283 Use the chance to nurture their feelings (2/2)

”Anyway, how do you feel about your job as a model. Too boring or too overwhelming?” she asked suddenly, already changing into another topic. She was still resting her chin on her hand, looking at him interestingly. She found that this question was quite appropriate as he was still new in the modelling world and she, as his senior, should help him dealing with challenges. Well, not helping him solving it by herself but helping on how to deal with the obstacle. Of course, he needed to understand that regardless of how long they had become a model, they still had the risk of being cancelled at the last minute or even when they had completed their job but their 'existence' at the shot was deleted completely. Ryn rarely faced these problems but once in a while when she was still new, she encountered it. Her reluctance to 'obey' those 'men' always ended up with her being cancelled even when she was already in the middle of shooting or disappeared from the shoot completely in the finished product. At first, she was sad but Mika always cheered her up and brought her to have fun to lessen the sadness and it worked. She put that sadness to the side and focussed on her new jobs and on Jeremy. She even learned new recipes to cook for Jeremy when he returned from his show or tour.

She sighed. She never thought she would learn to cook because of Jeremy. When they first met, she thought of him as her elder brother. Mika always talked about her big brother and how he was such a hypocrite; in public, he showed himself as a perfect son but behind the scene he always bullied her. So when he was then introduced to her, she did not care much about him and focussed on her own thing and Mika.

”Everything is still new for me but I am learning,” Harry's voice snapped her back from her thought.

She blinked her eyes a few times and faked a cough to the window to cover line. She could not believe she was remembering her memory with Jeremy when she was talking with Harry. Was she too hopelessly in love with Jeremy?

”Mei Li and other models, even the directors and the photographers help me a lot on site,” Harry added, glancing at Ryn. He frowned when he saw her looking out the window again. Was she losing her interest on him this quick?

”Good. You should use all the chances given to you to improve yourself. Don't get discouraged if you face with critics. Use it to improve yourself. Learn from your mistakes and watch for others too,” Ryn looked at him finally. She was able to control her emotion and mind. She no longer kept thinking about Jeremy and could focus on chatting with Harry. She needed to help her junior. He was still inexperience and young in this modelling world full with backstabbing, hypocrites and backhanded tactics to get what they want. She did not want him to lose his confidence and self-esteem when facing them.

”Do not get sidetracked with other's tricks. Focus on doing your job the best you could and your catwalk and pose, keep practising,” she added thoughtfully. She gave more pointers as they getting closer to their agency.

He listened to her but, at the same time, he wished she would stop being so professional and started talking about them. But, it seemed like she was so focussed on being his senior and forgot this was the chance for them to nurture their feelings.

When would she grab the chance? They were getting closer to the agency. Once they arrived, they could not do it anymore. They must maintain their distance especially among their colleagues at the company.

He sighed. Maybe it was better for him to start it.

”Ryn…” he called her name gently.

”Hmm…?” she stopped giving her advice and waited for his next word.

”I…” he paused. He did not know how to start it. He was too nervous but he knew he had to grab the chance.

”What is it? Why do you look so nervous?” she asked with a chuckle. She thought he was too ashamed to share his problem as a model for her. ”It's okay. Although you see me as if I have never faced any obstacle in my modelling work, I actually had so many experiences dealing with disappointments and sadness during my jobs.”

He was speechless. How could she think he was still thinking about his job? He was thinking about their relationship and how to make it closer! He was thinking of how to make her accept him as her boyfriend! He did not care about this modelling job. Because he knew sooner or later he would inherit his family's company. This modelling gig was just a hobby, and a way to get closer to her.