Chapter 65 - Frustrations [2] (1/2)

Moon Jiwoo leaned down beside the lake and stared at her reflection at the water. Her hair was a mess, and dust particles could be seen on her face.

Jiwoo's eyes widened at that.

Extending her hand at the lake, she cupped up some water with her hands and splashed some of that on her face. As the cool water hit her face, she felt refreshed.

She continued to splash herself with water, and she did not know what it felt so addicting to her. After a while, she stopped doing so, and removing her hair tie, she tried to fix her hair.

She then mumbled, ”At this rate, you are going to turn to look like an Old Woman! No, that can't happen. You need to take better care of yourself. You will be single forever if you get ugly.”

A sigh left her mouth.

As Moon Jiwoo turned her head to the left, the small pebbles fell in her line of sight, and extending her hand towards it, she picked up some pieces of it.

She threw them at her reflection and watched it being distorted. The ripples made her throw more pebbles at the lake.

”Ah! This actually feels better! I don't even understand why I felt so suffocated then. All of this is completely annoying. This must be due to the affect of being this strange. No, why does it hurt this much.”

Moon Jiwoo's eyes widened when she realized that tears were starting to form at the corner of her eyes, and releasing her grip on the pebble, she raised her hand to touch the corner of her eyes.

Feeling the droplets of tears there, she spoke out, ”Yah! You Fool! What are you crying for? You are not that weak to start crying about something as silly as this. Geez! Stop being so pathetic. You are not this big of a loser.”

Despite of Moon Jiwoo saying those words to herself, a droplet of tears fell down her eyes, and sliding down her cheek, it stopped at her chin.

As more tears formed in her eyes, Moon Jiwoo felt a tight squeeze inside her ċhėst, and a pout formed on her face. The dėsɨrė to let out all of those suffocating feeling came within her.

”This is bad! Really bad. Don't cry! Stop! I am telling you to not cry. This is really embarrassing. What if someone walks upon me crying? Ah! You are not that weak, so stop this.”

”But this hurts, really hurts! I really want to go back! This is all too scary, and I don't like how things are going! I don't like Oh Sookyung; I don't like Min Hyungwon either. I don't want to be involved with this! I don't want to give up my life for Oh Sookyung and want to lead a normal life.

I don't want to continue to do this anymore. I am working hard, but this is hard. What if I can never have a normal life after this? That is scary! I want to live normally. I don't want to be involved that world. Will there be a turning point?

I don't know! This is frightening. I don't know what I am getting into, and this thing is difficult. Everyone is so hateful. I don't want to continue doing this. This is horrible.”

Moon Jiwoo began to throw more pebbles at the lake as she started to cry and poured out all of her feelings.

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Jiwoo had no idea on how long she sat in front of the lake and lamented. Finally, she felt calmer at her heart and stopped crying.

Raising her hand, she wiped away the remaining tears, and looking up, Jiwoo's eyes fell on the sky before.

It seemed that it was already night by now, and she pursed both of her lips into a thin line. Now that it was night, it would be difficult for her to find her way home.

As she stood up, she stared at her surroundings, and that's when, a realization came upon her. Everything looked more or less the same to her, and she did not know which way she had come from.

The howlings of the animal and cries of owl reached her ears, and a chill went down her back. She hoped that there would not be any wolves at here or else she would be dead.

”Are you done?”

Hearing that unfamiliar voice, Moon Jiwoo's eyes grew wider, and she whipped her head in the direction of that voice.

A dark figure emerged from amidst the shadow, and she realized that he was the man that had saved her previously multiple times.

A gasp left her mouth as she spoke out, ”Ah! It's you, but what are you doing? Were you spying on me the entire time?”