31 Bye (1/2)

”More likely so I like him, more than I should.”

I suddenly opened my eyes and stared at the ceiling of my room. I very slowly sat up on my bed as my head feels very heavy and there's like ringing in my ears. Nevertheless I feel like I've said something really stupid yesterday.

I like him, more than I should.

Then it dawned on me. I said it. I really said it!

”OMAYGOD!”

”W-what is it, my lady?!”

I looked at Rory who rushed inside my room and quickly looked around, scanning the area.

I pinched my arm to calm myself down. I shouldn't worry the kids more than they should already. Stress would not be good for their growth.

”I was just suddenly woken up by my dreams, Rory. Do not worry.” I smiled then wiped my face and eyes. I looked at myself, I'm in my sleeping wear, which is a red cotton robe. Ava and Eva must have changed me up last night.

”Is that so, my lady. Very well. I'll send Ava to give you some medicine for hang-over.”

I just nodded as he left.

I placed both my palm to my face and let out a heavy sigh. I just really, really, really hope! That Hue didn't catch on what I really mean.

I mean, do I really mean it that way? Do I really like Erden? Am I being serious here? Are you being serious Reenste? Are you for real on yourself now?

I get it. Erden's a handsome guy. With his long slick black hair, his fair white face, those perfectly arched eyebrows, his almond shape and deep dark blue eyes that are like the night and stars above, his symmetrical luscious thin lips, and the unexpected smile he gives that makes my heart flutter.

I mean come on! I've literally described him as someone who looks like a god. So I get it! That's why I like him, but more than that. He knows the real me. The me who isn't this Reenste. The me who is missing my family. The me who worked my ass off to death. The me who is living now to this body. The me whom he know and accepted.

”Ahh...shit. I really do like him more than I should.”

But still this doesn't make sense. It's like I've only met him 3 times. We really haven't interacted much right? Am I desperate for someone? Plus I shouldn't feel this way! I'm in the consort selection. I would be punished for involving myself with another man. Erden would be punished because of my own selfish feelings.

”AHHHGGHHHH!”

I grabbed one of my pillow and stuffed my head on it and screamed my lung out. I should just forget all about this. We should just be friends. For his sake.

”M-my lady? A-are you okay?”

I quickly sat straight and looked at Ava and Eva who's really worried and weirded out with my actions.

”Hahahaha! Y-yes... I am just.... doing a new training routine.” I swiftly got up from my bed to fix myself and go out.

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”Is our Lady, okay? She's been sighing a lot since she left after breakfast...” Elvio is uneasy as he continue to swept fallen leaves at the backyard. Eva on the other hand is gathering the swept leaves at one side to be used as a compost.

”I'm not sure, but someone should relay Master Zuo's message soon to Lady. The assistant did emphasized that whatever it is on the enclosed envelope is due in two weeks.”Eva then sat still looking at the leaves, as she hugs her thighs thinking deeply about her Lady's weird behavior.

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”Well... it's not like, Rory didn't tried... Lady Reenste is just really out of it today. Our poor Lady Reenste, what must she been thinking for her to be so sad.” Elvio said and slowly stopped on sweeping and his eyes began to be damp from the tears. Eva saw Elvio began tearing up thus she can't help not to tear up too. They were very worried to the person who have been smiling and caring for them. So the this kids cannot help but just be sad about it.