Chapter 231 - Lin Zhou: Han Xiangs Letters (2) (1/2)
'Xiao Fang ah~ you don't need to feel guilty because of me. Killing myself is my own choice... I know that I'm only your substitute, but I don't mind. Without you, I won't be able to live blissfully for so long. You make me laugh and feel a genuine friendship in this life... I apologize if I had changed lately. There was a voice who kept telling me to hate you and I didn't even know why...'
Xiao Fang started to understand Han Xiang's struggle and realize the reason why she started to change, but she wondered why she killed herself when she was in a clear mind. Why didn't she say anything about her struggle? She didn't understand... Why didn't she try to chase her own happiness just like the Ce Fei ah~?
'Do you understand why I didn't blame you? I heard he said that I was an orphan... if I live my real life, there was also no guarantee that I could live happily... However, somehow... the poison that he gave me... made me do a lot of things that I didn't intend to... It seemed to amplify the little negative feelings that I have... Weird? I know. But, this is the only explanation that I can think of...'
Xiao Fang's tears trickled down into the paper and made it wet... However, it didn't bother Xiao Fang and she merely wiped her eyes so she could see clearly once again, then she continued reading the letter...
'I chose to kill myself because I want my freedom back... That's why I told you that this really didn't have anything to do with you... Remember how I told you that my wish is to become a buŧŧerfly? Now... I can become a buŧŧerfly that I wished for... That's why no need to blame yourself!”
How could Xiao Fang not cry when she read this part? She didn't even want to reincarnate as a human once more and choose to become a buŧŧerfly... It seemed like Heaven was listening to Han Xiang's prayers. A blue buŧŧerfly suddenly went inside the room through the window, flying softly in the air. It suddenly landed on Han Xiang's letter, seemingly wanted to chat with Xiao Fang.
This weird phenomenon made the others feel dumbfounded and they didn't dare to move or try to shoo the buŧŧerfly away. They didn't understand the meaning, but Xiao Fang understood perfectly clear.
Xiao Fang looked at the buŧŧerfly with a hopeful eyes and then touched it. The weird thing was... the buŧŧerfly didn't even try to fly away, it just obediently stayed there. It seemed like the buŧŧerfly was waiting for something.
Xiao Fang asked softly, ”Han Xiang, is that you? Is your wish coming true?”
The others were surprised by Xiao Fang's words and they wanted to ask whether she was okay or not, after all, she was talking to a buŧŧerfly ah~! She even treated the buŧŧerfly as Han Xiang... General Hu wanted to say something but Lin Jian shook his head, and General Hu held himself back. They knew that she was in grievance and she probably needed time to adjust her mental state.
Only Xiao Fang heard a soft whispering voice that sounded like Han Xiang's voice, ”This is me... I am happy now... so, be happy too...” It was so soft that Xiao Fang thought it was merely a part of imagination. However, after that, the blue buŧŧerfly flied toward her and stopped at her cheek. It looked like the buŧŧerfly was kissing her. After doing that, the buŧŧerfly flied away...
A simple gesture... but it meant a lot to Xiao Fang.
Even the others were astonished by the buŧŧerfly's unusual behavior and it made them start to believe that the buŧŧerfly was indeed Han Xiang. They were surprised once more when they noticed that Xiao Fang didn't look as sad as before, her red swollen eyes turned into the shape of crescent moon --- it seemed like she was smiling behind her veil. It made the others feel slightly relieved.