282 No, I Won’ (2/2)

”You should stop looking at the world that way,” Soujin said calmly.

Tian Ni answered. ”Why won't you look at me?”

”When I'm at the hardest moment in my life, where are you?” Soujin asked back.

Tian Ni couldn't say that she didn't know. She was still in the Ming Kingdom when it happened, but at that time, she didn't want to meet with him anymore. She thought that his life already over and he would be a trash. Yet, she had been wrong because Soujin had become even greater in the future.

If she truly loved him, she would definitely accept him as he was. However, she did not do it. She only chased after him when he was great and has the glory and power behind him. The him that she wanted was not the real him. That was why Soujin chose to leave her and never looked at her anymore even as a sister like he did previously.

”I'm not allowed to see you,” Tian Ni made up an excuse.

Soujin shook his head. ”Don't lie. I didn't spend two years with you accompanying me for nothing. You're only looking at what I have and not me, so I can't accept you.”

Unknowingly, tears started to fall down on Tian Ni face. She didn't know the reason, but the tears just fell down on its own. Her heart obviously didn't hold Soujin anymore, but she couldn't erase her feeling just like that. Years of chasing after him left the mark in the deepest part of her heart. That mark was a permanent one that she could not erase.

It turned out, she couldn't really forget about him. ”I can change. I will change for you.”

”It's too late,” Soujin answered calmly. If people could change that easily, how could there be stubborn people, different traits and all? They have their own personality, and they could only change bit by bit as times passed by according to their path.

Maybe Tian Ni could change, but still, she was not one he fancied. He never put her into his heart and he would never do that. If she could change, what was the use of over one decade time ever since that time? He didn't have the will to wait for that.

”Why? People can change!”

”Yes, that's true. However, even if you change, I already have another person in my heart,” Soujin answered.

”If I do it earlier, will you look at me?” Tian Ni looked up.

Soujin stared at her, thinking about the question. If he hadn't met with Jun Hua, he would have never even open his heart. At that time, would he like this woman?

”No, I won't.”

The tears fell down even heavier.