Chapter 38 - Stay with me (2/2)

The 20 years old Kang Si An. The 27 years old Li Jun. The 30 years old Kang Si An. Their bodies might change with time. They have one thing in common. They make my heart flutter. Perhaps, it is because I know that I will fall for him in the future. I might be a fool. These feelings... I don't know where they come from

This Kang Si An doesn't even know that it was he who killed me that night.

”I will come with you,” I tell him. Can I blame him though? Kang Si An doesn't have control over it either. In a way, he's like me. Because I know my end is not here yet, I strangely feel safe with him.

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”Are you hungry?” Kang Si An asks her with a smile. She opens her mouth, but it is her stomach that growls loudly and answers him. She blushes and looks away.

Kang Si An chuckles. Kyuri is the same. He doesn't ask her anything anymore and orders her favorite meals. She eyes him curiously. Even if he is a decade older than her, her gaze makes him nervous.

”Kang Si An, why are you here?” She asks him after he is done ordering. ”Are you here for a shoot?”

Kang Si An freezes. What should he tell her? After a moment of thoughts, he decides to not hide.

”I am here because I found a clue about the timekeepers.” Kang Si An reveals it to her. ”Your family told me that your aunt disappeared because of timekeepers. I wanted to find them.”

”Are you doing this for a decade?” She gives him a sad smile. ”What would have happened if you found them? Get revenge?”

”Can I live in a world where your murderer might be living freely?” He can't hide the anger in his tone. ”You already knew that you were going to... Why didn't you tell me once? Why did you hide about your ability from me? Did you love me once?”

She doesn't answer him words. Her silence is the answer to his questions. He forgot that this Kyuri is not in love with him yet. He hasn't proposed to her yet. She didn't spend those days with him.

”Why would you not tell me?” She is still the same person who will make decisions to not tell him.

”I wouldn't want you to know because I wouldn't want you to seek revenge on my behalf.” Her voice is unwavering. ”I would want you to move on with your life after my death. I wouldn't tell you because I know that you can't save me. You and I are just chess pieces of something a lot bigger than this world with no control over our fates. The timekeepers are doing their jobs. They don't kill people just because they choose to. My murderer might not even know that he killed me.”

Kang Si An walks back and forth in the room. Her words make him furious. ”If you knew that you were going to die, why did you agree to marry me? Why did you make me fall in love with you? If you think that I was not even worthy to know, why did you come close to me?”