161 160. Speculation.txt (2/2)

Perhaps it's everything.

All of this is the key to awakening my memories.

My deep psyche is as intricate as a labyrinth, but I feel as if everything is prepared to invite me to the deepest part of it.

However, there is still a long way to go beyond the dream. The deepest part is far away.

And then the four of us will reach the ”North” and meet.

The girl who became the ”Lord”.

The two men who support the girl - Aide and the other one.

The journey of the dream continues despite the distortion.

But the distortion has reached its peak, and the images are almost like a sandstorm on TV.

I can see the masked man talking about ”The King Who Rules (Lord)”, but I can't recognize the girl's face or the content of her conversation.

In order to see the memory any more clearly, I need to get closer to this masked man.

In other words, he'd have to raise the bar even higher.

If I don't, I know I'm not going to be shown the rest of the way.

But against that prompting, I didn't need to see it anymore.

I think it's because I already have a dim understanding of what is waiting for me at the end of this journey of memory.

Perhaps when that journey is over, the masked man despairs.

He will be embittered with the Apostle Sith and become an enemy to be killed.

He will be betrayed by the saint Tiara, and he will have no friends to trust.

The guilt over Mary will cease, he will not trust anything of Las Tiara, and events will occur that will make him hate Diah so much that he can't stand it.

I already know that.

So, I don't want to see this dream end ......, I don't want to see--

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--I wake up.

I pop the cloth that was covering me and sit up, exhaling heavily.

The violent palpitations don't stop. My body is wet with sweat and I feel sick.

'Dream now: ......'

Unlike before, I clearly remembered the dream I had just before.

But I shook my head at my own words.

''No,'' I said. No, it wasn't a dream. It's too clear: ....... It's a memory .......

He admits it, his face contorted.

Then I begin to consider the memory.

Of course, I know this is not the time to do that. Instead, I should first get clear on where we are. We should find out what happened to us after we fought the Ides.

But I can't do that anymore.

The value of the ”Wisdom” status that has risen is not going to let go of that memory.

Once it began to spin, it was impossible to stop the parallelism.

I can't stop the parallelism that has begun to revolve around it, sparing myself the power to deploy dimensions and turning my full attention to parallelism.

I knew it was ....... I knew it, or was it ......?

I have to admit it now.

I can't say that things will always be the same either way.

'I was there a thousand years ago ......?　I was summoned to another world not just a few weeks ago, but much, much further in the past: ......?

I have to admit that this is a possibility.

You mean that I was in the labyrinth that day because I was 'recalled converged' (dropped) from a thousand years ago ......?

I get the answer and I stare at my two palms, trembling.

I can't believe it's really my own.

On the contrary, they look like the hands of a 'monster'.

”Am I a monster that has been 'recalled' (dropped) into the labyrinth, just like the other guardians (guardians)?

The skills I had from the beginning, ”Dimensional Magic”, ”Freezing Magic” and ”Swordsmanship”.

High qualities and status. And the fact that I suddenly appeared in the labyrinth.

The answer to this question is the possibility that I am a guardian.

If I'm a guardian, that would explain the skills I had when I came to the other world.

I'm not going to be able to get any more information on this.

I'm not sure if I'm the one who steals the reason of ice or the one who steals the reason of water, since the freezing magic is an inherent skill and the dimensional magic is an acquired skill. The magic I wove out is also more of a snow and winter image. That's why Eid called me 'the one that steals the reason of water' ......?

Not long ago, Rowen said he was called in with a force that matched the 30 layers. He blurted out that it was about 30% of the original.

In other words, I was called to the first tier, so I was level 1 to match the first tier: ......?

That's not all.

The reason why Aikawa Uzumi is so privileged.

There are many systems such as ”Watching”, ”Belongings” and ”Display”.

Probably, it was Aikawa Uzumi who developed them. In the same way that he was happily creating the ”magic power conversion (level up)” and ”conversion results (status)” in his dreams, that masked man must have developed it.

And even that ”Labyrinth” was created by Aikawa Uzumi.

That's why Rowen responds to the name Kanami: ......

The person who came up when I was talking to Rowen - the gentle 'someone' who created the labyrinth.

It's most likely to be me too. I can't confirm it, but from Rowen's demeanor, that possibility is high.

It hurts that I didn't pursue the trivial question because I thought I was with my sister at the time. I'll never get confirmation again.

'But if that's the case, how is it that you don't remember me: ......?

I still can't stop thinking.

Like a flood with a dam, I can't stop asking myself and answering myself.

'No, come to think of it, Arti also seemed to have a fuzzy memory ....... Rowen also said, 'I finally remembered. ...... Do 'recall converged' (dropped) creatures have fuzzy memories?

But it's unnatural that I'm the only one who has none at all.

If I built the labyrinth, placed the guardians, and sent myself a thousand years later - then why am I the only one who doesn't remember a shred of what happened a thousand years ago?

Could it be that I am not the only one who is not 're-born' or 'summoned'?

What's more important than 'memory' is 'blood' and 'soul'. That's what I heard from Rustyala and Maria.

That's why I, a thousand years ago, also prioritized the preservation of the 'blood' and 'soul' rather than the 'memory'. Then that would explain the lack of memory.

--No, no.

No, no, this situation is probably the result of prioritizing something more important. Just like I am now, I'm sure they prioritized ”memory” over Aikawa Uzumi's ”blood” and ”soul”.

However, there may have been ”something” that should have taken precedence over that precious, precious ”memory” a thousand years ago.

For that ”something”...

Have I lost my entire memory?

And I can predict that 'something'.

His sister, Aikawa Yotaki. I can't think of anything else. If that's the case, I can understand why you would sacrifice everything.

''But you don't have Yotaki: ......!　He's not here!　I'm so desperate because I'm not there, dammit ......!

Then does that mean that the 'something' that took precedence over everything else wasn't Yotaki?　No, that's just not possible. It can't be as ”Aikawa Uzumi”.

If that's the case, does that mean that Aikawa Yotaki lived his life a thousand years ago, so he's gone?

My sister was cured of her illness, became happy, and died a thousand years ago, a natural life. Have I already earned my reward?

I understand that.

I understand that, but...

But then, I don't know why she resents her collaborators, Apostle Sith and Saint Tiara. If their cooperation made my sister happy, it would be strange if I wasn't grateful for their help.

In other words, are you saying that Aide's words earlier were a lie? It's a lie to say that those emotions are 'just the way they are', and that he was still subjected to a special mental manipulation.

But with the power of 'sensitivity' and 'dimension', I know that guy didn't lie.

I don't think he's lying, but - in the end, I'm not sure about that either. There's no guarantee that the insight of ”sensitivity” and ”dimension” will never overlook a lie. For example, if Eid himself is mistaken, I'll assume wrong information to be true.

'd*mn it ......!'

So I didn't want to think about it.

I'm not sure about any of these things. I see only contradictions.

In the end, I can guess, but I can't get any certainty.

Not yet.

Not enough.

The pieces of information just don't fit together.

I knew we couldn't be sure of anything in the meantime. We've seen it all before.

Maybe it's all a blessing in disguise. The scene I saw in my dream was all haphazard, the guardians who knew me were mistaken, and the ”Aikawa Uzumi” character I felt in the labyrinth was just my imagination. Such a possibility is possible.

You can't rely on 'dream memories' or 'information from people's biographies' if you think about it rationally and practically.

''So we have to go to the deepest part of the labyrinth anyway: ......!　I need to get back to it: ......!　I have to go and see the original world to see if it really was 'Yangtaki left behind'!　With that confirmation, it finally becomes true that there was a Yangtaki a thousand years ago: ......!

The only way for me to feel safe now is to find Yangtaki with my current eyes.

Because I knew that, I shook off all doubts and worked hard to explore the labyrinth.

It's not just a matter of time before I get to the deepest part of the labyrinth, it's a matter of necessity.

'Either way, it's the same ......!　It's not going to change: ......!

I grip the fabric of the bed so tightly that it rips open and I make a sound as if I'm going to squeeze it out.

Then I get off the bed, moving my body with no effort.

My feet on the floor wobble.

If my mind is unstable, then my body is unstable.

I'm falling apart all over.

I could feel that various balances were collapsing. It's true that we may be starting to enter a state of affairs that is close to what we would call 'collapse'. I remember Heili's advice and mock myself.

So I finally regain my composure and begin to pick up information about my surroundings.

First, I move my head to get a better view of my surroundings.

It's a lonely little room that isn't flattering. From the dust collecting in the corners of the room, it seems likely that it is a room in Legacy's villa.

The 'Treasured Sword of the Aleis Family, Lowen' was propped up on the bed. It seems that someone had retrieved it after the earlier battle.

While placing the sword in my 'belongings', I spread out the 'Dimension' in earnest.