me in your heart“ Traceless gently shook his head and said, ”you are you, uncle is uncle. I don't look down on anyone in my heart. Who can be right if he is not a sage? Even if uncle made a mistake, long Feiyun shouldn't transfer his hatred to you. The gratitude and resentment of the previous generation should be solved by the previous generation“ Huang San shook his head and said, ”there's another word for the father to repay the son. As a son of man, I have the responsibility to bear everything my father should bear. Besides, now my father has lost his mind. If I don't bear it, who will bear it“ Traceless and dumb, because Huang San's words are reasonable. It is natural for children to repay their parents for their mistakes.

They were silent again, bathed in the sunset, and slowly walked into Luoyang. At this time, the busy market has begun to close, and the night market has not yet begun. The originally busy street seems a little lazy. As soon as he entered the city, Huang San always felt that everyone's eyes were staring at him strangely, as if every word they said was talking about themselves.

Huang San said, ”let's go to Taibai building and stay drunk“

This time, traceless was excited when he didn't hear drinking, but more dull. He knew that Huang San wanted to drown his worries with wine.