Chapter 86 - Her Wish (1/2)
Sometimes life puts you in a situation where all the bad things falls upon you. As if you were walking peacefully on the road and suddenly a truck hit you. A series of misfortunes, utter bad luck or something that would completely wreck you.
To be honest, I don't believe in such things like fate and destiny or the will of god. My life will go according to the actions I take. Then there's moments like this, where I'm at the mercy of all mighty god, praying and begging for my wife. Up until now, I never had the necessity to think about god or ask for his help. Maybe that's why he put me in a tough spot.
Stella was bursting into tears. Those eyes of hers, they have turned red and fluffy. No matter how much I tried to stop her crying, she kept on weeping.
” Honey, please don't cry. Don't waste your tears for someone like him.” I cupped her tiny face in my palms. The anger and disdain I had inside me, it was hard to keep it locked up.
” Why can't he agree with me? Just for once?” This time her nose began to flow. She was crying like a child without paying any attention to her surroundings.
”Since my childhood, I have loved my dad so much even after everything he did. I'm so tired of being the one who only listens. I'm tired of being kind. Why do I have to be the one who only consider? I have my own will and dreams.” More tears started to come out from her eyes.
I have noticed one thing that Stella gets emotional when it comes to her dad. That time when Stella confessed to me about the reason of her being an introvert and keeping herself away from any relationship, the reason turned out to be her father.
The story of her dad's affairs and how the man she trusted most ended up hurting her, again and again. Same with that incident when Stella went to a night club and her dad found out.
This damned old man! He is the one who did the most damages in her life. Yet she doesn't hate her dad and that's why she suffers the most probably. Maybe I should let her talk, listen to her unheard thoughts, those empty pleadings which never came out of her mouth.
” Shh. It's alright.” Her forehead rested on my hard ċhėst. Gently holding her in my arms, I began to pat her head to console her, to soothe her broken heart.
” I wish.... I wish that someday my dad would understand me and my feelings. When I was I kid, I always looked up to him. He was the first guy I ever loved. Now that I compare both of those times, the past seems like a dream only.
Why did he change? Was it because of my brother? Or was it for the money? There was a time when I felt that I was given less importance. I thought that since I'm a girl, I can't be much help to him. I can't take over the company. That's why he's spending more time with Neil in order to make him the ideal man.
Although not even for a once I blamed my little brother. On the contrary, he became the only person who truly understands me. Then that incident happened. I caught my dad with some other lady.
The dad I loved most, the person whom I believed, showed me a very unexpected sight. Since that day the distance between us only grew further.” I stayed quite and shaken by her hurtful confession. Because I want to hear her silent agony. How can a jolly girl like her spend her entire life running away from her happiness?
” B-because of him I kept myself in a cocoon, hiding myself from the world. I had this fear of people leaving me and betraying me. I don't wanna end up like my mom. It's better to be alone. At least you won't be thrown away or forgotten by someone.” As the sentence ended, she stopped talking. There was a long pause before she continued again.