165 164. Debate.txt (1/2)

Hyli stands in the path to go.

But her complexion is pale and her body is wobbly. I could tell from just one glance that she wasn't feeling well.

Even so, Heili is still staring at me, his body filled with the will to fight.

She has two swords at her waist and wears many magical tools, including rings. The clothes he wears have also been replaced with superior clothing, and he wears armor that does not interfere with his body's movements, yet provides solid protection.

It appears to be in perfect condition, unlike the last time we had an encounter.

Heili says from his horse.

''I've been waiting for you ....... I won't let you go beyond this point, boy.''

I declare that it is a roadblock.

From the look of it, I could tell that Heili was serious. But I also knew it was her kindness.

Heili retains her wariness, but speaks to me with concern.

''If we jump into the place where those three are now, there's no way to predict what will happen. At least do it after Dr. Aydo leaves--''

I shake my head, unable to accept the suggestion.

'--I can't do that. I have to go as soon as possible. I have business with Palinclone, but my main goal is the Apostle Sith. If we don't go before that guy escapes, we won't be able to save our friends.

Not a second can be wasted.

For example, it's possible that the more time that passes, the more time that goes by, the more chance there is that Dia's personality will be eroded by the Apostle Sith.

'Still, you must not go there. The boy shouldn't mix in there. If he goes--he won't be able to return (・・・・・・).

I don't know about that. Well, I have to help Dear. Please get out of my way, Heili. I don't want to take anything away from Dia anymore, so ......--

Out loud, I realize. It's a compulsive notion that's driving me.

It's the guilt I feel for Dia.

Once, I lured Dia into the labyrinth and took her dreams and her arms away from her.

Now, I'm about to take away even everything that's left.

That's why I'm in such a hurry.

I feel so strongly about it that I don't even know what I'm feeling.

I don't want to repeat (・・・・・・・・), - many times (...).

'As you can see, I'm running out of room ....... I'm getting broken (・・・・・・・・) ......

Looking at me trembling, Heili said pityingly.

Both of her eyes were reflecting me like a mirror.

She, like me, has the ability to observe through dimensional magic. That all-seeing eye is catching me.

As if she understands the whole situation, Heili admonishes me.

'Because of Ayd-sensei's magic, Apostle-sama has been swallowed up by memories ....... No longer is that a girl named Dia, but an apostle named Sith. And yet you say you will help her?

...... We don't know that yet!　That's where Deere is!　You can't give up until you've done what you can do!

I answer out loud without having to think about it.

Hailey's face twisted in the face of that thoughtless immediate answer.

'Boy, calm down and listen to me. If you go, you will definitely lose yourself as well as the Apostle-sama. You already know that, don't you?　You are suffering from the same magic and have the same symptoms as the girl named Dia. It's ...... the same. The boy's body was almost invaded as well - no, it must have been pretty much after it was already invaded.

Those words described my situation exactly.

So I couldn't answer immediately this time.

It wasn't long after I left Lauravia that I felt the anomaly.

I had survived the battle with Rowen and gained new powers.

However, I could feel that power pressing down on me in a dim way. The skills 'Parallel Thinking', 'Sensitivity', ?? Dimensional Magic, I couldn't handle all the power, on the contrary, I was constantly strangling myself.

The only thing I could think of was that I was being wielded by an unworthy power. It was as if I was borrowing not my power, but the power of someone much greater.

It wasn't until my level and skills increased that I became convinced.

The stronger I became, the more inexplicable my anxiety became. I felt like 'experience' wasn't a grating thing, but something more 'bad' was accumulating in my body.

And then I began to dream.

A memory I can't remember.

Only once did I recall a memory similar to it.

That was when I received Rowen's ”Flash of the Ghost (Von a Wraith)”. At that time, I didn't have the skill to catch that move. But I was able to prevent it from happening with my memory and experience, which I don't remember. Now I know what that meant.

When I crossed a certain limit (・・・・), the memories of The Masked Man were flowing into me.

From the tendency, the more levels and statuses go beyond the human limit - 20 levels - the more intense the influx is, I guess.

And every time I have a dream, new memories fill me up. They are filling my memory, filling my emotions, filling my body.

Heili is worried about me ceasing to be me.

Yes, she's worried about me: .......

But.

I know that.

I shake my head, saying it's unnecessary nosiness.

Then he looks straight back at Hailey.

'I still (・・・・・・) don't mind (・・・・)'

In other words, in the end, I don't mind either the current Uzumami or the old Uzumami.

It's a good thing that there is a replacement for the current Uzumami, even if the current Uzumami is destroyed.

It's a good thing that you're able to have a good idea of what you're looking for.

It's a good thing that you're not going to have to worry about the fact that you're not going to have to worry about it. It's a good thing that you know that.

Either way, (・・・・・・) it's not much different.

''......?　No, you mustn't go. The boy is underestimating.

Hailey was upset by the answer.

Then she spoke up and told him how horrible it was.

'Imagine, you know, the mixing of two memories?

I know. That's what I'm doing now.

That's a different degree. The boy is still young (...), but it's a different story from here on out. The feeling of two people living in one body, that's not something one can bear.

...... I'm sure it's going to get more painful from now on. But you don't know that until you try.

I'm telling you this because I tried and I couldn't stand it!

Heili's voice finally breaks out in response to my thoughtless response.

The calm Heili was no longer there.

And then she puts into words the pain that will come to me in the future.

'I can't bear it!　I'm so anxious and insecure!　It's so painful that I want to die!

Miss Hein's similar grace is lost.

There was a wounded girl there, though her body was unharmed.

The desperation of the situation makes me realize that this is the pain that will come to me, but it is also the pain that Heili has now.

It's the pain I'm going to have to deal with, but it's also the pain that Heili has now.

The memories in my head are mixing up, but they don't mix up at all, they are repulsive and painful, and I can't stand it!

I open my mouth to the limit and scream so hard my saliva flies.

I can see all of the plating that Hailey had been holding on to come off. Her calm pose is all taut, and I can see that the real Hailey didn't have this much time to spare.

I continue to listen silently to Hailey's words as she changes into a leopard.

'That's what I mean when I say memories get mixed up!　There are so many of you in my head that I can't believe that any of them are me!　Your body is here, but you have no idea who you are or where you are!　There can't be two people living in one body!　It's hard to take a breath!　My unsteady mind is about to fall apart!　I'm afraid that this spliced body is now going to limp and collapse too!　Everything is so fragile and fragile, I'm almost overwhelmed with anxiety!

The streaks in his throat were floating out and his veins were about to break at any moment.

I looked at it and I thought, ”Oh, she's the same way.

I don't even know if I'll live or die properly!　It's painful and 'she (I)' tells 'me' that she wants to feel better soon!　I want to make ”her (me)” feel better as soon as possible!　So 'I' was always looking for a place to die!

It was no longer shaped as a conversation.

It was all in the first person, and I couldn't understand who was saying what to whom.

But I did understand, because it's the same for me. --But I know because it's the same for me.

There are different kinds of personalities and memories mixed together in Hailey now. The 'I' and 'she (I)' turned out to be someone different.

It's only a part of the story, but I can feel the anguish of that agony.

And I also feel the tenderness of not wanting anyone else to experience that pain. Hailey is exposing everything about herself in an effort to convince me.

She's brave enough to express her feelings, even if it looks ridiculous.

'Is that why you were so desperate, Hailey?

Yes. ......

'...... No, can we call her Hailey in the first place?　Is Heili here right, Heili?

I don't know if it's right to call her Hailey now, just as I can't call the current Sith Dia, so I check it out.

'We're calling us mixed up, we're calling her 'Hailey', so please keep it that way. In my case, both the material (source) child and the knight Hein have given their bodies to each other, so ......