Chapter 71 - it cant be forced (1/2)

The timekeeper closes his eyes as soon as he hears my answer. Li Jun's body falls toward me. I wrap my arms around him before we drop on the bed together. I roll him on the bed and take a deep breath.

This is the only quiet moment that I can have with him.

I try to memorize his face. It seems like I will never be this close to him again. I want to be selfish and stay here.

If he dies because of me again, can I live?

I destroyed the past and the future to let him lie a happy life. Even it's without me, he must live a happy life.

”I am sorry.” I rest my head on his ċhėst. I hear his heart beating. ”The timekeeper has given me a good deal. In this lifetime, you can't be mine. I have to let you go. You already have a son and a wife. There's no place for me even if I stay.”

He is breathing while I am not. I can't cry even if I want. My feelings are the only thing that makes me human. I kiss his lips for the last time.

Someone gasps behind me. ”What are you doing?”

I move away from Li Jun when I hear the scream.

Wu Qiuyue's eyes are widened. Her face is whitened. ”What are you doing?”

”I-I...” I don't know how to answer her. She becomes red with rage and pushes me hard. My back it the wall. The impact doesn't hurt me. I see the servants looking at me with disgust. I realize that I am dressed as a boy and I am caught kissing Li Jun who is a man. This won't look good in the eye of these people.

”How dare you taint him?” She slaps my face continuously with tears in her eyes.

”Stop.” Li Jun grabs her wrist suddenly. ”What are you doing?”

”He made a grave mistake.” Wu Qiuyue seems disgusted and hurt. She blinks out her tears. ”He kissed you.”

Li Jun looks at me strangely. We stare at each other quietly. I don't have anything to say or explain. I am a temporary person in his life. Today is the last day.

”Wu Qiuyue, return to your courtyard.”

She doesn't believe what she's hearing. ”What did you say?”

”Go back.” He stands between us. I can't see Wu Qiuyue anymore. I understand the reason behind the hurt in her voice. ”I need to talk to Xiao Wei alone.”

”What's there to talk about?” Wu Qiuyue asks him stubbornly. ”Do you also have strange and immoral feelings for him? Is that why you were sleeping on that bed with a man?”

”Wu Qiuyue!” Li Jun shouts at her. ”Have you lost your mind?”