Chapter 20： (1/2)
The memories of the first year are a little messy, like a piece of paper-cut painting.
He always ignorant of ignorance, even in the face of his indifferent mother, still with the softest smile.
After giving birth, the long-term backlog caused the original owner Jiang Tang to suffer from postpartum depression, especially the heavy bleeding made her body to the worst state. For this child, she naturally could not give a little love.
The first day was raised by a nurse. The original owner rarely kissed him and hugged him. She had only fear of him.
To make matters worse, a drunken Lin Suizhou made her pregnant again.
For the arrival of the second child, the original owner still couldn't give birth to love. Compared with the first time, she could not disgust and breastfeed him with due diligence. When she was a son, she went out of control several times, so ... the original owner closed the young first year in the closet, and only when he could not be seen, would her heart be at peace for a moment.
Or, the weak original owner only dares to abuse the most sensible first day.
The young first year always wondered why his mother treated him like this.
But he was too young to understand how to hate, but he would envy Liang Shen, who was held by her. Through a small gap, he had touched another world. The closet locked his body, and the prisoner trapped him immature. soul.
Until three years old, when the daughter was born, Liang Shen became more stubborn.
The original owner's venting object is only the first day. In her view, the first day is almost to kill his demon. Finally, the original owner proposed to take the first day to the playground.
In the night with neon lights flashing, the first day ascended the ferris wheel, and when it came down, it was dark.
He was abandoned.
Fear, restlessness, struggling, everything kneaded together, so that he could not cry, crying, crying, leaving only darkness and haze to accompany.
It would be nice if he also had a brother ...
Thinking about this on the first day of the young year.
After being taken home, he didn't talk about his mother's abandonment in the first day. He only said that he had lost it. He went to school and school like nothing happened, but he was more silent.
Through the mirror of the first memory, Jiang Tang saw him talking to himself in countless nights.
In the daytime, he was Lin Chuyi who was obedient and sensible, and at night ... instantly became a selfish, grumpy, not-good-hearted Lin Wu.
Lin Wu splits out all the painful memories of the first day, including his abandonment and cold violence. Although he forgot the first day, Lin Wu remembered, he resented, resented his siblings, resented his mother and father, resented this family. So once he found an opportunity, Lin Wu competed for control of the master's personality, and madly encouraged younger siblings.
”Mother may not love us, otherwise why wouldn't she hug us?”
”Liang Shen, I heard from my mother today that she wanted to throw you away.”
”I heard that the child is too clever, and the mother does not care. Why would you do a prank? Mom will definitely notice you.”
”Deeply, my mother said those words again ...”
”...”
”...............”
However, all this was unknown to the first one.
Lin Wu will not let him know these things.
As his first wish, he was well protected by his brother ”Lin Wu”.
Jiang Tang awakened from his memory.
It was dusk, a sky of yellow rose up from the sky, and the whole ground at his feet was dyed into a strange red gold.
She touched her forehead and sweated with a forehead. Suddenly she felt that someone looked at herself again, turned her head to look at Qing Ling's eyes.
”Mom, you are asleep.”
”I fell asleep accidentally ...” Jiang Tang's throat was so dry that her heart was beating wildly, and she had not been able to relax until a long time ago.
”Have you had a nightmare?” The first day touched the small schoolbag, and finally pulled out a small square handkerchief. He came over and wiped the sweat on her forehead carefully and gently.
”The first day.” Jiang Tang grabbed his wrist, his eyes fixed on him.
”mom?”
”I am sorry……”
Startled one by one, smiled: ”It does not matter.”
He didn't know why his mother apologized, but no matter what happened, he would not blame his mother. After all, she gave birth to him very hard and almost died for this. Although his mother was very cold and not very interested in him, he was born as a big brother and could not be bothered.
”What do you want to eat at night, ice cream can be anything.”
On the first day, he pursed his lips and hesitated: ”Mom, will you divorce your father?”
Jiang Tang was entangled in his heart and remembered the doctor ’s instructions. He said that he had mild depression and anxiety in his first day. As an adult, he should try his best to meet his needs and let him feel the desire for protection. appear.
”What if I say yes?”
He didn't show much emotion, and his calf rocked gently: ”Dad did not do well enough.”
Jiang Tang found it interesting and smiled: ”How do you say?”
”He doesn't go home often for work, and makes his mother feel lonely. He also doesn't talk much, sometimes he has a bad temper, and I can feel that you are unhappy. If you are really unhappy, leave your father.”
He looked at her: ”I don't want to make you unhappy.”
”...”
”If possible, I want to give you the most beautiful flowers in the world.”
”...”
Jiang Tang is not the kind of person with a soft eye socket, but when he sees the first day of the present day, he can't help thinking of the various things he has suffered.
She reached out and hugged the first one in her arms, stroking his soft hair at once: ”If I separate from your dad, will you go with me?”
Anyway, she does n’t have any likes in her life, and she does n’t want to have another child. It ’s good to think about having a lifetime with the first grade. If you really ca n’t return to the original world, with the first grade, there will be no one after death. Send off.
”If you need me, I will go with you, but if you think I am a burden, I will stay with my father.”
”I won't despise you, of course, I will not despise Awu.”
The last sentence made the first day stunned for a moment.
For a long while, the first day smiled shyly: ”A Wu knows it will be very happy.”
Jiang Tang's legs were soft when she got off the ferris wheel. Even if her feet were firmly on the ground, she still had a feeling of fluttering.
On his way home, Jiang Tang thought a lot.
First of all, the first day was special. Even for his health and the health of the other two children, he could n’t let him stay at the Lin ’s house again, so Jiang Tang decided to take the first day to move out. Secondly, she was n’t attached to the male worm. If she successfully leaves the Lin family, she can't really continue to be dodder grass. She needs a job, but with the first day of school, she can't resume her old career for the time being. The actor is undecided. It is a common thing not to go home for three months. How can she let the child alone at home ...
Jiang Tang bit his lower lip in contemplation, and only the owner and author of the online store can work quickly and make money.
The owner of the online shop is definitely not able to take it. The author of the novel is too time-consuming from signing to making money. The screenwriter can try it. She has worked as an actor. She knows a lot of gold writers. She also has a little foundation, especially this world is not connected to the original world. Many settings are very new to this world, and it is not afraid that no one will write them.
It really doesn't work ...
Jiang Tang can help the sisters in the continuation group.
If it doesn't work, she will be an advertising model.
Look good and have a 36D big breast (?) You can't be afraid of meals?
Jiang Tang's narcissism touched his hair, and he felt more and more promising.
After returning home with Lin Chuyi, Lin Suizhou still did not come back. She was not in a hurry and sat on the sofa and waited slowly.
When the hour hand ticked, she ate three bags of fries in the middle of the night, watched a movie, drank two barrels of cola, and nibbled most of the watermelon. Lin Suizhou ... still did not return.
Jiang Tang was a little impatient, and suddenly remembered the nightclub, Lin Suizhou might have waited the same way.
—— Lin Suizhou is really boring.
Three o'clock in the morning.
The lights outside the window flickered, and the sleepy Jiang Tang was sober. He wiped the scum of potato chips on his mouth, and then thrown the garbage bag into the garbage bin. Then he put his hands around his chest and sat down.
The shadow is floating and is approaching slowly.
She followed her gaze and saw that when Lin Suizhou was going upstairs, Jiang Tang coughed softly: ”I came back early enough.”
He stood still.
Jiang Tang turned on the light and sat with his spine straight, looking at him expressionlessly.
Lin Suizhou froze, raised his wrist and looked at the time, frowning: ”Why not sleep yet.”
”come here.”