Chapter 39 - Feeling Disconnected (1/2)

I was sitting on my chair by myself, tapping my foot in anxiety. My mind was filled with unpleasant feelings about the current situation I was in.

Lucy came back carrying the plates. They were empty—— traces of food were still visible and I kinda felt relieved seeing those dirty plates. At least she's not going to sleep with an empty stomach.

Coming back to my room didn't change anything. I thought that I should at least ask her if she's okay or if she had eaten dinner. Honestly I was not ready to face her. The words didn't came to my mouth when I stood still in front of her door. I wanted to knock on the door which was the only barrier between us, keeping us away from each other. Few minutes had past but I just stayed there. My legs started to ache as I was standing there. It was a futile attempt of mine. I came back to my room with dissatisfaction and laid down on my bed.

Next morning I got up but I knew the luck is not on my side. Therefore the problems which have arisen because of my stupidity and arrogance are not going to be solved so easily. I'm such a fool for leaning towards my vanity.

I walked downstairs and Stella was there arranging the dining table. A little ray of hope flashed onto me. I knew that this is the only chance I will get. If I fuċk it up, god knows what disasters I am going to face in future.

” Good morning.” I politely greeted her. She didn't realised that I was here until I spoke. She was busy in her thoughts. Hearing my voice she came back to her senses and noticed my presence.

” Morning.” Stella replied softly. There was no sign of joy or glee in that voice, it was rather splenetic, filled with morse. She put down the plate in front of me and sat down on her chair opposite mine.

I was about to spoke up but she started to talk again ” Dad called me yesterday. He said mom's health isn't good so, I gotta visit them today.”

Hearing of my mother-in-law's bad health made me feel sad indeed but what made me more upset, was the leaving of Stella. Every thing is just going to the wrong direction.

” When are you going?” I asked her.

” I'll leave after eating breakfast. I have taken a day off from my work.” She sounded dull maybe because she's worried about her mother.

” Do you want me to come with you?”

” No, it's fine. Besides it's not that serious.”

” Okay. Let me know if you need anything.”

Our conversation was so lifeless that it killed me every time I opened my mouth to speak. I was also aware of the fact that Stella was suffering as well. She was avoiding eye contact with me. I just focused on my food and replied back to her. I left for office after finishing my breakfast. I couldn't stay there any longer.

As I was driving my car I thought I should listen some music. I tuned in the radio while driving my car. I don't usually listen to songs but I wanted to relax my mind.

The song that came on the radio was

”The less i know the better” by Tame impala

Why they playing sad songs in the morning for the fuċks sake! I turned off the radio instantly, knowing that the song will make me more depressed.

My day in the office went like usual. John came to report me about the upcoming events.

” You will have to take a business trip to France.”