Chapter 6 - #6 Hard decision (2/2)

It's really nice that you can put it on your tab because I had no money when I wanted to buy the tools. But I guess it doesn't work for everyone, that guy let me do it just because of my special emblem. Also, the prices here are pretty exaggerated and I have heard that poisons are probably the most expensive thing down here...So even though I made quite a lot of money from this first mission, I would still be hard-pressed to buy 1 quite potent poison. I have heard from the shopkeeper that there is also ”ZOO” exclusively built for breeding poisonous snakes and other poisonous animals. It's also said that they have new species that have yet to be discovered by the rest of the world.

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After I arrived home, my mother was surprised by how much money I made but she didn't get suspicious and instead she said that she is proud of me.

It's really hard to lie to her...I wonder what she would think of me if she knew what my ”job” entails. Maybe I should ask Raksaya if she can help me. They are the organization of ȧssassins...they should also know some brainwashing techniques.

I thought with a sad expression while eating my dinner and watching my mother's back as she was washing dishes.

---(Time skip: 1 year)---

I am already member of this organization for more than 1 and half-year.

The most straining training was probably the one with poisons but I was able to get through it by gritting my teeth. There were also times where I had to bit my lips or stab my leg just to feel other pain than the pain of being eaten from inside.

Arno also made a few pranks by giving me aphrodisiac, it was probably worse than the pain of being eaten from inside. There was also a time when Raksaya came into my training room while I was under their effect. I naturally stopped myself from jumping at her since she could slice me in half if I tried it but when she saw my eyes with the dėsɨrė to ravage her, she immediately glared at Arno who was watching everything from the corner.

He just scratched back of his head with a silly smile and immediately received a Raksaya's kick into his private parts. After seeing the sight of Arno's whining while fidgeting on the ground, made the effect of aphrodisiac almost disappear from me. Raksaya also noticed it so she seductively smiled at me and then slowly left the room while wiggling her round ȧss which made the suppressed effect of the drug appear once again. She left both of us fidgeting in the room, one from the pain and another from frustration.

At that time, I swore that one day I will kill Arno in his sleep.

I started learning how to use every weapon that was on the racks nearby training grounds because if I wanted to advance to Arno's rank, I need to have minimal knowledge of how to use every weapon available to me, be it even a pen. I was also given training in firearms but to be honest, I didn't like it even though I complained about it during my first mission, I liked throwing poisoned mini-daggers much more than loud firearms. Even with the special silencer, they were still louder than mini-daggers tearing through the air. Not to mention that 90 percent of people in higher ranks always used only weapons with a blade instead of firearms.

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”Leader, can I have a word with you?” I entered the Raksaya room after knocking 3 times and asked her when I saw her sitting at the table, doing some paperwork.

”Hm?” She raised her head and when she saw me she smiled.

”No need to be so formal with me, didn't I already told you this, Akashi?” She stood up from her seat and went in front of her table and sat on it while crossing her legs.

”I am sorry...Raksaya” It said with my half-opened eyes.

”Good. Now, you can tell me why you are here.” She nodded and said with a smile.

”I wanted to ask if you have some techniques to alter memories or completely get rid of certain memories.” I asked with a calm expression.

”?! You- Don't tell me you want to do that thing...” Even Raksaya's smiling face turned into a shocked one when she heard my words and she couldn't help but ask me in disbelief.

”Yes...I am almost 22 years old and my mother is already accustomed to me not being at home most of the time, however, whenever I am at home to visit her, she always hides her sadness from me. I can detect that she is extremely sad with the fact that I am no longer living with her. She is all alone and even though she is beautiful she never tried to find someone else after my father's death. I want to get rid of her memories of me and my father.” I said with a sad and forced smile.

”...Are you aware tha-” Her expression immediately changed to a cold one and the entire atmosphere around her changed when she released just a bit of her killing intent.

”Yes, I know that this is selfish of me. This is only my own selfish request. I have no right to decide this without my mother being aware of this. I don't want to risk anything, I can die anytime and if she somehow got to know it which she will if she won't see me for more than year...I don't even want to know what would she do.” I said while without any fear looking straight into her sharp eyes filled with overwhelming killing intent.

”*sigh* You have grown so quickly...You are the first one to calmly look into my eyes when I was in my angered state. Alright, I might be able to do something about this request of yours but...I will need to think about it first.” Raksaya reluctantly said and accepted to at least think about my request.

”You can go if that's all” She said with a tired tone and waved her hand showing me to leave.

”Yes, thank you for hearing me out, I wish you a good day, lead- Raksaya” I said and exited her office.

”Haaah” I inhaled a cold air and my back started to sweat when I recalled her killing intent.

She is something else...Thankfully, I was able to go through it.

---Inside the Raksaya's office---

'Do you really need to do this? You are sacrificing your own happiness for the happiness of your mother however I wonder if she would call it happiness if she knew the reason behind it.' Raksaya thought while looking with a sad expression at the door which Akashi used to leave her office.

”*sigh* Why does this always happen to the talented individuals?” She asked herself aloud with a tired tone.

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