Chapter 84 - Group of rabbits. (1/2)

I left the guild while drawing the attention of all the adventurers inside the guild. Even Suzan made a surprised look when she saw me, but soon after, she got her usual face and attended to me usually.

I just needed those adventurers to eat me with their eyes, am I so beautiful that I attract everyone's attention? I need to be more careful with harassers from now on, and I don't want to have to kill someone in this city.

I already killed people, and I don't care much about it, at first I thought I would keep it in my mind, and the thoughts that I killed someone would be hammering in my mind, but it was very different from what I thought I didn't even care. I cared about the death of those people.

I feel like I shouldn't have killed the maid in such a brutal way, but I believe she deserved to die, and I don't care that she died, I'm living normally, in fact, I don't even remember it sometimes.

'Maybe I'm some psychopath?' Maybe I developed psychopathy, and I don't care about killing someone? I hope I don't go crazy in this world.

I'm afraid of losing my sanity and killing, which shouldn't my mind never gave a sign of something like that. Still, it is extraordinary that someone like me who had never seen a person die so generally in this situation.

I have to rethink the things I'm doing, and I have to start worrying more about a person's life. But I end up not crucial since all the people I killed are criminals or tried to kill me.

The only person I feel I shouldn't have killed was the guard of the castle, he was there following the queen's orders, and I killed him, I think that is over, and I shouldn't think about it too much.

If I keep thinking about all these crazy things, I won't be able to live in peace in this world, and if I can't live in peace, it will all be annoying just like my old life. I don't know if a world where I can cast spells would be annoying, but nothing is impossible.

I have to live my life in the best way possible for now, and I also need to pursue my goals, I cannot fail for anything. Whoever comes in front of me, I will kill, in my new concepts that I created, people who get in the way deserve to die.

It is not a very good concept, but it is a concept that I adhere to, an idea of killing stupid people who try to harm me.

It is not a concept that an average person would have in my old one, but in this life, I am not normal, I am strong, and I am a girl from a destroyed family, and the granddaughter of a disgusting woman, everything is justified.

If she hadn't sent that man after Emily and me, I never would have thought that, but I see that it is necessary.

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Again I met that guard at the gate, but this time he just bowed a little and then continued his work, I think it's a miracle that he didn't come to talk to me to disturb me.