258 256. Forty Trials "Self-Prison".txt (2/2)

The thick trunks trying to swallow the enemy, the countless root tentacles, the storms of leaves that cut through flesh, the sap that dissolves everything - everything is dispensed with, dispensed with - dispelled.

That's not all.

Even the stage I had prepared for myself, Vyasia Castle, was between these ridiculous swordsmen.

The pillars in the castle's great hall, the spiral grand staircase, the thick walls, the ceiling separating the third and fourth floors, and the floor--everything was slashed by the primordial whirlpool wave, disregarding the distance and size.

With two jet-black eyes shaking like that unfathomable emptiness, the founder vortex wave chases after him.

As his proud castle was being slashed and slashed and slashed lightly, he had no choice but to flee with a pained expression on his face.

He continued to run and run and run, using everything he could to get upwards.

At the end of it all, I arrived at the throne room of Vyasia Castle.

The flags on the walls swayed in the wind that blew in through the windows. This castle, the last stronghold.

This is the last place for my planned duel.

In that sense, it is as planned.

There is ...... a look on my face that is only distorted.

I'm finally trapped in the back of the throne room - even in front of the throne, I am finally trapped.

That's where the Primordial Vortex Wave stopped wielding its sword. He seems to have some emotional attachment to this place, shrinks his sword and begins to look around.

This throne room may be the last place where the Founder Uzumi had planned to fight.

So quietly that you would think so, the Primordial Uzuma Wave looks at you, putting away its wariness.

I was irritated by his leeway, and I couldn't help but let what was in the bottom of my heart hit me.

Now, I'm going to take out the resentment that started it all in the first place.

''--Shinsei Uzumiamii!　Why!　Why do you have to fight yourself so hard!　Playing with your soul!　Do you want to beat yourself that much!　You have nothing to do with Vyssia!　You're not even from this world!　Why do you involve yourselves in this!

Hearing those words, the Primordial Vortex Wave replied without a pause, as if it had been waiting for him.

''Because ......?　Of course it's because you two siblings can't see it!　All of you, all of you, I can't see anything else!　So we can't leave it alone!　I can't leave it alone!

That's such a ...... thing to do. ......!

The immediate answer made me take a step back.

If I'm going to throw words at him, the founder Uzura Wave must have decided to answer with words alone.

He stopped, lowered the tip of his sword, and took a stance waiting for his next words.

From the way he looked at it, he was keenly aware that unlike himself, the founder Uzura Wave still had plenty of time to spare.

I've done what I can do.

It was the most advantageous field in the world for me.

I used both poison and traps.

I also got a great deal of support from Apostle-sama and Nosfi-sama.

This is the castle that blocked the past and future vision, the backbone of the story.

Even so, this overwhelming strength--!

He knew that the more he fought, the stronger he would be.

But this too would be ...... cowardly.

Now I feel like everything inside my heart is being seen through by the enemy.

In fact, there were many occasions in battle where I was moved before I could make a move.

In order to attack this man, I would have to bet everything on the moment.

You have to hold your breath in an instant - and yet he seems to be preventing that from happening with his sensing magic and future vision magic. To begin with, because of the invisibility and dimension shifting magic, he can't easily get into the pause for a special kill.

On top of that, the 'Sword Technique' has reached the same level as Rowen-sama's, and he absorbs the enemy's abilities (skills) as he fights, and if he is touched by that right arm, he will die instantly ......?

How do you want me to kill this .......

How am I supposed to fight this: .......

Yeah, it's a joke. Joke. He's kidding.

I'm kidding. ......--

This is the 'strong man'.

The next thing you know, you're going through anger and despair is filling your heart.

My heart is about to be broken. ......--

Id!　Remember what Titi said earlier!　Now you've seen your sister clearly with your eyes!　Did that look like someone manipulating you!

And the words released from the strong strikes the hearts of the weak and lays waste to them without question.

Just like the 'Lord' who once charmed all the people of the north - even this id.

'Titi doesn't need a country like Viisia!　He didn't want to be The Lord Who Rules!　The only thing I've always needed was you, my brother!

That's ......--

--No!

Don't get swallowed up!　Don't accept it!

The words of the progenitor vortex wave are the very knife that kills you.

If you admit it, ......--this time, 'I' will die!

I'm going to die!　If you don't want to die, talk back!

...... No, it can't be!　I've chosen the Lord who rules!　I swore an oath to save my country and the people of the North!　I announced in front of everyone that I would help them all!　I saw the beginning of it myself!　I saw it through from start to finish!

'No!　Titi didn't choose the country!　There's no such thing as a vii'icia!　He chose a boy from the unnamed ”demon” - Aide!　You were supposed to!　That's all it was!

'Don't talk like you know anything!　The Lord who rules vows to do everything in his noble will, in his strong and wise form, no matter what he puts his mind to.　I kept seeing myself behind it!

'That's just how he got strong because you were looking at him from behind!　That's what you expected me to do, and I've continued to do so!　How could you not notice that!　If you don't realize that it's an illusion created by your pretensions as a sister, no one else will ever realize it!

'No, it's not: ......!　The Lord of Lords is no such small vessel. ......!　It's a legend!　We've brought back that northern legend!　It's impossible that that invincible 'Lord' who is invincible, the 'ruling king' (Lord) was just looking good - it's impossible!

'It's possible!　He's weak!　He's a little vessel, a coward.　That's why that guy escaped a thousand years ago!　I would have left everything and run away from your expectations!　Don't conveniently forget that fact!

...... Ah, yes.

A thousand years ago, the ruling king (Lord) escaped with the primordial vortex wave.

It's something I tried not to think about.

It's something I've been trying to pretend I didn't see.

All the facts that I had turned away from were confronted again, and my mind was shaken.

'Well, that's because you were there!　If only you... if only you... if only you weren't you!　It wasn't supposed to end like that!　I, the Vizier, am the support of the Lord, and I'm sure I could have made peace with the world in the battle a thousand years ago!　I was one step closer to making my dream come true!

'You already realize it would have ended the same way without me!　You already know that dream crushed your own sister!　Id!

'Oh, it's fussy!　If you knew that, what would you say!

I know!　No!

I know exactly what's going on, so here we are!

”Yes, my sister is now the Lord who rules!　With great deeds, there must have been an impossible one or two!　What's wrong with that!　Because the 'Lord' loved this country more than anyone else!　The Lord Commander wanted to protect the country more than anyone else!　More than anyone else, the 'Lord' (Lord) strived to turn this country into a 'paradise'!

What's wrong with choosing what to watch because it's painful!

What's wrong with only seeing what you want to see!

What's wrong with being the 'Prime Minister'!

What's wrong with my sister being the Lord who rules!

”My sister definitely wanted a 'Lord' to rule!　Otherwise, we wouldn't have been able to fight that well!　I'm not going to go alone to a realm where no one can follow me!

'So!　It was your job to pull it back!　You, my brother!

Don't tell me now: ......!

Why are you saying this now and not then!

It's too late for everything!　It's been a thousand years!

After a hundred years, after a thousand years, here we are!

And yet!　I can't believe I came here and did everything wrong: ......!

'No, no!　My role was to be the 'Prime Minister' and follow behind as the same 'stealer of reason'!

After all this time, the Lord who rules...

I can't believe I've been in pain all these years.

I can't believe I've been pushing myself all these years.

I can't believe I've been asking for help for so long.

And I can't believe I've been so full of myself for so long that I couldn't see it: .......

Don't tell me that ......, don't tell me that ......!

Please, ......--!

”I am the 'Prime Minister's Id'!　”The one who steals the logic of the tree”!　Don't let anyone tell you it was wrong!　There's no way I'm going to admit such a thing!

He shouts that he is the 'Prime Minister'.

Clutching the heroic tale of ”The Lord” in his bosom, he shouts back desperately.

The five letters shining on the text of that heroic tale are ”Prime Minister's Idol”.

That's the only thing I'm proud of, and I've come this far.

However, I'm nearing my limit.

Even more than the fist fight with all the power of death earlier - this clash of words is too painful (...)

The id. ...... Even now, your sister is looking for her brother. She's been searching, wandering. ...... He's not looking for the Prime Minister's id. She's been searching for her brother Ayde for a long, long time .......

'Then all the battles in The Prime Minister's Id were in vain ......?　It wasn't good for anyone, you say ......?　Are you asking me to admit that: ......?　That all the efforts made for the ”Lord of the Lords” were not worth it. ...... That those hundred years had no meaning ....... You have to admit that ......!

Yeah. I think you'd be willing to let a hundred years go by for nothing. That's what I think.

-What?

Not just life and death, but even the soul and the meaning of life, the founder vortex wave answered his own question immediately.

Then he continued to tell himself in raptures, ”It's only a hundred years.

''It's only a hundred years. Your sister has suffered for a thousand years. ...... Even if you lose a hundred years, you don't lose everything. Only the most important thing remains .......

Are you suggesting that you will remain Lord Titty's brother: ......?

Yes.

'I can't. I can't go back to being a little brother now. ...... Sister Titty's brother was too helpless. He was too worthless. He was too helpless to be of any help to anyone, and whether he existed or not, he was still vulnerable ....... It was pathetic and shameful ......, and just remembering it was abominable ......!

I try to remember what little of the past remains, and I shout out in anger.

All I can remember is the abominable 'self'.

Ah, yes.

My brother Aide was a foolish child who dared to even remember.

He was so spoiled by his position as a younger brother that he couldn't help himself in any way.

...... Still that's fine.

At the end of the North, I was constantly shaking and leaving everything to my sister.

...... That's still okay too.

After that, I just kept dragging my feet behind my sister's back, and I kept getting in trouble.

I'm ...... still fine with that.

Not so, I think the thing I find most abhorrent is--.

--that day (...) I couldn't do anything (・・・・・・) that day (...) before my sister died and spit (・・・・・・・) on me (・・・・・・・), I couldn't do anything (・・・・・・).

...... Oh, that's it!

A pathetic child whose sister was dead and still depended on her!

Just to bring back that memory!

I can't wait to kill that brother or that kid named Aide--!

''Primordial Vortex Wave ......, that brother killed your sister ......?　A pathetic, weak and too stupid brother killed ....... That brother had no point in living....... No, just being alive was harmful ...... and that was 'Sister's Brother Id'!

I don't want to admit that.

I'd rather pretend it never happened.

That's not me.

That's not me. ......

But it was different when I was working as the 'Prime Minister' for the 'Lord of the Dominion' ....... It is the only 'self' that can be recognized. The only thing that made me feel worthy and meaningful was myself as the 'Prime Minister'.

”That's why you're so obsessed with your 'Prime Minister' ......, isn't it?

Because I was able to help!　It was worth it!　It made sense!　...... That made me happy!　I didn't know how to live my life, but as long as I put myself out there working for the 'King Who Rules' (Lord), that's how I felt I was living!

'So you want Titi to be 'The Lord' forever!　You're gonna do that until the day you die!　You're going to keep doing this, even after you're dead!　Are you going to let him alone carry all this on his shoulders any longer?

Oh, shut up!　Shut up, Cuirinha!　When the road isn't the road!　Then what will happen to you!

After being continuously denied by the first ancestor vortex wave, he finally cursed the other party with his own foul mouth.

When was the last time I was this distraught: .......

A very long time ago - the memories of being denied, denied, denied, denied, and wandering around the painful world keep coming back to my mind - my heart is wild everywhere.

'Don't use my sister for self-gratification!　What you're doing is not good for Titi!　It's not a dedication or anything!

'Then what do I do?　I'm afraid of myself!　Once you're no longer the Prime Minister Id, you're no longer yourself!　I wouldn't know what to do with myself!　You'll lose your value!　You'll lose your name!　I'm going back (・・・・・・) to those days of being less than a slave (・・・・・・・・・) (・・・・・・)!　The days of endlessly repeating who I am are coming back!　It's time to ask yourself what you're living for!　I don't like it!　I don't want to do just that, so I have to make my sister into a 'ruling king (Lord)'!

”Is that your deepest, most sincere feeling?

--Oh, really?

What did you just say to yourself?

Was it your true intention to use your sister to escape your fears?

I'd like to think not ...... but I can't deny that I had that dim feeling somewhere in my mind.

Oh, how stupid I am.

How ugly, how weak.

At the end, the weakest guardian is approaching its limits.

Hence, it was a defensive instinct, like a survival instinct.

In order to survive, I shouted.

'Aikawa, Uzurinami-iiiiii!　You're annoying!　More than that, don't talk to me about your high and mighty ways, aaahhhhhh!

As my heart breaks, I can feel my body, which was being maintained by my mental power, disintegrating.

My body, which I had held together with the trees of my own volition, is being eroded by the trees.

The white bones dissolve and the core of the tree passes through the body instead. The tree leaves its own control, breaking through flesh and skin and protruding from every part of the body.

The sensitive nerves of man - the sensitive nerves of the plant - are turned into the insensitive nerves of the plant, and at the same time, the muscles become vegetative. Even the sensory organs are transformed, and you can see the color of the eyes turn white.

Then, the body assimilates with the last of the divine tree's armor that it wore. From the armor, branches grow up and separate, bearing bright green leaves.

This is a 'half corpse (half monster) transformation' unique to guardians (guardians).

In other words, I have been killed half of the time with just a word.

And in the throne room of this Vyasia Castle, the weak 'Tree Man (Doriad) Demon' who was not a 'Vizier', not an id - not even that name, will return.

''Yes, that's right!　I'm a weak, scared, miserable, cowardly man!　So I was scared to death of when I would lose sight of the light that is The King Who Rules (The Lord)!　Before I became ”The One Who Stole Reason”, I was laughed at by everyone in the castle!　I've been accused of being a favored coward because I'm the brother of the Lord who rules!　And it was true!　I'm useless as a military and civilian officer.　I never had the talent to repel those insults!　You have no idea what you're capable of!　To you, my friend, for your talent!　Everyone loves you!　You have no idea how weak people feel.　I can't bear to be identified!

That 'demon' child curses and screams at the inequality of the world.

'I had no talents!　There was nothing attractive about it!　He didn't even have a strong heart!　Hence, I was alone, in the dark, on a daily basis!　Every day I'm scared to death to live!　For a talentless one to walk the world is like walking without a light on a dark cliff!　That's why I was so desperate not to lose sight of the light that is 'The King Who Rules (Lord)'!

'Are you sure?　Was it really the Lord who ruled that you felt the light?　I thought you had to be the Prime Minister because you wanted to be for your sister, not for the sake of the fairy tale ”Lord who rules”!　Idiot, as long as your sister is around, you're still you!　You've lost all the memories of your brotherhood and the price you paid for being the thief!　You have a sister!　The only sister in the world who needs her brother, you!

Shut up, shut up, shut up!　Shut up, Cuirinho!　We don't want to mislead ourselves any more--!

You don't have to tell me!

It's only that the 'price' of being 'the one who steals the reason' is that the memories of the happy sister and brother are completely missing!

But it's still there!

For some reason, the memories are still there!

Just that pathetic little brother!

It's stuck in my brain, stuck in my brain forever!

The only thing I can clearly remember is my own shameful appearance of confusion in front of my spiteful sister!

Every day for a hundred years!　Every day, every time I fall asleep, I'm reminded of that, every time I close my eyes!

Every time things happen, the essence of my dying will haunt me for the rest of my life!

Then we'll just have to pretend it never happened for the rest of our lives!

You'll have to kill yourself, your ”brother”!

The only thing I can trust anymore is The Prime Minister!　The only way for 'me' to have value and meaning and live in this dark world is the 'Vizier' of the 'Governing King (Lord)'!

That's the only strong 'me' (id)!

Shut up, you idiot!　I told you I can't watch!　You and Titi are the only two brothers in the world!　I don't have any other family!　If you lose it, it's not coming back!　So don't you ever leave me alone again!　The two of you, you poor thing, both of you--!

That was the end of the argument--

-- they were screaming at each other and moving at the same time.

I am no longer thinking of myself.

You don't think about the spacing of the enemy's swords or anything else, you just think about winning the enemy in front of you and run. In the first place, even if you think hard, it doesn't add up to anything. In that case, the only thing left to do is to push straight ahead and fight beyond the limits.

As I run, I finish preparing myself to unleash all my magic power.

The founder vortex wave responds to it with a sword.

The sword paid off its arms at a distance that should have been impossible to reach, and the sword ripped open the belly of this ”half-mortal” body, puncturing its lungs and piercing both of its legs.

Still, I didn't mind and pushed forward.

It was an injury that would have stopped a sane person, but I was never intimidated.

I'm going to win!　I've beaten you and now I'm going to be the real 'Prime Minister'!　I have to be!　By any means necessary!

It's my life!

I'm going to 'chant' with my whole life.

' - 'I am the only one, the soul of a nameless child (Tamashii)' -!

Concentrate all the magic in these two hands.

Put your foot down and transfer the magic to the ground.

And run!　Run through--!

-- ”-- 'The lost child was led by the world (Anata) and ran to the end of the backlight' --!

Watch me, Vortex Wave.

I'll burn it, drop it, crush it and destroy it like my home.

”...the magic of the Lost V.Iythia!

The magic that will end this whole thing--!