484 479. Queen Philion.txt (2/2)

But in terms of results, it's the opposite.

'Just a guy who won over that 'strongest' me and went over and broke in here. ...... Glenn Walker. And now, Snow Walker, too. Walker's two brothers and sisters were even more 'powerful' than me.

As the gatekeeper of the 99th layer, I reported my own defeat.

In Kanami's 'plan', even if my peaceful death was planned, there would have been no defeat.

However, in the face of a situation outside of that 'plan', Kanami was not upset at all, and remained with a thin smile on her face.

Spare time.

A face that was even welcoming.

Apparently, it's still not enough.

It seems that just me standing here is still a ”happy unplanned thing” for Kanami.

I know.

It's not someone else.

From now on, I'm going to cross over.

The more this Kanami's expression becomes distorted, the further and further it goes--

Noi doesn't notice my wariness and his face lights up with joy.

'What ......?　What?　You said you were broken into: ......, does that mean your soul is dead and you're dead?　In other words, you killed the brother and captured the sister, Snow, right?　...... Okay, fine!　We were told not to let any dead people out, but well, at least one of them has to be!　I thought I'd made another amazing mistake because I'm sobbing as much as I did a thousand years ago!　But!　I can't believe you've already defeated not only 'Maria' but 'Snow' as well, that's many times faster than 'The Plan' and it's going well!　Come on, let's seal the ”Snow” as well!　Oh, but it's better if I keep it for you until the Lord finishes building his magic. The sealing bed is wide enough to hold three people--

In an attempt to collect the sleeping Snow, Noi, who was in a good mood, was crawling and trying to get closer to us.

All the while, I continued to stare at Kanami, confirming Noi's current words.

'Kanami, listen to me. If the countermeasures to the 'plan' are really 'Dear' and 'Snow', then ....... Here, I'm going to fight until 'Snow' wakes up. I'm going to fight my way through it, even for the souls of the Glenn I've killed...... no, I want to fight my way through it, even for all the souls we've killed. I'm not going to be able to get away with it anymore, even if the opponent is a god or the world, even if it's an unrelievable regret, I don't want to escape.

Even Noi, who was trying to crawl out, could see it, and it would clearly emit its magic power and battle intent.

I had faith in this 'weak-hearted evil god' that Noi would never come close to me until the battle was completely over with this.

In contrast, Kanami, with a slightly troubled face, tries to interrupt my battle intent.

''Serdra, you are not responsible for everything. The only thing that's wrong is that ritual. So, you'll be 'together' with 'King Dragon (Lord)', and you'll have a normal 'happiness'--

No, no. I'm responsible. ...... That cousin Ane, who was supposed to be with you, is gone. The Seldora of the Dragon Village is also gone. The reason is that I ate them to death. I'm not going to be the only one who has a problem with it. It's a good thing that you're able to get the best out of it. That's all I have--

Talk to the people around you to make them listen.

This place will be able to reach everyone in that dragon village.

Glenn and Fafner, who have gone ahead of me, will also be listening.

I let the sleeping 'Dragon Man' (Dragon Newt) girl lie on the ground gently.

I stand in front of her, and as if to protect her, I announce my name.

''--My name is 'The One Who Steals the Reason of Nothingness', Serdra Queenfillion.

Only, its legs are trembling.

Frightened, the body is cowering.

It's pathetic, and tears keep spilling out, ragged and ragged.

It's really disgusting.

Still, I bow my head in shame and ask for help.

”Seldra Queen Filion would like to ask God for a 'duel'. Just one more time to this foolish and cowardly me. I beg you to give me the opportunity to challenge you.

A moment later, the air is tense - and Kanami immediately breaks it.

'Noi, don't move. ...... he seems to have identified himself to me.

Kanami never refuses.

If you ask, he will answer you.

He restrains Noi with his hand and rises from the throne of God.

However, Kanami leaving the throne of God is the worst case and last resort in The Plan.

The last resort (that) has now been cut off without hesitation, without hesitation.

It means you can't let your guard down at all against me.

The trembling in my body increased at this overestimation, and Noi's confusion grew.

''Eh?　Is that, eh, ......?

He couldn't seem to swallow the meaning of Kanami's restraint any more than I reported.

But slowly, he understands and begins to recognize me as an enemy.

''Ugh, you mean you betrayed me?　Why?　...... We've both identified tens of thousands of future branches and leaves!　No, not tens of thousands!　I saw infinite patterns and repeated the simulation!　Only Serdra, especially!　Perfectly infinite 'threads', I've closed off all the futures and made them goose chases!　If you go against The Thread, you'll be unhappy!　And that's no ordinary 'misery' either!　-- 'The Worst'!　And yet, why!

'Noi, as usual ....... As usual, the battle against 'the one who steals the truth' begins. Really, don't worry, it's always the same. We'll be fine.

'Or, God ....... Are you going to fight in that state?　You mean while maintaining the magic build, right?　Really, can you afford it?

Yes. But I want Noi to protect this seat and Maria and the others. Please do everything you can to prevent either of them from happening. To the limit, I'll pretend the fight 'never happened'. Still, the screams of a serious Seldora transcend dimensions (・・・・・・).

'Uh, yeah ....... Stay away and watch. I'm hiding as best I can .......

Kanami understands everything, even beyond the future.

With a tone of voice that made me think so, she turned her gaze to the two sleeping Maria and Snow.

And after confirming that Noi nodded back, Kanami slowly starts walking.

Because she can see the future, there is no hesitation at all.

Her throat trembles along with her sure footsteps.

'Serdra, you too can run away at any time. Every soul born into this world is entitled to normal 'happiness'.

I was reminded at this stage of my life.

The utter lack of equality and the spectacular indulgence was like looking in a mirror.

'You said the same thing I did, a**h*le. Hahaha.

That's the worst.

I hate myself for that.

I hate it so much I want to kill it.

I hate me even more because this mirror tries to indulge that self-hating me.

'Same thing, which is why that's what I really want to hear from Serdra: ....... Your heart has been telling you all along that you can run away ...... as many times as you want, that everyone can run away .......

It's all convenient words.

If I could just run away from those words, it would make me feel so much better in a heartbeat.

But I can't do it anymore.

The souls that 'get along' with me have gone down a harder and more painful path first.

The descendants, who were younger and weaker than me, were never going to get any easier.

There was no escape for me.

No, Kanami. I guess that's not the word I really wanted to hear. ...... The guy from Glenn gave me the words. And now I'm going to be ....... I'm going to be--

Serdra, don't tell me...

I was able to stop my next words before they happened.

However, I opened my clenched right hand.

The red-copper colored magic stone was shining.

With a gulp.

I swallowed that magic stone from my mouth.

More poison goes around.

With that poison, I shamelessly.

Selfishly, outwardly, and 'badly'...

”-- 'The real hero (・・・・・)' is (...), I'll be (・・・・).

What everyone else had so carefully connected to me, I was the one who sipped.

As if to devour and sip.

Its greedy and ravenous appearance is beyond ugly, just a disgrace.

The legendary evil 'dragon race' itself.

So I realize that the continuation of the rituals of the village has progressed over the millennia.

-- 'The Real Evil Dragon (・・・・・)' (...), now (...), I've become (・・・・・).

I hate 'evil dragons (this)'.

When I was a kid, I thought it was cool to act evil, but I'm an adult now.

There is no way I can like it.

In the first place, what I really wanted to be when I was a child (kid) was--

He was a ”Dragon Newt” who flew higher than anyone (everyone) in his family.

He was a great hero who was revered by the world (and everyone else).

He was the most powerful ancestor, handed down to his descendants (and everyone else).

I have always been based on the fact that I was a cool guy who was never ashamed of who I was.

I was the complete opposite of the smug and unashamed me of today.

So I feel like throwing up in self-hatred. I want to die of guilt.

But I can't throw up anymore and I can't die.

Thanks to Glenn, there's no way out. I finally understand that there's no way I can be that person I want to be when I'm dying.

I have no choice but to aim for the 'real hero', no matter how clumsy and uncool it is.

It's really not funny, it's not fun, I can't throw up even though I feel like throwing up, I want to die but I can't - but I think I'll be able to survive at last.

Kanami must be reading into that messed up state of mind.

She seems to be used to the mixture of conflicting things and tries to calm me down with a calm voice.

'I can't, Serdra. You were just a normal child, twisted into a ritual. So your cousin (Ane) prayed for you to be twisted back up. ...... her 'contract', don't let it go to waste.

Not for nothing. No matter what happens, people ain't going to be wasted anymore. Because thanks to the ...... that ate everyone up (・・・・), now I'm going to save God!　And even save the world on behalf of that god!　As the strongest of the strong, the weakest of the weak, we're going to save them forever!　The 'One Young Dragon of the Village (Seldora)' becomes a 'real hero'!　--didn't I?!

Thanks to everyone being eaten to death (・・・・).

I never wanted to say this one.

It was the worst, worst line of dialogue I could think of, and it made my voice tremble.

I want everyone to forgive me - but I'm too 'escapist' and there's no one left to forgive me.

I don't want to be ashamed of anyone - but I'm so 'escapist' that there's nothing left to be ashamed of.

I squeeze my throat to keep from throwing up.

I crush both lungs and let out a forceful vibration.

I let the jutters and blood vessels on the side of my neck rise to their limits.

With a loud vibration for everyone to hear.

The souls of the ritually murdered are the ones to be delivered now.

Finally, I'm going to be able to face the real dead people.

Everybody!　I'll suffer more!　I'll be diligent and hard at work until I die!　I'll deal with everyone's 'unconsciousness' until the end of time!　Even if it's not cool enough to die, there's no more escaping!　Seriously, I'm going to make sure we all have blood in our veins!　I'll survive as ”Serdra” to the best of my ability, to the extent that everyone else couldn't live!　Instead of the kind-hearted God suffering, I, the 'worst' of the worst, will continue to suffer forever!　Yeah, I know!　So, that's why, that's why, that's why, aaaaahhhhhh--!

Hell, I scream at the 'dragon's roar'.

But I can't continue to say ”So, I hope you'll forgive me” or ”So, we all lived through this together”, even if I die.

The more I said it, the more painful the 'so' was. That's why I want to keep repeating 'so' and start the continuation of a ritual that has been stopped for a thousand years.

I won't 'pretend' that the numerous failures didn't happen.

I want to eat all the trauma, turn it into power, and walk the rest of the way.

I kept tearing my way through the creeping threads that were creeping up.

Naturally, Kanami, who is trying to become the ”magic that makes everyone happy,” scowled.

And then she held up her hand.

It's not going to reply to my cry now, but instead spins a gentle magic - a gentle magic.

...the magical Dimension Graduate prequel.

”Don't let magic do it for you!　Put your trust in a miracle for everything, hope and pray, and then you're just plain 'happy'!　There's no way I'm going to become one.

The preemptive magic that didn't let the fight begin was immediately shouted out with the vibration of the 'dragon's roar'.

Only, furthermore, Kanami--.

...the magic of the reading shift.

Easy!　Keep going down that easy road and you'll be proud of yourself!　At the end of that road, you will surely be ashamed of Rastiara, and you will suffer, and you will choose suicide!　You can see what I'm doing now, you know.

Kanami used his magic to try to read something to me.

But I screamed again, and that 'dragon's roar' dissipated the magic that filled the space with its 'dragon's roar'.

Kanami, who has no intention of fighting at all, doesn't listen to any of my cries and continues to construct only convenient dimensional magic.

The purple thread wriggles like a tentacle and tries to crawl over my body.

''--Magic [Dimensional Decisive Operations (Dimension Graduate) 'Revive'

Don't run away!　Fight!　Just come with me!　The throne of God, on the line!　Fight!　Look at me!　Don't run away from me!　Fight it, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ---- ！！！！

He ignored my cries and scattered his attempt to enter the 'reformation' with the 'dragon's roar'.

That's a really loud vibration (ie.

The best scream imaginable, not only hitting the eardrums of Kanami's ears, but also directly into his soul, making him shake it.

So I guess I finally hear it, and Kanami replies to me - no (...), no (...).

'Serdra, I want to save you from your illness. The only way to get normal 'happiness' is to heal you now. ...... Oh, the 'past', the 'failure', the 'unhappiness', and everything else had to be twisted and cured. If it was a painful story, I had no choice but to write the above and fix it. I'm not going to be able to say that I'm not happy, even if the happiness that awaits me is like harvesting rice in the countryside.

'............?　Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, kuhahaha--

I couldn't get the conversation going.

Even though I'm trying so hard to talk to him, he's still just a distant noise because of his parallel 'past vision' and 'future vision'.

So its jet-black twin eyes keep shaking all the time, and like a broken machine, it just repeats ”save” and ”make 'happy'” fully automatically ....... I'm sure you'll be pleased to know that I'm not the only one who's trying to get away from this painful reality by becoming the very ”magic that makes everyone happy. I'm going to have to say that the brilliant 'escape from reality' that I remember too well, I--

I'm going to kill you.

Crying and pouting.

Biting my lip, for the first time in a really long time.

I had a killing intent for others.

But when Kanami heard this, she replied, looking somewhat into the air.

'You were only talking (・・・・・・・), Serdra (・・・・). ...... I knew it, everyone is right. You were, by nature, the weakest and kindest 'demon' in this other world. Haha.

'Kuh-uh, kuh-uh!　I'm not talking to you, man!　Talking to yourself in the mirror.　It's crazy!　Everything's gone crazy now!　Kuhu, hahahahahahahahaha!

Both are crazy and don't fit.

Perhaps he saw ”I can't kill Kanami” in ”Future Vision” and just said ”was (...)” in the past tense.

It was disgusting, to the point of death.

I wanted to kill him because we both had the same empty laugh.

I'm not going to be able to get a good look at you,” he said. If you're going to continue to take the easy way out, you're going to die here!　Don't do this when you're on the run!　Give me that God's throne to me right now!

Saving (shine) is too kind ....... ...... I'm not going to die. I won't die because I'm going to live forever with Rastiara. Rastiara. I want you to see it. --I'm going to be the one to save you. From now on, I'm going to save this most gentle little dragon. As always, it's just like the 'hero' of Rastiara's favorite story...

Before she knew it, Kanami had the example of The Journal of Rustyala Fuzzyards in her hand.

Kanami flips through the book and speaks with hallucinations.

The 'constriction' of the example has worsened and I'm not in a proper mental state.

No, my mental state is sufficiently limited (strange), but Kanami is even more limited (strange) than I am--

Even if space and time coincide, I start to doubt that we can really talk.

To be clear, it doesn't get off the ground.

'............. Huh. ....... Let's do it.

So, ”The Eighty-First Trial”.

That battle to weaken them to speak as equals, again.

Otherwise, we won't even be able to talk.

But this time, we're not going to lick each other's wounds.

We will not get comfortable, we will kill.

We're going to make them suffer so much that they will die.

I will make them scream with my blade.

Let God be the one who begs for help, even if that person is a mirror.

Even if that person is a mirror.

Even if it becomes the 80th trial, which is painful enough for me to die...

Now I'm going to devour every last drop of your divine power. --It's the magic of the Freysphere.

I chanted an ancient fresh blood magic from my hometown.

With its 'dragonization' acceleration, I finished preparing to eat my enemies, but on the way I felt a strange feeling in my body.

Something like black blood vessels were floating on both wings that had begun to grow in size.

I realized it was a 'black thread' and I could tell it was there (...).

The wing veins were not only trembling, but now they were finally doing what they were supposed to do.

Transporting bodily fluids. It carries poisonous fluids. Carrying vibrations.

--Now, I'm in a living hell. But worse than that, to think that that guy who hates me so much he wants to kill me is now in the real hell.

Pushing back by the vibrations (...) and 'together (...)' sneering (...), the poisoned black 'demon' walked out.

A hundred layers deeper than the bottom of the dark sea.

As the ”true--hero/evil dragon (Fafner)”, his challenge to God begins again.