Chapter 4 (1/2)

Last night Dr Su and I had a long, intih-spiritedly patted o prepare the endorsement for the next shi+ft, I’m off-duty today”

By the time I hit the hay, I didn’t know if I was asleep or awake In ht in front of h I’ve explained to hi third parties when settling things

This kind of sleep akin to being in a trance is the worst, lecting the s or re the past Many people would say there's no worth looking back at the past, but my past is very worthy It’s the , reverse pursuit in history, and can be called the ”The Successful Story of a Bright Girl” (T/N: referring to Jang Nara's 2002 drama)

I had a crush on Jiang Chen that time It was after one week of careful deliberations that I combined information from novels, manhwa, and dramas, and was able to co it on, and a direct confession It took yet another week of conducting a coe of letters: first, I’ Chen often receives letters but he al it on: first it’s easy to pass on the wrong athered in the numerous love conspiracies in novels and dramas, I found out that the person ould pass on the onist; so in the end, I was left with only this road to confession

We always think that there are countless possibilities in life, afraid of this, afraid of that, in the end there would still be only one re possibility

I flipped through the Yellow Calendar, and picked an auspicious burial date to confess to Jiang Chen He was on student duty at that ti hi with the broo me a mouthful of dust froives information whether a particular day is propitious)

I said: ”Jiang Chen, I like you, puh, puh, puh”

At first, he gave : ”puh, what?”

I was very vexed and hurriedly explained: ”I' at you, I just ate a mouthful of dust, I said I like you”

He continued the act of furrowing his broo creases were scrunched in between his brows, really good-looking

He said: ”I don't like you”

It was an era where everyone loves to engage in auous relationshi+ps, and also at that tirievances suffered by people involved in such, so even though it's not really what they feel, most of the people would still say: “I’m not suitable for you, you deserve so, we should study well and enter a good university first”, and such nonsense Jiang Chen’s chop the nail and slice the iron rejection made me think that his ruthlessness really stands out from the rest Hence I’ve decided to beco him (T/N: firm and resolute)

So Jiang Chen was pestered byin theChen co, and say, “What a coincidence, I’s as well before the diss I’d rush to the stairs, wait for Jiang Chen to walk pastschool”

I was so muddleheaded that I choked ona few tiain I sawChen In a blink of an eye I was pulling on Jiang Chen’s bag, pleading “Wait forto hand over lish teacher”

He pulled back his bag: “What were you doing in class? Li Wei is waiting forto buy so”

Maybe,as so tier In short, I aiave him a kick: “Go find your Li Wei!”

He probably didn’t expect it, and yelled while hopping on one foot: “Chen Xiaoxi you lunatic!”

I leaned on the railings afterwards, watching Jiang Chen and Li Wei walk towards the school gates It was nearly dusk, an orange sheet was draped in between heaven and earth looking as if someone knocked over a bottle of Sunkist in their hurry, and dyed everything in orange

I was only 16 years old at the time — the first time in my life when I felt utterly sad

The scenes inover very casually This ti Chen, ”I have so to say to you”

He gave lance with his arms folded across his chest: “Speak”

After kicking hi, his responses to me were less than before I let love and pride battle it out for a few days Later on, Love annihilated pride So I caize

I bowed my head and said softly like a whisper: “I shouldn’t have kicked you that day, I’m sorry”

He didn’t givewhile, so I looked up and saw hi absentain and shouted loudly: “Jiang Chen!”

He lowered his head to look at

After saying that, he turned around and walked away

I was looking at his back, my heart was suddenly filled with a deep sadness, like how s, with the thick s sensation

I subconsciously rubbedChen”

He looked back

I said with a bitter laugh: “Hehe Do you think, I like to be unlucky?

He stared dazedly at o down to play ball”

I said nothing, there’s a deep sadness in my heart that it would be better for this heart to die from such sadness

He see tiht anxiousness: “I really didn’tvery quickly”

I nodded in understanding, “Go quickly, jiayou! (T/N: lit add oil, it’s the equivalent of hwaiting in Korea and ganbatte in japan)

He turned around and ran, after running a few steps, he suddenly stopped and called me: ”Chen Xiaoxi”

”Why?”