Chapter 159: Just an Unfortunate Event (1) (1/2)
“Ah…”
Jumping out of the blanket, Bom lifted her hands and touched her cheeks. She touched her eyes and touched her ears.
Everything was vivid.
The tiny and soft hair surrounding the body that mimicked a human as well as the eyebrows and the soft earlobes. But since everything was strangely realistic, it added to the awkwardness of her unrealistic senses.
“…”
It’s been a few days already.
Bom couldn’t see Providence.
“…”
She couldn’t see anything no matter how much she tried, and the things that were shown against her will were also no longer visible.
The ‘Eye of Providence’ became hazy.
As if something big and dark was covering the lens of a telescope, something was blocking the third eye of a green dragon that could gaze into the distance, even when she was meant to be seeing Providence.
Bom bit her lips.
It was the first time that she was unable to see Providence like this ever since the dimensions got distorted.
Worries got the best of her before anything.
Was something dangerous coming right now? Something that detested Yu Jitae like before? But as that continued for more than 2 days, Bom started to realise that she was not in the position to worry about others.
She opened the [Ahjussi Observation Diary].
[?. Doubt: Maybe I’m trying to make ahjussi into something different?]
ᄂ[53. I think this is a correct assumption.]
It was the doubt she wrote before and after Yu Jitae’s birthday party. She found her answer to this back when Yu Jitae was trying to find her dream for her. Thanks to that, she was able to find her goal.
Bom.
She was trying to make Yu Jitae into something.
To her, Yu Jitae was a piece of artwork. A type of artwork that was to be filled with Bom (Spring) colours.
He was a human whose heart had been crushed and locked. Like a child who was starting to learn emotions, he had an innocent and naive side to him.
Easier put, he was like a black canvas. Since he was pure black without any marks, it could in fact turn into a starry night with white stars here and there.
‘Maybe filling that up is what my Amusement is for?’ That was the thought she had while she was lying down on his favourite sofa on a bright spring day.
Something interfering in her process of creating a precious artwork and adding different colours to it could perhaps be an uncomfortable experience. However, Bom didn’t feel bad even when someone intervened with her artwork. No, to be completely true to her feelings,
She was able to endure it, and stop herself from feeling bad.
Whatever the case, she was the only existence that could perfect Yu Jitae into ‘something’ within the great flow and that was within this world line’s Providence which could never be interfered with. In other words, the result was clearly set no matter the process.
So even when Yeorum hugged Yu Jitae in excitement or he patted Kaeul’s head in her sleep, and even when Bom saw Gyeoul rub her head on his chest regardless of the time, she could suppress the bad feelings.
Even when he cold-heartedly stated that he was thinking about ‘someone like you’ in the cafe, Bom was able to withstand it.
After all, the result was already there.
The only thing she was curious about was the process that led up to the predetermined result. To green dragons, ‘relationships’ were always that superficial.
“…”
Bom knew herself that she was a young and immature dragon that lacked experience. The fact that she was able to pretend to be normal in front of Yu Jitae, and the fact that she was still able to induce him into doing what she wanted him to do, were all possible only because she had seen the future through Providence.
Not just one or two, but dozens and hundreds of the future.
And because she was so ‘mentally prepared’, Bom was able to paint the dried values and thoughts of the man with her own colours, and could shake him without being shaken herself.
In other words, because everything had originated from Providence,
Now that she couldn’t see Providence,
Bom wasn’t able to do anything.
“…”
Still, she thought it would be fine at the start.
In her opinion, relationships could be in a lot of different shapes and forms, and the relationship between Yeorum, Kaeul, Gyeoul and Yu Jitae had a different shape to the one she had with Yu Jitae.
So it should be fine right? I’ve been doing it well till now. Since the result is already out, even if the answer sheet were to be dumpstered in ink, I’ve already seen the answers so isn’t it fine to do what I’ve been doing so far?
She was somehow able to deal with things while thinking that.
But yesterday, she happened to see Yu Jitae who was hugging Kaeul from behind. She hadn’t been mentally prepared for it at all, because she wasn’t able to see Providence.
“…”
The dark sky which had been embroidered by her stars until now, could only have her stars and stars that she had predicted and allowed.
That was because the sky wasn’t for her, but for Yu Jitae.
But yesterday, Bom had an abrupt thought that a star she hadn’t predicted could be sparkling somewhere in the sky.
And thinking about that moment vividly with her unforgetting memories…
…It made her slightly afraid.
Heaving out a deep sigh, she buried her head into her hands. As an existence that always mentally prepared itself, the fear she felt towards the unknown was slightly bigger than others.
She was like a plant in a greenhouse but the greenhouse that had been protecting her was no longer there. With trembling fingers, she picked up a pen.
[61. I messed up]
Her hand was saggy and the words appeared depressed.
[61. I messed up. I wasn’t trying to force us to be alone.]
She was too emotional, rash, impulsive.
[…Now is the time to look after Gyeoul. Something like this is not what I wanted.]
Turning her head, Bom stared at the blue-haired child lying down next to her. The pulsing dragon heart that should be calm when sleeping was fluttering unstably in front of a turning point. Due to that, the child was unable to sleep with ease and was dropping cold beads of sweat.
Bom was trying to make him into something, and in order to make him into something, she needed ‘his daily life’. And for his daily life, Gyeoul had to shed skin without a problem.
“I know.”
And yet due her fearful heart, she had accidentally caused a not-so-positive influence to his daily life.
It was clearly a mistake.
“Sorry Gyeoul…”
Bom wiped the sweat off for the child and kissed her on the forehead.
Nothing would happen and it should be fine.
It should be fine…