zChapter 1068 - An Emperor Who Does Not Want To Become A Eunuch Is Not a Good Emperor (2/2)

Too many questions circled in the Emperor’s mind, he sat up from the mattress but was still in a daze, forgetting to put on his clothes, continuously thinking about the ridiculous things he did during these days over and over in his mind.

The more he thought, the more he panicked, the more he thought, the sadder he felt, especially the favours he bestowed on Imperial Concubine Yuan Gui during those nights again and again, causing him to feel that he was especially disgusting and filthy. He rubbed his own hands, then rubbed his own body subconsciously, as if he wanted to rub off a layer of his skin, but even if he did that, that feeling of filthiness did not go away, the perfumed scent from Imperial Concubine Yuan Gui was still wafting around this bed and he was unable to avoid it.

The Emperor was a little frantic, a few months have already passed, him being this ridiculous, with Yun Pianpian being that smart, it was impossible for her not to know. What should he do now? Did he still have a way out of this?

The old Emperor slumped onto the bed, feeling troubled, weeping bitterly, feeling fear, hatred and helplessness. He caused the imperial harem to become like this, how could he face his Pianpian in the future? The two of them had such great developments, he could enter the Winter Moon Palace now, but unexpectedly, he suddenly became muddled, and personally destroyed the hopes he built up with much effort for over more than twenty years. He favoured Imperial Concubine Yuan Gui again and let his Pianpian down. With his Pianpian ignoring him again, what was the point of him living on?

The Emperor’s mind was messed up and thought of many methods in an instant, denying all of them in the end. There were no methods to cleanse his sins, no methods to make his filthy body pure again. He looked down, that place where men were proud of, now it looked so dirty, an eyesore, and…… unnecessary.

The Emperor suddenly overreacted, he felt that he was really pushed into a corner, this body was so filthy that he felt disgusted, he scorned himself, what was the point of keeping it?

He got off his bed and ran to the wall, a treasured blade was hung there, he used it on the battlefield to kill his enemies when he was young. For so many years, that Xiao Yuan Zhi would personally wipe it, it was shiny and still sharp!

The Emperor pulled the sword off the wall, once the sword was pulled out of its sheath, without any hesitation, he stabbed towards his lower body with great force.

With this attack, he really used a great deal of determination, he did not even leave any bit, seeing his ‘lifeblood’ get cut off cleanly with one strike, falling on the floor with a ‘plunk’, at the same time, the blood at his lower body started to spurt out, dyeing the floor very quickly.

The Emperor felt a little dizzy and sat down in that pool of blood, seeing the “brother” which had accompanied him for most of his life, his expression was that of rejection.

“All of this mess was caused by you!” He stared at that thing and mumbled to himself, “Why were you unable to control yourself? Why can’t you clearly discern who you’re facing? You’re too dirty, We have to abandon you, it was Us who let you down, don’t blame Us. Die without worry! We will accompany you one day, and that day…… might be soon!”

As the old Emperor spoke, he felt wave after wave of dizziness, he looked for a desk leg and leaned against it, watching the main gate of Zhao He Hall, it seemed like someone had ran in and was approaching. Finally, a sad and shrill shout was heard, it was familiar, it was his Xiao Yuan Zhi, currently he was shouting: “Your Majesty! Your Majesty!”

Zhang Yuan flew into the room and completely ignored the snakes which were still on the floor, and even rushed in front of the Emperor while stepping on piles of snakes along the way. Seeing that blood covered floor, and the sword the Emperor was still holding in his hand, and that thing which had fallen on the floor which was familiar yet foreign to him, he suddenly understood everything, he knelt in front of the Emperor, crying while speaking: “Your Majesty! Amends can still be made if mistakes were committed, cutting that thing off, it won’t grow back! Your Majesty! How can you do this? Are you crazy?”

It had been a few months, Zhang Yuan’s feelings were bottled up and there was no way to release them, he cried every night while feeling aggrieved, hoping everyday that the Emperor would wake up and the days from before could return.

And today, finally someone barged into Jing Ci Palace and frantically said that the Emperor wanted to see him, and unexpectedly, when the two of them met again, this old Emperor actually did such a stupid thing. This…… alright! An Emperor who did not want to become a eunuch was not a good Emperor? From now on, the Emperor was finally the same as him.

Seeing this scene, the Empress who came after Zhang Yuan also got a huge shock, but the good thing was that she was level-headed in comparison and her mind came up with a countermeasure quickly. She commanded loudly: “Someone! Send a decree from This One, declare that Princess Yu Feng Yuheng and ex-imperial physician Yao Xian are to enter the imperial palace immediately!”