769 Time to go (1/2)

When I was sleeping I wake up while feeling that I started feeling bad. When I opened my eyes, I looked at Sophia who is sleeping close to me and when I looked at her for a few seconds, I couldn't take anymore and then I rush to the bathroom. While being there I have done what I needed and when I come out I felt refreshed but still, something bad started happening with my body. As I started walking to the living room, I said ”so stress hit me now” and when I come to the kitchen, I make tea and when I waited for it to be made I looked at the sky and when it has been ready, I take it and then I walked to the balcony.

While being there I sit on the bed and when I started drinking it slowly I looked around what is happening there and when I was doing it, I could feel that tears started going from my eyes. ”Why,” I said in a low voice as my whole carrier might go down but still I need to keep strong from what is now happening in my life and I can't break one again. As I was drinking tea, I take cigarettes, and then I started smoking. While I was doing it I have done one and as I don't want to start another one I just sit while thinking about why it started happening to me. When I was doing it I looked around and when I left the glass on the bed, I walked to take my phone and make a small sandwich as I needed to eat something to calm my stomach.

While having a phone I make a sandwich from bread and ham and while having it I started eating and then I come back to the balcony. While being there I looked at emails and while seeing some interesting and collaborations I answered nicely that I don't want now and when I have done this I started looking at law as it changes a lot from the last time I checked it.

As I was reading it I have done tea and a sandwich. ”fuck I might have problems but still I will easily go from them but I hope it will not go to public as it might hit my career so I need to do it fast” I said and then I continue reading. As I was doing it I have done the most important things which changed and while rest wasn't so important for me I close the website with this and then I read to not think about it.

When I was doing it for some time message from sweety come 'so where'.

'I don't know yet I will tell you when I will know more details so for now keep with you or give it to bold or shaggy' I wrote to him.

'Ok bold will have them' he answered.

'Oh thx one more time' I answered him and when I have done this bold wrote 'how long'.

'I don't know Sophia is still sleeping so I can't ask her and remember time zone exists' I wrote.

'Ok' he wrote and when I looked at text messages, he hasn't written anything so I come back to reading. When I was doing it I had a good time and then I could see that Sophia come out and while seeing me she said: ”what are you doing”.

”Soon I will make breakfast later work and I will wait for your phone when this party will end,” I said while smiling to her, and then I give her a short kiss. When I have done this, she looked at me and she said ”you know I don't want to go,”.

”babe don't worry everything will be all right,” I said and when I moved my hand around her cheek, she smiled and she said, ”I know but still I hate them”.