Chapter 195 (1/2)

There is no light on the terrace, but through the thin layer of light from the room, you can see the figure clearly. Gu nianbin stands quietly, with a tall figure standing in front of the window, like a tall tree. He put one hand in his trousers pocket and smoked a cigarette in the other. From the place where Du Xiaoxian stood, he could only see a little side of him. His lips were tightly closed, and the curve of his chin was a little hard, as if he were angry or sad.

Du Xiaoxian suddenly heart such as thorns, quietly back to the hall, but at a loss, do not know how to do? She didn't even know what was wrong with her? Why eavesdrop on his phone.

That day, when she came back from Jinxiu department store, Gu nianbin had a frank talk with her in the office. She hoped that she would not mind Xia Xiaowan, let alone think nonsense. She also said that Xia Xiaowan was actually very poor and that they should understand her. She listens silently, nods silently, but the short messages on Xia Xiaowan's mobile phone flash in her mind.

She is not a fanciful person, and even doesn't like complicated emotions. She always chooses to give up whenever there are problems that she can't think clearly. But this time she couldn't, Gu nianbin told her not to think, she didn't want to think, but there was no way, she could not.

When she was sitting on the kitchen table, her mobile phone was on the kitchen table, but she was not listening to her cell phone.

When Gu nianbin heard the voice, he took a glance out of the room, pressed it off, and went into the kitchen again. He was warming her milk. Because she was not in a good mood recently, Gu nianbin thought that she should drink some milk before going to bed. So I warm a glass of bedtime milk every night.

Gu nianbin came out of the kitchen with milk and put his mobile phone into his pants pocket. Just as the milk was delivered to her hand, the mobile phone rang again. Gu nianbin dropped a sentence: ”drink it while it's hot.” He went to the terrace to listen to the phone.

Her first instinct was that Xia Xiaowan had come to the phone. Gu nianbin didn't answer the phone in front of her, for fear that she would hear it, but she was afraid that Xia Xiaowan had something to do. So he had to answer the second call.

She did not drink milk, quietly went to the door, Gu nianbin's voice is not big, but she can hear every word very clearly.

He said, ”of course, as before, don't you believe me?”

Only such a sentence, let her feel that something in her heart suddenly collapsed, still the same as before, he said it was the same as before! But how can it be the same? With her, how can she be the same as before?

In the past, she only wanted to be a Invisible Woman by Gu nianbin's side, but now, she doesn't want to, because it's very painful. As long as she wants to share Gu nianbin's love with another woman, she can't breathe.

Du Xiaoxian stood in the middle of the room, stupefied for a moment, and then picked up the glass of milk. The milk was cold, and it stuck in her throat like a paste. It was disgusting. But she slowly, endure that disgusting feeling, one mouthful of all swallow.

Gu nianbin is still on the terrace, so he must be in pain. Du Xiaoxian sighed, took the cup to the kitchen, washed it off, put it back on the cup rack, and quietly went to the room to sleep. As long as you sleep and wake up in the morning, it will be another wonderful day.

She lay in bed and forced herself to sleep, but the more so, the more she couldn't sleep. She had no choice but to open her eyes and look at the ceiling. The night after reading the text message, she thought that she might as well quit and succeed Gu nianbin and Du Xiaoxian. The pain of one person is better than that of three people. She has always been a willing person, but it is more difficult than she imagined to give up her feelings. As long as she thinks of leaving Gu nianbin, she will be so heartbroken that she can't love her life. She can't give up, so she has to drag it down day by day.

However, procrastination is not the way. No matter how she muddles along, it finally comes to that day. Gu nianbin comes back from outside. She stands in the porch to take his slippers. Gu nianbin stands still, looking helplessly and pitifully at her: ”Xiaoxian, I'm sorry, we can't be together.”

Her brain is blank, staring at him, as if Gu nianbin is a stranger. He said, never separate from her, never drive her away! But he didn't do it. Maybe he did his best, otherwise he would not be so tired, so haggard, and so pitifully looking at her.

Her heart like glass suddenly split, all into pieces, she felt that the whole person seems to be broken, in the wind a little bit off, she just strange, the windows are closed, where the wind?

He sighed softly, took a deep look at her, and then turned away.

And she collapsed on the ground, looking at the slowly closed door, tearing heart and lung howling

”Xian'er, xian'er, wake up,” the vague voice gradually became clear. Du Xiaoxian opened his eyes, and in the dark, he looked at her anxiously, ”what's the matter with you? Have you had a nightmare again

Fortunately, she was stunned by her voice!

Gu nianbin wiped her forehead and said, ”what did you dream of? I'll get a towel and wipe it for you

”Don't go,” she said in his arms. ”Don't leave me.”Gu nianbin felt a palpitation in his heart and hugged her tightly. He said in a warm voice, ”I don't go. Tell me, what did you dream of?”

Du Xiaoxian did not say anything, but buried his head in his arms and listened to his heartbeat. When she was upset, only his heartbeat calmed her.

”Do you remember...” Gu nianbin asked tentatively.

Not waiting for him to finish, Du Xiaoxian shook his head resolutely: ”I dreamed that a bear chased me, and I fell to the cliff.” She lied, she lied in front of him, and said so smoothly.

Gu nianbin didn't doubt at all. He kissed her hair lovingly, ”what's the matter with you recently? Is it because you want to open a painting exhibition? Is there pressure in your heart? ”

”Teacher he will be back tomorrow,” Du Xiaoxian said, ”but I haven't drawn a few. I don't know what to draw.”

”It doesn't matter. Take your time. If you don't want to paint, you can have a rest for two days,” Gu nianbin said. ”Or, when Shao Baiqing comes back, we can go out and play for two days.”

Du Xiaoxian shook his head: ”on such a cold day, I don't want to go out.”