Chapter 62 - Broken Smile (2/2)
” Stella don't cry. It was not your fault. Please! Don't cry for something so cheap.”
I tried to comfort her, controlling my temper. At this time I should try to heal her wounds rather than making them deeper. If I loose my temper and react like a manic, she will get scared.
” You're right. It's a really useless thing to cry for. I kept myself in a shell all these years, thinking that I will go through the same fate as my mom. At some point mom also found out about dad's affair but she still choose to stay with him. I don't know if they even love each other or not. I could never ask them.” Stella gulped the last spoon of ice cream. She was looking like a complete wreck. Seeing her like this, made me thought that I should have taken her home first.
” How can a person spend their whole life with one particular person? I always asked this question to myself and tried to find the answer. I believed that, one day I will be replaced by my lover. It made me feel scared of loving somebody romantically. The day when I married you, my mom said that no matter what happens I should hold onto my marriage. At that time, my heart just sunk deeper into the darkness of my fears. I was scared to be left alone by somebody just like my mother.” I was stunned to find this truth of her past. I had thought that perhaps she was naive enough to avoid love or romance. But the truth is far more bitter than my expectations.
Her fear and anxiety started because of her dad. I think she is angry with her dad for betraying her. Stella knew that her dad was a nice person who cares about his family. But her image of a good dad was torn apart when she caught her dad having an affair. It's a very reasonable outcome of the situation. On the other hand I was thankful to her dad for giving me his daughter. But that doesn't mean I will let him off the hook.
” Where?” I grabbed her hand then escorted her to my car. I drove us to a desolated area. You could say it's kind of a remote place, at the edge of the city. There is no people around here. An empty place, right up in the hill. I opened the car's door for her and she got out. Stella was looking at me in confusion wondering where the hell and why the hell I took her here.
” No one is here. You can say whatever you want. Scream your heart out.” With a gentle smile I told her to let go off her anger. No one will come here to judge her. She walked at the end of the hill, just few miter away from the edge. Taking a long deep breath she screamed her heart out, throwing out all of her anger.
” Felt better?” She smiled at me with those worn out eyes. The traces of the tears were visible on both of her cheeks. It was such a heartwarming moment for me to witness such thing.
How can a broken person look so cute?
It would make you pledge to yourself and you would promise yourself that you will never let go of this smile. You would want to protect this beautiful smile of their's.
~ to be continued