451 447. Dream slave.txt (2/2)

I keep staring at the shattered mirror.

I felt like I could watch my favorite sister and brother (those guys) breaking down without getting tired of it forever. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I must have been enjoying it. Because from the moment I was born, I was that kind of guy. I was the kind of scumbag that reveled in seeing your father, your mother, and all the people I cared about break down. ...... My cheeks loosen up. My shoulders shake. I laugh. Haha, destroying my birthplace was ahhhhh, that was hilarious--!

”-What?　--Dimension Curvilinear Operations (Reference)!

The loudest voice in the room.

Defensive magic was needed.

Obviously, the screams that were riding on the 'price' had become an acoustic weapon that would kill the creatures in the sea.

Avoiding the damage, I successfully deflect the impact with my dimensional magic membrane.

That was for a few minutes.

I continue to maintain it and prevent the reverberating vibrations from happening.

After screaming out, Seldra looks very boring and out of breath.

'Hah, hah, hah ......'

Now I understand why we started the story in this place.

Serdra must have been concerned about the damage around her and chose a place with less things to break.

The reason he chose 'Other World' as the battlefield this time is the same as he went from the 'North' to the 'South' during the peace a thousand years ago. -- if it's enemy territory, I can do what I want.

I can also understand Seldra's primary objective.

But he doesn't simply want to fight me and hunt me down.

He is madly seeking the mutual understanding that lies beyond that.

It's exactly the same as the 'Stealers of Reason' of the past.

Oh ....... The Stealers of Reason were all lonely ....... No one understood or noticed them. That's why I'm looking for someone in a thousand years from now that I can trust with my affinity - someone who can sympathize with me. And so am I. I've been waiting for someone.

Breathlessly, Seldra continues to talk.

As she speaks, she looks at me and smiles in a really happy way.

'I was 'anxious' the whole time. But at the end of the day, Kanami started reflecting me properly. ...... I knew it was finally my turn. Because now Kanami, you know how I feel, don't you?　After all, I've never seen anyone who doesn't enjoy it more than I do.

Serdra is exposing herself to me and asking for my sympathy.

I can't let that sincere appeal go unchallenged. I can't deny it or affirm it.

'Hey, Kanami. What do you think is fun?　I've been thinking about this for a thousand years. I think Kanami is probably thinking about it more now than she has in a thousand years. What can I do to have fun?　What's fun?　How can we do that?　I don't know what that state is. I need a definition. I want you to tell me what it is. Otherwise, we don't know what 'tannoy' means at all.

What is fun?

You don't have to think about it, just be with Rustyala.

How to have fun?

I only feel calm and fluffy and comfortable while talking to Rastiala.

I know the state of affairs, I know the definition, I know it well.

But Seldra's words keep hitting me in the chest.

It shakes me to the point of breaking, physically and psychologically, and it makes me short of breath, even for me.

I desperately let my lungs rise and fall in a place where there's no air to breathe.

'Hah, hah, hah ......'

'It's not fun, it's not worth living all the time. ......!　Suffering. It's painful, painful, painful and lonely to be alive!　Because there's nothing left to do!　I've been looking and looking and looking for something new and fun, and there's no way I'm going to find it!　Because before you know it, the world was nothing!　It's nothing, it's nothing, it's nothing!　There's nothing more we can do, no more fun!

Life is not worth living.

Life is painful, painful, painful and empty.

Nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing.

There is no 'she' anywhere.

--I know a little bit of it.

It was exactly the kind of empathy that Seldra wanted, so I can continue.

'Of course I tried, I tried!　I've made more of an effort to have fun than anyone else!　I've tried so many things, not to be unreasonable, not to be corrupted by inequality, and desperately trying to have fun!　I've played along with you guys for fun and enjoyment!　Save the country, save the world!　You can destroy a country or you can destroy the world!　Like it or not, I've had my hands in everything!　That's right, Kanami!　We didn't complain!　It was always positive and affirming!　Just how long has it been since ......?　How many years have you been desperately mouthing ”fun” and ”great” and ”interesting” and ”delicious” and ”comforting” like an idiot, ......?　How hard have you worked to remember to smile, remember your friends, remember your dreams ......?　I've done everything I can. And yet, it's still boring. It's all boring. Boring, boring, boring. I didn't enjoy any of it. Not one single thing!　It's fun to be back in the day!　Why, nahhhh, nahhhh!

.............

After all, it was the conversation at the Eleventh Crossroads a week ago that was the catalyst for this one.

After it was all over, I said something I knew I shouldn't have said to Seldra, who had nowhere to go and was suffering from the 'curse' and was looking for relief.

How could I say to Seldora, who has been working hard and trying hard all along, ”You're not going to change.

To Seldora, who has been trying desperately, desperately, desperately to have fun all along, I said, ”It's hard.

Just because I, too, was seeking salvation.

Lightly, I empathized with her.

I mean, it's all about boredom, isn't it? I'm bored with everything, you know. A story that was fun at first, but soon became more of the same. By the time you start reading it, you already know what's going to happen. It's all a combination of parts that look like this, that, and the other!　Tired of it!　”Magic” and ”science” are pretty much the same thing.　What's the difference!　Thank God we're having fun again!　You don't have to do that!　Same thing!　None of this, yesterday, tomorrow, past, future, anything, is - oh, God!

Serdra stepped on the ground in the deep sea without a foothold, and the vibration increased.

Beyond the defensive magic, Dimension Curvilinear Computation (Reference), it reached flesh and blood and bone, and now it was about to crumble.

And the more he was exposed, the more Seldora's body mutated.

With each weakness, he lost his human-like form and the scales of the black dragon spread out.

Every single word of this Seldora was proof that it had meaning.

''Boring!''　Life is too boring, too boring, too boring, too boring, 'boring' eh!　'Boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring', 'boring'...' ---- ！！！！'

Seldra's black wings grow distorted and bloated.

At a frightening speed, what was merely huge swells up to fill up this wide deep sea.

When they became so large that they could no longer be recognized as wings, the wings became the ceiling of the deep sea. The deep sea, where no light can reach, is closed off even darker.

This is the 'strongest' dragon man in history (Dragon Newt). Born, hungry, seeking, wanting to devour, unfulfilled, and unable to control his destructive urges, Seldra has been crying out all the time.

More vibrations shaking the deep sea.

Tasteless.

My body can't handle any more vibrations.

After deciding that, I use magic.

Dimension Curved Computation (Reference)!

Unlike the magic he was using semi-automatically, it was conscious, all-out magic.

Seldora's screams couldn't be prevented by a half-hearted magic, so it was a magic packed with dense magic to shut it out completely.

Seldora's vibration is special, a deadly weapon that 'adapts' to any condition.

It's not just a matter of time before you'll be able to get your hands on it.

The ideal older brother, Aikawa Uzumi, was completed after being adjusted by that Yotaki in order to stand at the top of all logic stealers. Darkness, earth, wood, wind, wind, light, moon, water and many other magical stones on his body, and now he is on the verge of becoming a star.

It is only because of the ”curse” that it is so powerful.

The more you use it, the more it becomes a part of your body - the more you become familiar with it (...)

''Kanami!　Serdra is screaming for real!　He's fighting!　Then Kanami needs to respond in earnest: ......!'

I can hear the voices.

I know.

I know I should take Seldora seriously.

And yet, and yet, and yet, and yet now.

I want to look good.

I want to deny my weakness.

It's hard to be alive.

It's hard to die.

It's hard because it's contradictory.

It's hard because it's hard and you want to run away.

But where do you turn?

There is nowhere to run.

This is my 'peak'.

From now on, it's all about the happy dream.

--I was out of breath and couldn't stop.

'Ha, ha, ha, ha ......'

Hah, hah, hah ......!

Seldra was even more out of breath than I was.

She was screaming so much that I was worried about her lungs - or is it gill breathing? Both are inhuman breaths and keep moving up and down the torso.

Seldora's roar was a figure that suited the word 'seriously surviving'.

Only to survive, even the 'thread' will be shaken loose.

Even the 'world' is brought to attention and glued to it.

I could sense that he was trying to change the great tide of destiny with all his strength.

In the face of that powerful enemy, Rustyala automatically advises.

''Kanami, take a deep breath slowly ....... Stay calm and only use the magic you need right now--''

That's it.

But Seldora pointed and glared at it, wobbling.

'But it's the reason I've found I'm better than this.

He shouted out and looked at Rustyala, who was ahead of me, pitying him and lowering his eyes.

'You seem to be able to afford to look aside and all that, 'the one who steals the reason for the dimension' Kanami. But how can you afford it?　You're trying to help someone because what you really want to help is yourself. Me too, so I get it. --Still (・・・・), I'll (・・・・) live diligently (・・・・・・・・) hard (・・・・・・・) until I die (・・・・・・・), ......, and I vowed to do the same, so I get it.

We weren't the only ones sympathizing.

It was the other side too.

That day at the eleventh crossroads, when I said, ”You haven't changed” and ”It's hard”.

Because of the mutuality, they were communicating to each other.

-- that's the core of The One Who Steals the Reason of Dimensions, Kanami.

The basic premise is that I hate myself.

So no matter how bright and friendly the place is, no matter how bright and friendly the place is, all the time, only 'my world' remains dim, stagnant and sunken, and nothing changes.

It was hard to work hard and fight and fight and fight for that 'last battle' and the only thing waiting for me at the end of it was emptiness.

In truth, I wanted praise.

To my sister, to Tiara.

More than anyone else, to Lastiara.

That I was magnificent in The Last Battle. ......

Just one word of praise, just one more time, please. ......

I want to hear your voice .......

-- but there's no one else.

I've been working hard to rebuild the Confederacy for the sake of the world and for the sake of others, and everyone is getting a little bit 'happier'. I'm not going to be able to get the same kind of results. --But I've lost a lot of people who are important to me, and life isn't fun at all (・・・・・).

I understand the main aim.

The reason why Seldora is exposing her true intentions like this. It's because...

Let me tell you from the bottom of my heart that you're not having fun either: ......!　Kanami, make them suffer!　To share the suffering with me!

In order to make Kanami, the guardian of the world, the one who steals the logic of dimension, expose his true intentions as well.

Every time I prevent Seldora's caustic vibrations, I am forced to use magic. It also means that I can no longer afford to use the skill of parallel thinking. The vibrations drown out the important voice.

That's why I resisted.

Resistance, you must do.

Don't empathize. Don't get caught and nod. Or else. I have to resist. It's going to destroy me, too, if I don't.

You want me to do it? Serdra Queen Fillion.

Boiling emotions were spewed from the back of my throat.

My eyeballs moved.

The whole time I was 'stricture', I was only looking at Rustiala Foozeyers. I was weaving the story of Rustyala around Rustyala, as Rustyala's 'protagonist'

--But the too assertive souls were seriously clashing with each other.

The challenger, the Blue Dragon Man (Dragon Newt), was different from the usual.

In keeping with the battlefield, he wore camouflage black. His long black hair, which had grown to the same length as mine, was shimmering in the deep sea. Its black eyes could almost be mistaken for my own.

”Finally, you've seen me, Kanami. Hah, hah, hah, hah ......, kuhahaha. I didn't know where you were looking the whole time, it was so freakin' creepy, you know?

Seldra laughs as she spreads her black wings, painfully out of breath.