Chapter 165 - Fear Of Life (1/2)

Xu Mey woke up early in the morning to make breakfast herself. After taking a shower, she tip-toed out of the bedroom. By the time she came to the kitchen, Azalea was already there looking through the fridge.

"Do you need something?" Xu Mey's voice startled Azalea as she jumped in surprise and clutched her chest when she saw that it was just Xu Mey.

"You just scared me," she said trying to calm her breathing.

"I'm sorry about that." Xu Mey apologized and helped Azalea taking a seat at the kitchen stool. "What were you looking for? Tell me and I'll get it for you." Xu Mey offered with a smile.

Azalea was almost starstruck by the way Xu Mey smiled and mumbled, "You have a beautiful smile."

Azalea's words reminded her of Ye Jie's words when he said that he loves her smile the most. 'Indeed, they are blood-related.' She thought.

"Thanks, I guess!" Xu Mey retorted with uncertainty.

Azalea waved it off and got back to business. "Oh, I want to eat something. I'm really hungry." She told Xu Mey and placed her hand over her stomach to stress further that she was really hungry.

"I'm gonna prepare breakfast, can you wait for a while?" Azalea nodded her head to agree. "But I can cut some fruits for you to munch on for the time being." Azalea again nodded her head with force this time.

Xu Mey immediately cut some apples for her and got busy with preparing breakfast. While cutting veggies, she turned to Azalea and asked, "Why did you wake up so early?" Azalea's face fell and Xu Mey went on, "And don't say that you're hungry that's why you woke up. You can tell me anything."

Azalea pondered for a while and replied, "I don't want to sleep anymore."

"Why?" Xu Mey scowled.

"I'm scared that if I closed my eyes then I won't be able to open them again. I've been lying in the bed for almost 2 years and now, the thought of bed makes me cringe." Azalea explained with a heavy sigh.

Xu Mey paced up to her side and stroked her hair affectionately. "I was scared of life once."

Azalea lifted her head to glance at Xu Mey. "Aren't you scared anymore?"

Xu Mey smiled softly. "I am. I'm still as much scared of life as I was before. But something changed in that fear."

"What changed?" Azalea inquired.

"My sensei once said to me, 'Fear lies in the unknown. And the fear of the unknown can never vanish. It'll exist right beside us for as long as we are alive, it'll follow us like a shadow. But that doesn't mean that for that one shadow, we have to ignore the rest of our reality. Fear of reality and unknown is as strong as we let it become.'"

After a pause, Xu Mey added, "You don't have to concentrate on the fear anymore. Converge on the fact that there are loads of people around you who wants you to rise above that fear and who are ready to hold your hand just to guide you through life."

"You're an interesting person," Azalea noted while gazing into Xu Mey's eyes.